"is this my fault?, why didn't warn me brother" Sirius voice filled my ears as I slowly opened my eyes

"why not give her a potion or healing spell?" cissy asked

"it's won't work" I said weakly

"oh thank merlin" Bella said rushing to my side

"don't" I hissed as she grabbed my arm

"shit sorry" she said sadly

"and it is, it's your fault because I slapped you and caused a scene" I growled not looking at Sirius

"I'm sorry sweetheart, i...I can't remember why I didn't realise it sooner" he said weakly

"because I took it from you" I said softly

"that night in our dorm" he hissed

"I wasn't visiting for no reason" I said glaring at him now

"you little sneak" he hissed

"now isn't the time, she's hurt Sirius" Lucius said clearly upset about this

"why won't a spell work?" Evan asked

"they cursed me, if I try to heal myself it does the opposite and they will know and beat me further" I said sadly

"if you just hadn't kissed him" Sirius mumbled

"so it's my fault now" I snapped at Sirius

"if Evan and you didn't kiss than maybe" Sirius began

"you kissed" regulus said sounding slightly hurt

"we did it to piss him off" Evan lied at least partly

"but you said you've kissed before?" Sirius asked

"he's a potential suitor if I don't find my soulmate by fifteen I have to marry off" I said unable to look at regulus or anyone

"oh dear" cissy said softly

"don't say a blood word to anyone about this, my parents will have me killed" I said pleadingly

"which part?" regulus hissed

"don't snap at me regulus it was a silly little kiss were just friends remember" I growled

"right...friends" he said sadly

"we are right?" I said softly

when he didn't respond I knew, it was lost, our friendship was dwindling so I stood on shaky legs and teleported away. I fell right onto the concrete floor of my basement and passed out once more.

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when I woke up it was Monday, I had passed out for three days with no food, no water, and definitely no contact with what I thought would be my friends. The people I thought I could be friends with but the most important one no longer is, so what was the point in trying anymore. I didn't know what was going to happen to me in the future so I just stopped feeling. I let the light dim from my eyes and the colors darkened to almost completely disappear from my eyes. No more color changing eyes, no more feelings, no more friends, just simply a lonely girl who is always alone and will always be alone. Until the day where her parents finally kill her and then and only then will I be free of the chaos I've created all by myself.

When it came time for them to drag me upstairs again I was weaker and well felt numb to anything and everything. As months went by and nothing abnormal happened it was the usual yelling, arguing and beating in the Everwood manor. It became routine again, no friends and no one to save me or care about me. Not even bex, because I couldn't tell her a thing anymore nor could I letter my friends not that I would anyway. They probably don't care anymore and are moving on with their lives without me as if I never was. As the second year at Hogwarts got closer and the summer was coming to an end I wasn't nervous at all. In fact I felt nothing because like I said earlier I let all the lite go from my eyes so that they held nothing in them. So that no one would be able to tell if I was happy, sad, angry, fearful or excited and nervous.

No one would know anything anymore because I'd say nothing and do nothing. I'd be the good daughter and polite as well as obedient like I always should be. And as I got on the train for school weeks later I went straight to the far back compartment avoiding everyone keeping my head down and saying nothing. I knew that If I said anything to anyone in the slightest that it would get back to my parents and I'd probably nearly die yet again or even die officially. So as I passed my friends or the ones I once had and the only one to notice was regulus. But he quickly turned away as did I and I continued to leave towards the back door of the train. Where no one ever sits because it's quiet and lonely plus the ghosts that roam here are quite annoying.

"They didn't mean it" Abigail said

"It's not their fault I know it, but it's mine and I can't risk them dying" I said looking down at my hands

"Dear child, it shouldn't be this way" a man said

He looked oddly familiar to me, he looked like my mum somewhat and that's when I knew.

"Your my grandfather aren't you?" I asked

He nodded and a women stepped up beside him with sad and hurt eyes.

"We never trusted Joshua he tainted our lovely daughter, they were soulmates and she did what he said as he did what she asked, but it all changed the moment they met" she said