Another one inspired by a song lol

Except this one is just slightly better (I think) 

Maybe lol

I can do this. I took a deep breath and made sure I was wearing short sleeves and pulled my favorite jacket on. I fought the tears as I walked out of my cabin and out to the woods. I told myself that the pain would finally be over, but I wasn't sure. Gods, I was never sure. And I hated that. That's why I have to do this. It's something that must be done. I can't stand any of this anymore.

As I walked past the Apollo cabin, I only stopped briefly before continuing on. I was almost passed when I heard a familiar voice ringing from behind me.

"Hey, Nico! What's up? Why are you out so late?" It was Will. Almost sickeningly happy again. I almost hated it. Almost.

"Nothing, just going for a walk."

"This late?"

"Sure why not?"

"Well, it's dark."

"So?"

"Let me walk with you."

"Will, I'm fine."

"But I have nothing to do. I might as well keep you company," I finally turn around, ready to yell at Will. But, I hadn't realized how close he was to me. I backed up in surprise, forgetting everything I was about to say.

"Whatever," I muttered, and began to shadow travel. Except Will grabbed my wrist and looked me straight in the eyes, dead serious for once.

"Nico, shadow traveling is dangerous still. It's complete suicide."

I laughed and he stared at me with confusion.

"Suicide, huh? Of course, that's what you'd bring up! Don't worry, I've heard it all before. 'Careful, I think Nico's on the verge of suicide.' 'We should help Nico, he might commit suicide.' 'He might even be doing self-harm.' 'Probably has a blade in his bathroom.' 'Why don't you ask him?' 'Oh no, I don't want to pry, it's not my business.' And you know what Will? I've heard it from you, too!" I shouted at him. By now, I had streams of tears running from my eyes and Will was finished being confused and was now filled with astonishment from my sudden outburst. He had dropped my wrist from surprise. "Well, surprise, surprise! Did anyone ask me? No! Of course not! They're all scared of me! They're all scared of the death boy whose entire mortal family is dead. And you what some of them think? They think I killed them! Will, do you even begin to comprehend how much that hurts? It hurts so, so much." I was done screaming now. I was facing the ground, ready to collapse.

There was a long pause where neither of us spoke.

"No..." Will told me. "No, I probably don't. But you know what I do know Nico?" He asked me in a gentle voice. "I'm not afraid of you." I looked up at him, still ready to fall at any minute. I slowly sat down on the ground and Will sat down next to me. Looking downwards the entire time, I took a long time, just pulling off my jacket to display the long cuts on my arms. I didn't have to say anything. I didn't have to even look at him. But, I felt his strong arms wrap around me, pulling me to his chest. I closed my eyes, listening to the sound of his heartbeat, and, despite the chilling winds of the night, I didn't feel cold.

***

I woke to the sunlight, still able to hear the beating of Will's heart. But we weren't outside anymore. We were in my cabin, on one of the beds. I rolled over to be greeted by his beautiful sleeping face and I couldn't help really smiling for the first time since the war. I closed my eyes to get more sleep, I was never really a morning person.

I went out last night to stop all the pain, and I did. Just not exactly the way I expected. And I thought, as I lay there next to Will, that that was the last night I'd ever feel that kind of suffering again.