Warnings - mentions SA in some detail, self blame, harsh language
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Now by thirteen I could speak seven languages fluently and was a master at potions and DADA. I was good at all subjects such as charms, transfiguration, and more but I excelled in potions and DADA for the most part. It was sad that I couldn't see the others like me anymore but it was probably for the best. Because when my birthday surpassed and it was getting closer to a new semester and year. I was finally given a letter, the letter I e dreamed of for some time. It's a letter of acceptance into Hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry.

"Mum I got in" I said excitedly as I rushed into the west wing of the manor where her office was

I didn't realize James moon was here with Jessie his son until it was late and I had already interrupted their conversation.

"Trinity Estella black what have I told you about knocking" mum shouted

"Sorry I didn't know you had guest, poppy didn't inform me of such" I said softly my cheeks red form nerves

"It's ok, perfect timing actually" James said

"Jessie why don't you and Trinity go to the sun room for a while so I can speak with James alone" mum said

What I didn't know then I wish I had because the wicked grin that Jessie had was far from what I thought it was for. At the time Jessie was nearing eighteen years old while I was barely closing in on being fourteen years old. I happily took his arm and walked gracefully towards the sun room to chat with him. As different in age we were I normally felt comfortable around Jessie and so it was in this moment. As time passed with us chatting he became more touchy towards me and I brushed it off at first. It wasn't until he became aggressive with my attempts to get away did i fully realize what was bound to happen.

"Be silent now" he said as he pinned me to the ground

"Please Jessie don't do this" I thrashed against him

He slapped me causing me to shut my mouth as a tear slipped dow my right cheek. He pinned me to the floor and ripped my skirt up so he could see me better.

"P...please" I begged

"Don't act like this isn't your fault, if you hadn't been so flirty and rude I wouldn't need to punish you with my cock" he growled

My eyes widened at his words he was going to rape me, in my own home in my favorite spot to reside. I cried silently while he groaned and began pushing in and out of me. He grabbed my throat hard and began fucking me ruthlessly while my body betrayed me.

"Fuck, see you like this don't you" he chuckled darkly

"Stop it, it hurts" I begged

"Your pussy says otherwise doll" he laughed and grunted one last time as he released all over me

"Get up and go get clean if you say a word I'll just deny it" he said as he zipped his pants

I watched him walk out as I pulled the fabric of my skirt down just as poppy showed.

"Miss black what happened" she panicked rushing to me I flinched back and she knew

The house elf was one of my closest friends and if I flinched back from her just as Jessie walked out she put two and two together.

"Come my sweet I'll help you to a bath" she said helping me stand

"It hurts poppy" I teared up again

"Shh we don't have to talk about it" she said and helped me to my room

When we got there I felt my emotions getting the best of me and poppy knew then.

"Hurry dear in the room" she said rushing me towards my panic room

I nearly didn't make it in time as she hurried to shut the door and I broke down. I screamed and waves of magic flowed out of me shattering things and throwing things away from me. I trusted Jessie, I trusted him so much that I let it happen. It's my fault if I hadn't been chatty with him then maybe he would have never touch me like that. I was gone, broken and tired as I passed out form the exhaustion I now carried.
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Three months later and I was still a wreck inside but outside I put on a mask. I buried that incident deep down and did as Jessie demanded from me. After all it was my fault that it all happened to me right? It didn't matter because Jessie wasn't going to be at Hogwarts anymore and he'd be far from my life. I'd never see him again and it wouldn't bother me what so ever. I was glade for that but I was nervous to see what house I was placed into. Mum was Slytherin and father was too, but what if I'm a Ravenclaw or worse Hufflepuff. Don't get me started on the possibility of Gryffindor either because I'm not a fan of them. Mum said that she'd love me no matter what house I was sorted into but I beg Merlin from above to be sorted into Slytherin.

Maybe I'll find soulmates, but then again is that what I really want. Mum and father did research more so father did the research on soulmate for me. I won't technically know until I'm fifteen or sixteen years old because I was cursed. It's not that far away because when the first term starts up in September I will be a few weeks from being fourteen. Yet because of what happened I didn't want to find them what so ever anymore. I once wanted it when I first found out about it all being possible of course. Yet as soon as the incident occurred I was far less interested in that idea.