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Katherine's POV

My eyes wandered around , taking in every detail, from the white walls , the uncomfortable metallic chairs , to the marble floor.

Everything is so oddly familiar.

No , not just familiar.

Everything is just the same.

Even the white big door , that everyone is staring at waiting someone to get out, is the same, With the same big red sign above it indicating that whoever is inside is struggling between life and death.

life and death..The same line but viewed from different sides, where beauty and melancholy lies in between.

And the trouble is , we think we have time , we think that the end is so far from the beginning.

What we don't know is that in a blink of an eye , in a mere second , everything can change, we will just find ourselves on the other side leaving everything behind us.

My vision blurred as i found myself staring at the red sign for too long lost in my thoughts, so i averted my gaze and looked away.

Turning my head , i looked at them , i can see them but why i am not able to hear anything , as if my mind is totally blocked out.

Zoe's puffy red eyes showed how worried she is , her husband pulled her closer and hugged her mumbling some words to her maybe in an attempt to calm her.

His grandma , her eyes full with tears that are threatening to escape any moment now.

Even his parents , the people who don't care , they look worried , it is written all over their faces.

And Alex beside me , his head in his hands as his leg is tapping the ground continuously showing how nervous he is.

They are all worried, like me.

But why i am not crying, my eyes feel so dry , as if i ran out of tears.

I looked at my hands in my lap and saw them shaking , my whole body was shaking.

I closed my eyes taking a deep breath trying to at least breath normally.

But I couldn't, i was panicking .

Footsteps , i heard footsteps, the first thing my mind registered since i arrived here.

I lifted my eyes up ,the doctor went out of the operation room but I couldn't dare to look at his face.

I don't want to see his expression, Afraid maybe..

They all rushed toward him , while i stayed frozen in my spot , I couldn't move , my whole body feels numb even my mind does.

I don't want to hear what he is going to say , I don't want to endure that pain again.

I can't, i just can't..

I bowed my head as i tried to look only at the ground , I tried to block myself from everything around me , from all the voices.

"Thanks god." The only two words that my mind registered , it was followed by a relieved sigh.

I don't know who said that , but it was enough to give me the courage to look up.

As i looked at there calm faces and relieved expression, my heartbeats accelerated as relief rushed in my chest.

That means he is okay.

Ashton is okay.

Physically okay though..

I suddenly felt a hand over mine , I turned my head and saw Zoe beside me.

"Katherine." She said as her hand stroked mine soothingly.

In that moment tears came back to my eyes , in that moment i cried for the first time since we arrived to the hospital.

As if I was pulled from the shock i was in moments ago.

I wasn't able to hold the tears or even stop them.

"Katherine, he is okay." Zoe said ,"Don't cry, he is fine , he just have a fractured arm and it would heal in less than a month."

Her words were supposed to calm me , but for unknown reason , more tears started coming out.

I don't know why i am crying, maybe because i am relieved, maybe because he is okay.

Or maybe because i know that he hates me now , and that he won't talk to me anymore.

Why would he anyway ?

Zoe hugged me in attempt to make me feel better , but all i felt was guilt and shame.

I lied to these people , they treated me with all kindness but look how i repaid them.

They don't know yet , but that won't last long.

Zoe pulled away and gave me a small smile, her eyes were still red from all the crying.

"Do you want to enter and see him ?" She asked.

Should i enter ? What if he kicked me out , what if he said he doesn't want to see me anymore ?

I know that would happen eventually, but i am not ready for that now.

I shook my head , "Not now." I mumbled.

She didn't ask further , "As you want." She said offering me a smile.

I saw them entering the room , one followed by another , everyone stayed for ten minutes max, for Ashton not to get tired.

I was still in the same seat , when i saw Alex nearing me.

My heart pounded harder as i saw him stepping closer.

"Katherine." He said , his tone so serious, " What happened ?"

He will definitely hate me too when he is going to know.

I shook my head unable to answer his question.

In the last few weeks, I started to see Alex as a friend, i started to really like him , to get more close to him.

His witty sarcastic comments , his humor, always managed to make me laugh.

He saw me as a friend too , but what kind of a friend am i ?

He lost his work too because of me.

When i started this plan , i was too blinded with revenge that I didn't think how i will affect many people not just Ashton himself.

I was so selfish, i was so mean, I wasn't me.

Even though Alex seemed unsatisfied by my silence, he didn't push further , he just dropped the subject and went away.

***

I don't know how long i was waiting there , still in the same chair , unable to move.

"Katherine dear."

I turned my head and saw Ashton's grandma sitting beside me looking at me with worried eyes.

"Do you want to see him ?" She asked and I hesitated for a second.

I want to , so badly.

I want to check by myself that he is really okay.

I gave her a small nod , she stood up , "Come with me."

I followed her till we reached the room's door, "I don't know what happened, but i know that whatever it is , it can be fixed."

"So fix it please." She said and gave me a smile before going away.

I wish it is that easy , i wish i can fix this , i am afraid i am too late..

I stared at the door for a moment , having a debate with myself whether i should enter or not.

For a moment i was about to leave but then found my hand on the door pushing it open.

I entered , and walked toward him.

I froze in my place as i took in his appearance and a pang of guilt hit my chest hard.

His eyes are closed , many stitches over his pale face due to the accident.

His body was linked to so many machines beside him , and his bandaged arm laying numbly beside him.

He looked almost lifeless , he doesn't look okay for me.

And what is hurting me more , that he is like this , in this state, in this place , because of me.

I inched closer as i saw a few strands of his hair brushing over his forehead.

My hand acted on its own , as i brushed them away gently.

The moment my hand touched his skin , my heart started beating harder that i was hearing only its sound in this silent room.

I was about to remove my hand away when his eyes opened slightly.

I directly removed my hand away as i saw him blinking as if trying to adjust his eyes to the room's light.

His tired eyes traveled to my direction, our eyes met for a while before he averted his gaze away.

"Get out." He said with a gruff voice.

I just stood there , I didn't reply , I didn't move either.

"GET OUT OF HERE , NOW !" He raised his voice as he talked again , his hand went to his chest as he muttered this words and his brows knitted together showing he is uncomfortable.

I saw him shift in the bed , as if trying to sit up.

"Don't.." I inched closer touching his hand trying to make him lay down again.

But the moment my hand made contact with his , he flinched away.

"Go before i make them kick you out of here." He said with a cold tone and then started coughing.

"Ashton , please.." My voice was low and shaking.

My presence was definitely making him feel worse.

His hand went to his chest again as his face showed how he is in pain.

"GO !" He shouted again , his eyes flashed with anger as he looked at me this time.

I should go , I don't want to hurt him more , "I'll go.. Please just calm down."

I stepped backward as i saw him lay again in the bed.

I reached the door and took one more glance at him , his grandma was wrong.

This can't be fixed..

"Bye Ashton." I whispered , as tears scrolled down my pale cheek thinking that this is maybe the last goodbye.

I closed the door behind me , and ran away , the hurt in my heart just increasing.

I didn't stop running till i reached the washroom door, opening it , i stepped inside.

I closed the door and leaned on it. Closing my eyes I collapsed on the cold floor.

I brought my knees up as i buried my face in them letting all the tears out.

I lost him too , but it wasn't death's fault this time.

It was mine..

I don't know how long i stayed there but what I know is that I felt so much pain, that i started to feel nothing.

*****

Three days later..

Cara's POV

I opened the door and peeked inside , she was laying on the bed her eyes tightly closed.

I inched closer and placed the blanket over her, then looked back at her face and her swollen eyes proved that she cried herself again till she fell asleep.

She've been like this for the last three days, and i feel so helpless.  

Nothing i can do is going to make her feel better.

I shook my head and went out of the room not wanting to wake her up because i know she didn't sleep at all last night.

I stepped out , checking the time , it is still two pm.

I have to go today and book us tickets to go back to LA, because staying here is just making it difficult on her.

I pulled my hair in a messy bun , before taking my purse and heading out.

I opened my phone checking for any messages or missed calls.

Which is a thing i am doing every five minutes lately.

Stop Cara , stop waiting him to call you.

He won't..

I shook my head and closed the phone as i started the engine and drove toward my destination.

It didn't take me long to arrive there and book us tickets for tomorrow.

I was holding the passports and the tickets in one hand as i searched inside my purse trying to find the car keys.

I was too lost searching for the key that i didn't notice myself bumping into someone's chest making everything inside my purse fall down.

Well now i found the keys !

Hello there..

"Oh I am so sorry..It is my fault." I said directly not bothering to look at whoever i bumped into as i leaned down and started picking my stuffs.

"Clumsy ass me." I mumbled to myself  as i tried to gather my things.

"Let me help you cupcakes."

That voice , oh my god , that voice, it's him.

He is the only one who calls me like that.

My eyes widened a bit as i lifted my eyes and saw Alex bending down in front of me helping me out.

I tried not to look too affected my his presence as he handed me my wallet and the passports.

"Thanks." I mumbled then stood up.

"When is your flight ?" He asked as he stood up.

"Tomorrow at six." I said , "You?"

"Today." He said.

We kept silent after that as we just looked at each other.

"How are you?" I asked trying to ease the awkwardness.

"I've been better." He said with a sigh, "You ?"

"Same." I said then swallowed the lump forming in my throat.

I called him one time two days ago , and i am cursing myself since then , because he didn't pick up.

After what happened of course he won't, i am Katherine's friend and by now , for sure he knows what she did.

"I have to go now." I said suddenly not wanting to stay with him.

I know what happened was wrong, but i would never blame Katherine for that and I won't let anyone talk at her or blame her for anything.

With that i went away from him toward my car. Once i entered i let out a breath I didn't know i was holding this long.

Now , i have to do something before i go back to the hotel, as anger started to build inside me i drove toward his house.

I arrived there fifteen minutes later, i parked the car on the side and started walking.

I knocked on the door with a loud bang , no one opened so i knocked again much louder this time.

"Coming." I heard him saying as i heard his footsteps nearing.

He opened the door and his eyes widened a bit when he saw me.

"Cara." Caleb said, "What are you doing here ?"

I didn't hesitate when i raised my hand and slapped him hard on the face, "That's for messing with my friend."

I said , then i slapped him again , maybe this time harder , "And that for hurting him."

He looked taken aback by my action as his hand went toward his red cheek rubbing it.

"What the.."

"Shut up you jerk ! " I snapped letting all my anger on him , "I know you were responsible for Ashton's accident."

I wasn't a big fan of Ashton , but I won't go to the extant of hurting him like that.

"You little piece of shit, you are disgusting." I snapped pointing my finger toward him. my words making him angrier.

"Stop it." He snapped as he held my wrist so hard and pinned my hand down.

"I've never hit a girl before , but i can change that now." He said gritting his teeth.

Suddenly a fist was thrown toward Caleb's jaw, I didn't know how it happened or from where someone came behind me and pushed Caleb away.

My eyes widened as i saw Alex standing there , "Don't you dare touch her." He growled as he was looking at Caleb with angry eyes.

Caleb rubbed his bleeding mouth as he stared at Alex in disgust and hate.

"You too." He said looking at me and then chuckled, but I didn't understand what he meant by that.

I didn't have time to say or do anything because suddenly i was pulled away by Alex.

He dragged me toward the car away far from Caleb , "If he ever come near you just tell me." He said.

I gave him a nod for an unknown reason.

Then it hit me , what was he doing here !

"How did you see... What were you doing here ?" I asked confused.

"I.. I saw your car parking there so i came down and then.." He said running his hand in his hair, "Okay that was a lie , I can't lie , i was following you because when i saw you i couldn't , i just couldn't, I haven't see you in a while and I was trying to avoid you but that was so fûcking hard ,and then i said why I am avoiding you , i mean you have nothing to do with what happened so i came after you because i wanted .. No not wanted , i needed , i needed to tell you that i like you." He was mumbling too many words without stopping but the only phrase that stuck in my head is the last one.

He likes me..

I just stared at him dumbfounded not knowing what to say or do.

What do people usually say in such situations.

I am confused, lost , shocked, astounded, and the list of words goes on.

He ran his hand in his light brow hair , "I knew this would happen , i knew it." He said and shook his face.

I stared at him dumbfounded, what the hell he is talking about.

"Just forget it , i knew this would happen , i never really liked a girl and when i did i fucking get rejected.. Great just great.. Ugh.. Just go and forget it all .. I knew this dammit but Katherine told me.."

He didn't stop talking so i just did the only thing on my mind , i stepped closer , then grabbed him from his shirt and pressed my lips over his.

When I realized what i am really doing I directly pulled away embarrassed.

How in hell i did that !

I looked at him , my face probably red as hell , but the look on his face was priceless.

He looked shocked and dazed , making me grow more nervous , i cleared my throat , "It was the only way to shut you up." I said casually trying not to look too affected by the kiss.

But damn in hell i was..

He recovered from his shocked expression and his lips curled up into a smile ,a big one and the Alex i am used to was back.

"And that's , my dear friends what they call, an easy lay."He said teasingly with a wink as he stepped closer placing his hand over my waist and pulling me toward him, "My place or yours?"

"In your dreams." I rolled my eyes.

"Always." He said with his usual big smile.

I tried to free myself from his hold before anything more happen but god i was too late..

"But Alex," I said trying to push him away, "I am not a nice girl."

I am not like the girls he is used to go out with , i am not all girly and shit. I can cut his dïck and feed it to dogs for all i can care...

"That's why i like you." He said shutting my thoughts before his lips crashed into mine.

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This chapter was supposed to be longer but then i decided to split them into two.

So there is two more chapters and the story will be completed.

I just wanted to add a small Alex-Cara scene , so yeah 😋

And Caleb deserved those slaps . Go Cara 🎊🎉

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