So this won't surprise you, but I tend to talk to myself alot. Regardless of my mostly positive outlook and sunny persona, I spend most of my time conversating with little demons called anxiety and purpose. Woopdy doo, another teenager with mental issues, but today while I was thinking I came across a thought that I wanted to jot down regarding purpose.

I was looking at my Twitter (a disaster) and I had the thought that one day, maybe even just a few years from now, there will be hundreds of thousands accounts abandoned because people will pass or move on from that media. Such is progress. Such is life. But it also made me think of my other media. My instagram, my DeviantArt, and mostly my Wattpad. I know that as time passes, my account will fade just like anything else in time. So what's the purpose of me writing in the first place?

As I looked back on the things I've written, I realized that a lot of my old writings were clunky and incoherent. Especially on my original account. (Shoutout to my first fanfic Complicated Situations! Natsu X Lucy son! Cringy but set me up for this.) But as I've grown, I've found it easier to reimagine characters in situations so I can understand their personalities and weaknesses just as if they were my own. I make stories that test their courage and passion because to task me just as much as I task them. And I love it.

Some stories, such as Soulless and Ran into You are stories I wrote because I shared traits in common with characters. Some stories, like Gunpoint and Stuck In Between were requested after my page started to get a following. Either way, I realized I have two reasons I keep writing and I felt the need to share them because maybe some of you have been asking the same thing of yourself.

1. I write because people want me to. I bring joy to people by sharing my passion and that makes me happy.
2. I write because I enjoy writing. It's something I honestly look forward to. Even if a chapter ends up being complete garbage or way off topic to the plot, it doesn't matter because I wrote something I'm proud of.

I love you all so much. This was posted at 11pm exact my time so, to all my little buggies.... Good Night.

Bug~Chan