{ R.I.P Christina Grimmie, gonna be missed <3 }

He buried his face in his hands, crying took over the room, he was feeling so weak. Sadness was from now following his life. The one and only person he was caring for was lying peacefully on the hospital bed breathing delicately with her eyes shut. Pieces of glass on her face, scratches on her body. What happened? It didn't really matter as a life was on the line. He was wishing he could do something, he couldn't.

"Why it was you, why it couldn't be me?"

His thoughts complicated, his eyes full of tears waiting for a response even if he knew he wasn't gonna get it.

"Wake up Y/n, i beg you don't die here... P-Please i can't live without you!"

He was sobbing having his head between his hands with his eyes closed tight. His eyes were like a spring, crying and crying.

"I want you besides me, laughing with you and seeing your bright smile! Holding you tight, looking deep into your beautiful y/e/c eyes!"

He was speaking low as her breathing was echoing in the room. Different wires connecting her weak bruised body.

"Please..I don't want to be alone..The only person i need is you..Please god, don't take her from me..''

He bowed his head as his breathing hitched.

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Burning liquor down his throat, one more shot. His blood-shot red eyes open wide trying not to fall asleep even if he was tired. He was whispering to himself, going slowly insane. His hands holding tight the glass. more alcohol in him.

"Why you are away from me, why god had to take you..Why you are now an angel?"

"..."

"WHY THE FUCK YOU HAD TO DIE!?"

He threw the glass on the floor violently with all his force shattering it in million sharp pieces as he burst into tears. He couldn't stop crying, three months now feeling desperate.

"I wish it was only just a dream.."

Bonus ;

I smiled weak sitting besides him. He couldn't see me or feel me but i could. I wrapped sad my bruised arms around his weak body hugging him as tears started streaming down my pale cheeks.

"I wish it was only just a dream, too Alex..I wish..."

i kissed his cheek gently as a small smile formed onto my red lips.