Alex's P.o.V

And as i adjust the shirt on my chest i realize that i am not the groom this time. I understand that my chances are lower now and there will be no time for me.

I met her in primary school, a little angel that knew how to hide her horns. She was brightening my days as we were hiding between the flowers and the grass, running away from the headmaster that was looking for us. We were causing trouble, the teachers were already calling us "partners in crime". From selling chocolate and candies to drawing on the walls our future with happy colours. Our futute seemed too bright, so bright that we needed to look away from it as we stared at each other.

Maybe during middle school i fell in love with her e/c eyes and her big smile. Being extra positive and studying wearing blue glasses while at night she was hitting the dance floor with black mascara and short skirt. I remember wiping her dark tears away from her rosy cheeks using my plain fingers as that one famous boy had called her "ugly". Sobbing and being a perfect freaking mess but such a beauty.

In high school, i knew she was the one for me, my future wife. A goddess, an Aphrodite. High school is also connected with drugs. It's the first time i tasted that kind of pills. The only tastes i still remember are those; Lsd, tobacco and her mom's applepie. We were hiding in the toilets, lighting up cigarettes and inhaling deeply tasting the smoke. We were destroying ourselves, burying our own graves but we liked it. Our grades weren't high, they didn't have to be.

We had each other.

I stayed in the friendzone, i never said a single word. Maybe i kissed her, maybe i touched her when we were high but who knows? And now we are all grown up. We have jobs, we have money. Society turned us into victims and our teen selves that had clothes with marijuana on them were burned in the past. School ended, our friendship lasted till now.

We forgot our mistakes but let the memories also go. And then, she met this guy in the university and now they are getting married. I will never kiss her lips, i will never hug her tightly and tell her that i love her till i leave my last breath on the earth. She will forget me and if i had the change i would revise the time and kiss her when i swallowed that pill and i got higher than the sky.

But i can't.

Why?

Cause now she is getting married.