How can a human break you mentally and make your once proud body weak? I was smiling and he took a black marker and destroyed my happiness. And black circles start appearing and bruised peachy lips. Strange marks on my arms and crimson hickeys on my neck. I can't run away, he'll catch me and fuck me and shatter me into million pieces because i am like glass.

I curled into a ball sitting silently at the corner, hoping he won't notice me. Living is a miracle, being held down by demons and past thoughts of that one hot summer night. You make a choice and commit suicide. Not a real one, your soul dies. I heard the car, the keys, the door. My love is back, he brought the other half of my heart with him.

"Honey, where are you?"

My words are like honey, so sweet that they can impress you. He's so bitter, reminds me of poison. I brough my finger to my bottom lip, no answer came back. He walked, the cracking sounds from the stairs are by my side. They are screaming to me that he's coming, they are yelling to me to leave and run and hide.

"Oh here you are sweety.."

He kneeled in front of my with a soft glare, looking at me like i am an injured wild amimal. His sweaty fingets trailing over my already bruised cheek.

"Oh my.. You got into some real trouble when i was gone."

I wimped and growled nearly biting his skin as he backed a bit coughing just to hide his fear.

"I didn't hit you, you fell from the stairs applepie.. You are fantasizing things babe.."

How can he sell those lies to me? The walls scream and shout to me. Alexander, you fucking cheating pig! You big fat liar!

"Now, now.. I bought some pizza, i know you love pizza. Let's go and eat."

He grabbed my wrist and i panicked. If i try anything, he'll hurt me again. I gulped and my eye twitched as i followed him downstairs.

And my desires take over me.
And i've been thinking of his lips.
But i am too damn sober.
For mistakes like this.