"How you feel?"

"My demons are yelling at me for setting them on fire again."

"Are you so depressed all the time?"

"Most of it, sometimes i break a cup and i feel better."

"What turned you into this madness?"

"Everything, this society, my family, my friends. The world is destroying itself but no one cares."

He glared at me for one second and grinned, shiny sharp teeth. His glowing eyes shining through the darkness, i could feel his hot breath filling with anxiety the room.

"What will you say to Alex?"

"Nothing, he'll think that i have commited suicide."

"You will fool him?"

"Better make him cry and then forget me than feel sad for me."

"Don't you have feelings?"

"Feelings, what's this? Feelings are a curse for humanity just like beauty."

He paused running his fingers through his dirty blonde hair. He chuckled, arguing with a human can be difficult. My heartbeat was loud, insanity was piercing my veins.

"You are pathetic, woman."

"I am not pathetic for wanting the best for Alex."

"And what is the best solution?"

"Dissapearing from his life."

He couldn't understand me, couldn't understand how much better Alex's life would be without me. Roses are beautiful but covered in sadness, too. That's how i feel.

"Alex loves you."

"Alex hates me."

"Are you insane, pathetic or depressed?"

"All of them."

At that point the door opened widely revealing a tired Alex, he dissapeared faster this time. I was starring at a wall, Alex was confused but didn't care a lot. Black circles under his eyes, messy brown hair.

"Who were you talking to?"

"To my personal demon."

"Oh..."

He laid besides me still with wearing his clothes, not pajamas. I wasn't in need of his attention, he didn't want to start a convestation. Alex closed his eyes and sighed, almost tearing a bit.

"I love you."

"No you don't."

"What made you think i don't!?"

"Me, my demon says also that you love me but i don't believe him."

"He isn't lying, i love you. The other demons in your head just keep saying lies."

"What a surprise."

He turned his head and looked at me. Dark eyes starring at me in total darkness.

"I am a cold body that barely breathes, Alex."

"You are my world."

"I am an illusion in your world."

"If i lose you, i'd die."

"Aren't we all already dead?"

The discussion had reached its end as i felt something around my waist. I didn't know if it was Alex's arm or hell's poisonous snake.

"Just follow the doctor's description and don't harm yourself."

"My existence is harming everyone, it's a curse."

"Your existence gives me a reason to wake up and feel alive."

"Don't breath really hard and deep, the toxics are gonna kill you."

"Your behavior is already a killer."

I closed my eyes, many eyes around the room starring at me. Was Cipher real or something i created in my mind? Maybe all these pills send to me a demon savior. A demon savior for a little piece of shit, exactly what i ordered.

Alex was asleep, i could hear him snoring slightly. I leaned my foregead on his, he was trying really hard. But my mind is unfixable and my heart is feeling strange.

"Don't worry love, i am gonna give you back your life by sending mine back to hell."

~The End~