It was too late for me, my whole existense was a mistake. Standing at the door, looking at Alex's sleeping face. It's such a shame i can't explain my situation, my love. My DNA destroyed, my eyes turning to gold and back to e/c. I am really afraid i may hurt you, that i may turn into a monster and tear you apart. I cupped his cheek smiling, a last memory. My fingers catching blue fire as i pulled away nearly to tears. He moved a bit, his body begging me to stay and find a solution with him. I couldn't, i will turn into a beast! I ran downstairs, i was feeling so weak, so tired. I grabbed a paper and a pen. What am i supposed to write?

❝My dear love,

I am leaving, running away. Don't look for me, stay away please. You were a great husband, you can't save me now. Please, just ՏԵɑվ ɑաɑվ.  I am turning into something different, i don't want to hurt you. Have a nice life, forget me for your own good.

Only insanity will make me forget you,

Y/n (m/n) l/n❞

And i ran away, into pinetrees and leaves. Birds tweeting, the fresh smell of the pinetrees making me crack a small shining smile. My back on that one special pinetree, a craved heart on it with the names Alex and Y/n in it. My fingers travelling over the marks.

"Oh miss y/n."

He stepped besides me grinning with his sharp teeth. He gave an epilogue into my story, into my life.

"Why you did this... You infected me with your virus, i am turning into a demon, i had to let my husband down.."

He kneeled down starring at me with half-opened eyes. Golden eyes that seem to pulse in my head, grabbing my hands gently, giving them soft kisses.

"You don't need Alexander to be happy, my dear. Just me and i will fill you with happiness and everything your little human soul desires, my angel."

And i fell apart and before i knew his lips collapsed to mine.

And that pinetree caught on fire, like my past memories.

*S*E*V*E*N*
*M*O*N*T*H*S*
*L*A*T*E*R*

Walking throught the forest, tree's yellow leaves falling one by one. My golden short dress hiding my belly as my fingers trailed over my unborned child. I smiled at the though of holding it. Bill is a really sweetheart but he can't replace Alexander.

Alexander

I hope he found a new lady, someone that makes him smile. I hope he is healthy and married again having children. I hope he-

"Y/n?"

I turned around facing those amber eyes' that made a summer day my heart go boom. He was shocked, i gave him a sweet smile ready to leave. He grabbed my wrist softly making me turn my attention back to him. His eyes filled with darkness, in need of some answers.

"Where have you been, you left and everyone lost contact with you, did i do something wrong, please t-"

"Shhhh.."

I brought my hand to his cheek, him leaning on it worrying. How could i possibly explain?

"You must leave Alexander, it's a long story and you won't understand. We are both puppets in his puppet show and she's gonna be, too."

"Who's 'she'?"

I bowed my head still having that smile caressing my stomach, his eyes widened in total shock before gazing into mine.

"You are pregnant, how-"

"Shhh... Words should be selected one by one with love gently.. Run and don't come back, listen to me."

And i kissed him, a last kiss, a last promise, a last goodbye. A tear streaming down his face as he backed away.

"I don't know what is going on b-but... But i love you and forever will."

"My love.. My heart will always belong to you.. Take your time.. I'll see you on the other side..."

And i vanished, Cipher doesn't have to know for this experience. And i found that one burned tree, it was slowly reborning itself into this world. And the craved heart was still there, reminding to me my mistakes and my Alexander. Maybe i could turn the time back some day and steal some more hugs and kisses from him.

But until that day, he will be the master.

And i will be leaving notes behind me.