I woke wrapped up with Xander, I try to get up but he holds me tight to him and he has his hand under my breast, I turn bright red and try to take his hand away but he holds it tight.

Oh god! I bite my lip to stop from moaning. When I'm sure he isn't waking up anytime soon, I turn around and try to wake him up.

"Xander" I whisper and shake him a bit

"Hmm" he groans before crushing me to him

"You are um you need let me go" I state

He lazily opens his eyes before jerking away from me.

"Shit, did I hurt you, sorry I" he stops.

I can't help but laugh, seeing him all worked up.

"No you didn't, I just wanted to go bathroom but you wouldn't let me leave. You go back to sleep" I reply and head to bathroom.

"There are clothes for you in the bed, if you decide to shower"

Xander calls from the other side of the door. As, I hear him leave, I look at myself in the mirror. The bruises are not so bad but it will fade.

While I am in the bathroom, the idea of shower seems nice so I take the shower and dress up before I walk to the kitchen where Xander is having coffee and reading the paper.

As soon as I enter, he looks at me then hands me a coffee and serve some eggs and bread before he focuses on his paper once again.

We have our breakfast in silence. But, as I keep glancing at him he hasn't been taking his eyes off of his paper. Thinking he must have a busy day ahead and may be I have over stayed my visit I ask him.

"Can you drop me off to my home?"

"No"

I look at him only to find him still too busy looking at the paper in front of him. May be he really is busy. I shouldn't bother him too much; he has already done so much for me.

"Okay" I state and get up from the seat to go change and make my way back home myself.

"You are staying here with me" he announces.

I look at him in disbelief but he just keeps reading the paper, which begins to irritate me.

"My family must be worried, they don't even know where I am from last night" I try to point out.

"You don't have to worry, I already informed them and my parents are at your house right now, as we talk" he still isn't looking at me.

"Now sit and finish your food we got lots of things to do and I think you owe me an explanation" he adds when I don't make a move to sit down.

Why doesn't he look at me? I stand and stare but all he does is turn the page and start reading it.

Giving up I finish my breakfast and then he puts the plates in the washer and start washing it all the while not even giving me so much of a glance.

"So about David, care to tell me, why he is trying to" he lets the sentence hang.

Knowing he won't let me get away with it this time I give up. I do not think its any use to hide it from him about all of it anyway after all he did witnessed my condition last night.

"I met him on my 18th birthday and we pretty much dated for a year, before I slept with him but he didn't want my family to know about us for a while. But after a year he was announced to be engaged with Casey and he held no interest in me...

I was just another notch in his bed and yes, just like you called me a slut of his, as he pretty much cleared that I was, so he didn't want me as his wife or to come between him and my sister...

So, I didn't and now all of a sudden he wants his slut back" I shrug as I tell him all this as it's that simple, without showing any of my emotions.

Well, if he can't look at me then no point in showing my emotions.

"Now if you are satisfied then can I leave? I have my classes to catch. Thank you, for your kindness" I get up from my seat feeling emotionally drained and hurt from his cold attitude to me.

I move to his bedroom but stop as I hear something break so I turn around to see broken glass in his hand as his hand is bleeding.

I move towards him as he held his hand in the water to wash the blood. Hurriedly, I take a cloth and press at the wound to stop the bleeding.

"Leave! I'm fine you got your classes after all" he shouts harshly to me

Seeing him so mad I leave him alone to tend himself and go to change my clothes.

I search for the dress from last night, which is in the dumpster, but still I wear it before I walk out. He is still not facing me so I say my goodbye, but before I walk to the door he grabs and hold me to the wall.

"What the hell do you think you are doing wearing this dress?" he grits out through his teeth to me.

"I can't leave with wearing just a pair of boxer and a shirt" I state the obvious.

What is wrong with this guy?

"So you think wearing this you can? This dress where you fucked your lover is it? Here I'm feeling guilty that you were a victim but I guess you deserved it huh? Do you want to fuck me too?" he seethes at me as I stare at him wide eyes in disbelief.

How dare he?

Moreover, before I know it my hand is against his cheek, slapping him hard enough to hurt him as he is hurting me with his words and action. But it doesn't affect him as he only glares at me.

Loosing the last piece of control on my anger I start pushing and hitting him.

"Get off me" I scream

"Let me go! Why? Why, are you all planning on ruining and breaking me, why do you have to be just like him, why?" I hold his shirt and shake him to get my point through his thick skull.

"What have I ever done to you or him huh? All I wanted was for him to love me back, but he used me and now when I want to move on he won't let me, forcing himself on me...

I can't sleep at all at nights, thinking he will come in my room. I can't even feel safe in my own house, when he is around. I can't even tell anyone about us because that will break my parents. I don't deserve this and I don't deserve your anger or disgust"

As I speak and spent my anger I keep shaking my head all the time. I slump down on the floor as he takes a step back from me.

"You can't even look at me while you speak. I'm tired of all this and scared. I don't know when this will end and what will it take for everything to end" I whisper the last of my energy all drained away and all I can feel is hopelessness.

The one man I have given my every bit of myself has betrayed me in ways I never wish for anyone to go through. Then this man I tend to have feeling for treats me, as I am nothing but dirt.

Doesn't he know that it hurts with all the accusation he makes on me? I jolt up as he kneels in front of me.

Without saying a word he starts to undress me and pulls his shirt over my head and then taking my clothes he burns it.

All the while I stay there watching his movement "You won't be going back nor will he ever touch you again. I promise!"

He vows as he stares at me with rage and for the first time it's not towards me. I see the fire burning, what does he wants from me now? I speak softly but he hears me anyway.

"I want to make you happy and feel free, from all your fears and mostly I want you to be mine" he answers

I blink back my tears as he walks to me and pick me up taking me to his room where I stay there in his bed on top of him.

"I'm sorry, I said something I shouldn't have and for hurting you, but trust me I won't let myself or anyone else hurt you again ever. Now please, I want to know what David wants. Please Sunshine!" he begs.

I rest my head on his chest and close my eyes taking a deep breath, before I start telling him everything how he seduced me then used me and threw me aside. How he totally ignored me till he started disturbing me again till what happened last night.

"He didn't rape me, Casey called before he could do...but I never wanted him after he was engaged to her. I swear I never gave him any wrong hints or signals that I want to be with him...

He was angry that I started dating, so I stopped it. But when I went out with you he was very unhappy. I love wearing skirts and summer dresses but when he started putting..." I stop and take a deep breath and shiver thinking of what he did.

"I don't wear them anymore. I don't want to be alone with him; he taunts me calling me names and baby. My skin crawls when he touches me" I shiver again and hold him tight.

Xander pulls the blanket and covers over us as he rubs my back and holds me tight as well. He listens to everything I say, with so much patience, that I feel comfortable enough to share my every nightmare with him.

Xander POV:

While Alex was in the shower I went to make some breakfast holding her last night was the best thing and touching her, god I groan.

If I did not hold my thoughts, I will end up ravishing her and this hard on its getting worse by being so close to her, its killing me. I start the breakfast as Alex comes to the kitchen wearing my clothes and that wet hair, I think I will die with blue balls.

To control my urges, I try not to look at her. When she says she wants to go, I couldn't let her. Not before I talk with her and after the voice mails she got from David last night, I'm not going to let her out of my sight.

However, when I ask about there relation the way she said it I got a bit hurt, she speaks, as it was nothing to her.

As she went to my room, I decided to think of a way to make her stay. However, when she came out wearing that damn dress and I lost it again.

Letting her go was hard, hearing David's message and the words he used were worse but seeing her wearing that dress again was the last straw I needed.

I had to let her know that she just cannot break my heart repeatedly but before I thought of how to act on it, I had already crossed the line and the way she was crying and screaming her frustration at me, I again felt guilty, once again.

So burning her dress was a satisfaction I got and after that carrying her to my bed I had to know why David was after her.

I try to keep my anger under control as I listened to her. I wanted nothing more then to kill that bastard who dared to touch and threaten her. How can a man be such an animal that he forces himself on woman?

I feel my blood boil with rage so I hold her tight to me and rub her back, not just to soothe her but the beast inside me as well.

If I let her go now I know I will go hunt him down. I breathe in her hair and kiss her temple before I roll her down and bury my face in her neck and groan.

"Xander" Alex calls worriedly.

"Hold me, just hold me if I let go, I will go and kill that bastard" I state with a strain in my voice trying to control the rage in me.

So, she just holds me tightly. After a while, when I have enough control of myself I look at her and rub her cheek with the back of my hand.

How can anyone try to harm her in anyway, she is so innocent, loving and forgiving? How can she still feel safe with me after the way I have treated her in past few weeks? How can she smile and comfort me when I did nothing of the sort for her?

"You are so beautiful" I gaze at her eyes.

I can't let her go out of my life. No matter what I want to be with her forever if it's possible. I have never met anyone like her.

"Give me another chance, please Sunshine?" I plead with her hoping she will give me a chance just so I can prove her that not everyone of us gains pleasure in hurting a woman.

After a while she finally nods shyly avoiding any eye contact with me. I could not help but get attracted with the way she toys with her lower lip between her teeth.

And after everything, all these days without her catches up to me as I can't help but move closer to her, as if it was possible.

"I'm sorry, but I have to kiss you like now" is all the warning she gets as I crush my lips with her.