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Oh, hey there.

It is 12:07am for you now.

So it is currently, and officially, on half of the side of this world, Megustė day now. It isn't for me yet, but it is for you and I really couldn't wait so here it is, the beginning of our own day to celebrate one year of our friendship. Grab some tissues, maybe a box of chocolates, because this is going to be a long one. It's kind of difficult to compact a whole years worth of words and gratitude into this. I'm not the best with words all the time, you know this, but I'm speaking from the bottom of my heart so I suppose that's what matters most.

I was once a fifteen year old girl, writing on the internet about a couple who I was fairly obsessed with (and she just so happened to be obsessed with them too). I gained support from a fellow girl from Lithuania not too long after, and something about her immediately told me that she was different. Her comments, that i loved and cherished with all my heart, and just the way of how kind she was to me, I couldn't fathom. It seemed so genuine that it made me smile. Honestly I looked forward to her comments all the time, and I was more than grateful for her support.

February 9th, 2016. She wrote on my message board, "I know it's too soon for me to say this, but my life is complete after reading your story. You are such an amazing writer! I'm so happy that I'm able to read your stories and see how you and your writing has grow with every chapter. You are absolutely amazing!"

I'm shedding my tears right now this is so emotional

To which I replied, "That is the sweetest comment ever thank you so much!!! You are amazing. I can't tell you how thankful I am that you read my book :) thank you so much"

( THE FORMALITY THOUGH AUG I CANT BELIEVE IT WE HAVE CHANGED SO MUCH MY HOE )

I could go on and on about everything that this ball of light has sent and said to me on my message board or just on the internet period. She left me a message on my birthday and when I hit 1k on here, and those messages I will never forget. I hold those so close to my heart because they meant the absolute world to me it wasn't even funny. She made me cry on my own birthday. I remember one time on Instagram when I was posting teasers for a chapter of Hypnotic, and she told me she wasn't going to sleep until I updated. I therefore told her she was crazy and that she needed to get some rest! She read it, and I thought she was insane because it was like 4am for her by the time I was done with it!! Little did I know that I would become so accustomed and used to her sleep schedules to where it is actually normal to us now. I still remember that moment clearly because I truly knew that she supported me then and there and that someone would want to read my writing so much, and it warmed my heart.

Okay now here comes the gushy things. As much I hate it, that we can't be together to spend this day together, you and I both know that one day we will be able too. We've already got our lives planned out, so we're set. ( We are here for each other in spirit, always.)

But here's the truth. I didn't think that I would ever love and become so close to someone as I have to you, Augustė. I never thought I could ever have such an incredible best friend. I prayed for a best friend, have been, for seven years maybe? Even longer than that most likely, I don't remember, I can barely remember five minutes ago let's be honest. But anyway, I had no idea that our friendship would blossom into something as strong as this. We instantly clicked, I knew that, but the more we got to know each other the further we realized how much we actually have in common. When we started taking on Instagram it only took like three hours until I began sending you memes. We were like the same, I mean, we have telepathy for goodness sake, Friday's and Saturday's are the best. We are practically the same person. (People I'm not joking we have telepathy it's some scary shit) but It's so easy for me to talk to you, I've never been able to talk to someone or express to someone like I have been able to do with you. I can talk to you about anything and everything, like I could talk to you about dirt..not that that has any correlation.. but you'd listen and talk to me about it too. I'm so grateful for you, and your existence, and presence. Maybe we're not as lucky as some people who get to be with their best friend in person. But we're still, nonetheless, here for each other, always. I promise to always be here for you. No matter what it is. I pray for you to find happiness every night, and for you to be okay over there while I'm not with you. I pray that God watches over you because I can't. We're inseparable for the rest of our lives. And as I say, we're kindred spirits. Honestly this blows my mind being able to say that because I grew up thinking that I would never have a true kindred spirit or someone that would accept me to be their best friend. So thank you. Thank you for listening to my utterly stupid and pointless rants and endless memes and endless photos and talkings about tom and marvel and Sebastian and random crap that makes no sense sometimes but you listen, always. Thank you for putting up with me when I'm annoying and insane. Thank you for reading all my texts. We've cried multiple times while texting each other, no doubt about that. I'm eternally grateful for you and your soul. No ocean can set us apart. ( P.S. OUR SYMBOL IS NOW AND FOREVER AN OCEAN.)

Im also grateful that we don't have to worry about finding our soulmates, because we already have. Not everyone finds a soulmate in a lover and I'm so happy that my soulmate is my best friend instead of a lover. HALLELUJAH TO US

But here's my promise to you, to our future. I will be here for you as long as I'm breathing, no matter what. We'll see each other one day. And when we do, we're going to have hundreds of wild and domestic animals while having our own photography studio. Here's to those days.. but also;

after a whole year, here's to my crazy ass, hoe, main bitch, sister, bruhtowski, soulmate, kindred spirit, future traveling buddy, quantum telepathy partner, and best friend. (+ many more titles it's insane)

You are fantashtica. From the inside out.

I love you more than anyone else. Even more than dogs. Wow, insane, right? But it's true :)))

Thank you for being yourself. Thank you for being my best friend. I love you to pluto and back, always.

Happy Megustė day, Augustė Jurcyte. Here's to many more. :) *toasts with imaginary wine*

yes bitch I included alcohol you're welcome

(ALSO YOUR BIRTHDAY IS IN EIGHT DAYS SO I HAVE TO SAVE PART OF MY SPEECH FOR THAT, DON'T I? I STILL HAVE MANY TEARS TO BE SHED)

Oh and look how gorgeous my best friend is.

And yes, because I'm lame, I'm going to cue that lame ass song, that I love.

(OH, OH, TURN UP)
CAUSE MY BEST FRIEND FINNA, SHE FINNA
(THAT'S MY BEST FRIEND) OOH, GO BEST FRIEND THAT'S MY BEST FRIEND THAT'S MY BEST FRIEND