The lonely note
(Why am i alive i wanna die but i know i have to keep this fight ,i dont know if im right but this fight keeps me alive)

I hate life ,why am i alive does it even matter ,who i hurt ,it doesnt ever matter if i return or burn nobody really cares,its not fair
Yet i stare at the mirror looking at my reflection noticing i have no protection

Nobody notices my pain i have scars in my heart ,i lost the meaning of being alive ,im tired of this fight ,every night i tell my self i have to wins this fight with all my might

My life is like a bomb,once detonate i wont hesitate to discrimnate ,ill lose all my fate and release all this hate .i wish i could conquere fear without a tear ,my existence has no more persistence you wont notice thats theres no more interference of my appereance,the fear of dying but knowing it a mistake.everybody is fake,i wrote a note to myself saying dont lose your confidence for god sake, life is complex you just have to reflex , the thing is i lost note of that text

(Why am i alive i wanna die but i know i have to keep this fight,i dont know if im right but this fight keeps me alive)

My tears is what drains my pain and make me feel a relief,its like a break i feel like im lost in space i daze in to a star looking for love,i lost care for anybody or somebody , i never had much,so im just full of hate and depression it happens for more than one occasion.dead is a solution with and end ,this is not my end ,ill keep living waiting for the person whose gone show me the reason to stay awake

We live in a world where people have lost love and care for others,people kill themselfs yet you will blame then ,my question what if it was you,the one who felt alone ,and thought that was the only solution.Sure it easy to blame only him so we dont considered it a problem .its our fault also how could we leave that person alone ,why are we like this ,i regret being a human even an animal has more care .we need to realize our mistake ,so we can make the world at better place

(Why am i alive i wanna die but i know i have to keep this fight ,i dont know if im right but this fight keeps me alive )

I wish i lived up to my expectations this silent proclamation,a riot without intention ,its a warning without notation.my vision makes no decision ill keep my postion,i start to mention my own invetion , you feel your dead without a prayer ,knowing your dead was never even mentioned