Chapter Fifteen - No Words.
'Alec's eyes opened to find himself back in the apartment he shared with Magnus in Brooklyn. The bedsheets were tangled around him and his dark hair was fanned out on the pillow. He rubbed his eyes and smiled as Magnus walked into the room with breakfast. "Hi handsome." Magnus said placing the tray down in front of Alec and kissing him lightly. Alec smiled slightly and began to tuck into his breakfast, listening as Magnus spoke and occasionally nodding in agreement. "Are you feeling okay today?" Magnus asked cautiously, his eyes wide with concern. Alec nodded, feeling confused he watched as Magnus played with the long sleeves of Alec's shirt.

"Magnus? What's wrong?" Alec whispered, although he had no idea why he was whispering. Tears shone in Magnus's cat eyes as he muttered, "You don't remember, do you? They said that might happen. That you'd block it out because it emotionally hurt you badly."
"Who said? What are you talking about Magnus?" He grabbed at the sleeve of his shirt and although Magnus tried to force his hand away, he gripped it tight and pulled the fabric back to reveal the scars that slashed across his wrists. "What happened?" Alec questioned, tears dripping onto his cheeks; Magnus brushed them away with his thumbs. "You cut your wrists open," Magnus said, finally letting his tears fall, "your parents came around here and said something to you - something bad - about us and our son and when I came home found you slouched on the floor in the kitchen." Magnus sobbed, "I-I th-thought you w-were de-dead at first."

"I'm sorry Magnus." Alec whispered, cupping one of Magnus's cheeks. "It's not your fault." Magnus whispered back, kissing Alec's forehead lightly. Suddenly there was a loud cry, "Daddy!" Alec glanced up and Magnus smiled as a young child stumbled into the room. He clambered up onto the bed and sat in between Magnus and Alec. Alec grinned staring down at the little boy. His hair was a murky brown colour and his eyes were blue cat's eyes. He scrambled along the bed, closer to Alec and grinned. "Now, Max. Remember what I told you." Magnus said gently but in a firm tone, "Daddy needs to rest he's not feeling well." Max nodded and crawled right beside Alec and lay down beside him, holding out a piece of paper. Alec took it and looked at every inch of the drawing on the cover. "It's a card." Max said, "For you daddy. Do you like it?"
"I love it Max." Alec whispered, hurriedly making sure that the scars were hidden, he played with his son's hair smiling contently as Magnus watched them.'

Alec woke up a gasp, throwing himself bolt upright. He ran his hands through his hair with a sigh. 'Really?! Again?!' He thought as he glanced down at Magnus who was still fast asleep curled up under the covers of their bed. He clambered out from under the covers and stood, stretching. He grabbed a pair of black shorts and a blue T-shirt from the wardrobe and headed into the bathroom for a shower.

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When Alec came out of the shower, dressed in the black shorts and blue shirt, he found Magnus propped up on his elbow waiting for him. Magnus smiled, "And there was me waiting to hear some more of that lovely singing." Alec blushed scarlet as he shoved Magnus playfully, "Tough luck. I'm not singing ever again."
"I could make you." Magnus laughed as Alec pouted, "Don't even think about it!" He warned the warlock as he ran his hands through his damp hair. A smirk crept onto Alec's face and he glanced over at Magnus. Magnus's eyes narrowed at him, "Alexander, what ever you are thinking of doing, don't." Magnus warned him but Alec refused to listen, he grabbed Magnus by the feet and began to pull him towards the edge of the bed. "No!" Magnus yelled as he fought to stay in the warm bed, "You can't make me leave!"
"Can't I?" Alec asked with a raised eyebrow, "We'll see."

Magnus snatched a pillow from the bed and twisting around he threw it at Alec. The pillow hit Alec's side and fell to the floor. Alec's eyebrows raised even higher and Magnus hurriedly scrambled away from him, "Pillow fight, huh?" Alec mumbled grabbing the pillow from the floor. He went to grab some from the bed but Magnus pulled them away from him, "My precious!" Magnus said, clutching the pillows tightly in his arms. Alec lunged for another one but Magnus snatched it away again with another cry of, "My precious!" Alec began to laugh and he threw his pillow at Magnus, ducking when Magnus threw it back in retaliation. Alec went to grab the pillow but was stopped as Magnus wrapped his arms around his waist and pulled him down onto the bed and sat on Alec's chest. "I think I win Alexander." Magnus smiled as Alec shook his head, "No way!"
"Yes way! Now, how about some breakfast?"

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"Here you go." Magnus announced placing a plate of eggs, sausages and bacon down on the table in front of Alec. Alec glanced up at the plate before back down at his trembling hands that were hidden under the table out of Magnus's sight. "What's wrong?" Magnus asked, concern filling his voice, "Alexander?" Alec shook his head vigorously, "Nothing. Just a recurring dream that's all." He lied.
"The one about your parents?" Magnus's asked, Alec shook his head. "It never was about my parents Magnus," Alec whispered, "I lied."
"Then what was it really about?"
"A child. Our child."