"Haunted" ~ by Evanescence

[As requested by @kassimc ]

[Sasori, Tobi, Pein and Suigetsu have been removed for this scenario]

Warning: Angst

Ghost AU!

[More like drabbles tbh]

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Kisame:

"Long lost words whisper slowly to me, still can't find what keeps me here."

    Kisame wasn't entirely sure what kept him in this damned place, it was like a torture chamber, but the Stockholm syndrome of the place had him in a tight, vice like grip. His memories were alighted every time he stepped back through the doors, his own thoughts stabbing him in the back, the one image in his mind in vivid technicolour.

    Your image.

     It had been months since your death, your murder. Brutally stabbed inside your own home while Kisame was out.

    Your beautiful face was all he could remember, the only thing that kept him sane, but drove him mad at the same time. It ate away at him, tore him up inside. He blamed himself for it all, if only he had been there to protect you...

     "Ugh.." Kisame felt a wave of guilt rush over him again as he paused on the stairs, a huge lump forming in his throat once again. The guilt would creep up on him at any time, he was never free, it choked and strangled him, but he couldn't bring himself to tear away from this damned house. It was the only connection he had left to you.

    "I still love you..." A faint, silvery voice pricked in his ears, and the lump in this throat dropped, as a cascade of tears streamed over his face, and he dropped to sit on the stairs, letting the sobs wrack through his body. His voice was shaky and hoarse when he finally managed to choke the words out between his sobs and wretches of pain.

    "I still love you too... Y/N..."

~

Itachi:

"When all this time I've been so hollow inside, I know you're still there."

    Itachi was like a shell. Since you'd been gone, he felt empty inside. No colour looked as bright, no flower smelled as sweet. He couldn't appreciate the cool caress of the rain, or soft smile of the sun. Nor the people around him, nor himself.

    Everything was a monochrome greyscale without you in it. His waking hours were spent reliving the moments in which you shared many moons ago. His dreams were occupied with the future he wished he could have with you, but was so cruelly snatched away.

    With you, for the first time in God knows how long, Itachi had actually been happy. Life had been beautiful, but with you gone, it was dull in comparison. Nothing could compare to you, he couldn't appreciate being alive. He felt nothing.

     Aside from the one warm glimmer somewhere inside him. He wasn't sure how it survived, but there was still something tender inside him. But no one could ever see it, no one could ever have it, no one could ever know about it. It was yours, and yours only. His heart was blackened and barely beating, but what's left belonged to you, even when you were long gone.

    Itachi barely felt alive without you, and he spent his time, when not thinking of you, counting down the days until he met his demise, so he could be with you once again.

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Hidan:

"Watching me, wanting me, I can feel you pull me down."

    "I miss you, Hidan..." Your words echo around him once more, carrying on the wind, whipping all around him. His hands clench in tight fists and his teeth anchor down on his lower lip just to stop the trembling. His body shakes with the effort of keeping everything bottled up inside for so long, and the bitter cold wind shows no remorse, only worsening his shaking.

    "I know..." He whispers, his shaky voice carried off by the wind. "And I miss you too, Y/N." He pulls his arms tighter around himself as the vision of your tombstone in front of him blurs with the build up of his tears, and he lets his head fall forward in shame as his body quakes with silent sobs.

      Since your death, he hasn't felt the same. Everything was dull, it all weighed him down, nothing was worth anything when you weren't there. It was all worthless. Hidan could've swore he felt your icy eyes on him all the time, he knew you hadn't ever left him. It chilled and soothed him, but oh, the distance was too much for him to bear. With you away from him, he felt as if the weight of the world was smothering him.

    "Hidan...." You voice whipped through the air again, and he scarcely heard it over his own cries. "Keep living... For me..."

     Hidan let his head fall back as an anguished cry tore past his lips as he resolutely agreed to keep himself alive. No matter how his heart ached to be with you once more, if you wanted him to live, then live he would, even if nothing mattered to him anymore.

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Kakuzu:

"Fearing you, loving you, I won't let you pull me down."

    Kakuzu hated to admit it, hated himself for it, even. He was scared. Just scared. Of everything. Since you'd been gone, he was struck with a paralyzing fear. Of what, he wasn't sure, it seemed to be anything he came across, everything. You, even. He knew you were still there, lurking around the house where you were killed.

     He could feel you there, your eyes invisible, but always trained on him. He could feel the icy breeze of your movements, sending shivers down his spine. He still loved you, though. His heart still burned for you in a childish passion, but he was paralyzed with fear. He had let you die, surely you hated him more than anything.

     His days were filled with the fear that you would stop watching, and start acting. He was worried you would terrorize him, never let him forget, not even noticing he was doing it to himself. He knew he could never leave this place, no matter the crippling fear he felt every time he made a move. No, it was the last connection he had to you, where your ghost still lingered.

     The fear was crippling and he spent his waking moments trying to quell the heartache of your death, but despite all the pain and torture your memory brought, his heart would always burn for you.

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Deidara:

"Hunting you, I can smell you - alive, your heart pounding in my head."

    Deidara couldn't tell if he was delusional, or really experiencing you still being with him. He knew you'd died, he knew he'd let you die, so how was it you seemed to still linger with him? He was confused, lost and in anguish. He wanted to forget the guilt and pain which would creep up on him and double him over with shaking sobs, but then, he couldn't bear the thought of losing you completely, he desperately clung to the strange sensations.

    He drifted through the house, as aimless as ever since your absence. The faint hint of your scent reached his nose as he froze on the spot, his hand instantly gripping at his chest, as if he could reach right in and pull out his barely beating heart. An unbearable pain shot through him as he thought of you, his eyes blurring with the building tears and he grit his teeth painfully.

    The memory of you was so consuming, your scent seemed to be all around him, your beautiful E/C eyes shone behind his closed eyelids, the silky feeling of your hair making his hands twitch. Your warmth, seemingly so close, but distant still, with a chill which made him feel utterly alone and isolated. Abandoned.

     As he dropped to his knees, the tears streaking down his beautiful face, he could've swore he heart the rhythm of your heart beat, echoing around his head. And in that moment, he wanted nothing more than to just stop living, and to be with you once more. To feel your warmth without the chill of death.

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A/N:

Sooooo I'm sorry to whoever requested this, (I know I'm shit I forgot already, I'm sorry, I love you I swear =x) I feel like I did this pretty shittily, but my angst writing isn't exactly on point, I get distracted =x

Also, quick heads up, for the next maybe week and a bit, there may be a lack of updates. May be. If there is, I'm really, really sorry, I have a busy couple of weeks ahead, but knowing me I'll procrastinate on what I actually need to do, and do this instead.

Basically, the rest of my exams are coming up, spread over the next 2 weeks, and I'm going to be tired as fuck because exams are stressful, and I will probably just wanna come home and sleep after it, and I have an exam every day for the next two weeks, starting Tuesday, so yeah, I'll be doing a lot of sleeping.

Furthermore, my birthday is coming soon (June the 12th *wink wonk*) so next weekend I'll be busy too because yanno, celebrations and shit. Right in the middle of exam season, isn't that a great idea... Whatever, it's my 16th idgaf.

But anyway, our lovely Itachi Uchiha's birthday is also soon, so of course I wanna do a special to honour his birthday, so any suggestions would be very welcome!~ Comment your best ones!~

     Hugs & Hershey's Kisses!~

          Rhi-Chan Out!~