**okayyyy so this has taken a turn but it's still an aizawa x reader, i promise lololol. keep reading pls. writing is so fun**

**Keigo POV**

The front room of the apartment was small as the kitchen bled right into the living room.

Now, Y/n, Dabi, and I were all stuck sharing it for the next 24hrs. I couldn't blow my cover, but Y/n showing up wasn't something I could've ever planned for.

And I was willing to risk it all to protect her. I'd rather die than see her actually go down this path.

The only thing was, I had no idea what her actual intentions were. When she showed up here in the middle of the night, her face was red and tear-stained.

She obviously wasn't thinking clearly. Obviously a wreck after facing her father.

And Shota, how the hell wasn't he watching her more closely after today?

Even if she snuck off or left on her own, he should've chased her down.

I would've chased her down. I wouldn't have ever let this happen to her.

My heart was pounding in a rage as I thought about it. He didn't deserve her.

Now she was,m here and I didn't know what to do. I needed to talk to her alone but had no way of doing it.

I had to tell her about why I was here too. I couldn't let her think I'd ever actually betray her or any of her students.

And that's the real reason I knew she wasn't actually joining them. I've seen her with those kids, she would do absolutely anything for them.

And knowing the League had hurt and threatened so many of them, especially her angry little favorite, she would never be on their side. 

She was only buying time. A smart but extremely risky play. I just had to know how to help.

Dabi seemed willing to protect her from Shigaraki, but if she broke his heart again or found out she was just using him, I was sure he'd explode.

He already burned her once. Did she not think about that?

Even if she somehow managed to get out of here alive, it wouldn't be an easy road. Her life may never be the same.

I sighed as I laid on the couch and thought it all over.

She wasn't expecting everyone to be here... Was she really just going to fuck Dabi? And then what? Go home to Aizawa?

And then it clicked...

She wanted to make Aizawa hate her. That's why she was here. Not to find her self, but to destroy herself.

He'd probably forgive anything but there was a good chance that'd be his breaking point.

Fucking Y/n. This self-sabotage shit you have going on might have just led you to your death bed.

I watched as her and Dabi walked over to the living room and sat on the floor, both leaning up against the other, smaller couch.

I couldn't tell if she was just a great actor or actually enjoying her time with him.

Either way, it was pissing me off to no end, and it was becoming almost impossible to hide.

I had completely ghosted her, but I only did that once I got assigned this mission.

Everything I felt for her, everything I told her, it was real. It's still real.

It broke my heart when I had to let her go. She was everything I had ever wanted. Then to have to watch her with Aizawa... and now watching her with Dabi.

She was by far the most frustrating person I had ever known, but I loved her. And for some stupid reason, we don't get to choose who we love.

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**Y/n POV**

Dabi and I sat on the ground, leaning up against one of the couches in the living room while Keigo stretched across the larger couch.

His eyes were opened, but he just stared at the ceiling. I could only imagine the thoughts swirling in his head right now.

We had a lot of time to kill in this tiny ass apartment, so me and Dabi spoke as the tv played in the background.

My emotions only got more confusing as the night went on. I wanted nothing more than to protect Keigo, but I also wished to be home with Shota, regretting everything in the past 24hrs.

Meanwhile, I was terrified Shiagarki would have a change of heart at any moment. And I was genuinely enjoying my time with Dabi, which was probably the worst part of it all.

How would I possibly get out of here?

I was emotionally and physically drained, so I definitely didn't have enough to strength to actually escape from them. At least not right now.

Plus, if Keigo actually was on their side, I'd never make it out... full strength or not.

And I didn't even want to think about what would happen if Dabi decided to stop holding back on me.

I was strong, but I wasn't delusional. I was out of my league with all of them together.

I had my knees to my chest as we sat there, and I laid my head down on top of them as I looked at Dabi sitting next to me, his eyes glued to the tv.

"Do you remember when you thought anime was stupid?" I smiled as I watched him engrossed by the episode of Naruto.

He smirked, "Yea, but then your dumbass wouldn't shut up about it."

"I still remember the first time I finally got you to watch it with me."

"I think we watched for like 2 days straight," he finally turned to see me already staring at him.

I picked my head up as I laughed, "And you didn't even let me pause it to cook for us, so we spent the last of our money on take out."

He laughed with me as we talked about one of our happy memories. There were so many of them. Part of me wished that had never changed.

"Do you still pick out the carrots and peas from your fried rice?" I asked him.

"If I wanted to eat vegetables, I wouldn't be ordering rice!" he yelled out in complaint.

I rolled my eyes, "I wonder how much of your life you've wasted doing that."

We both smiled at each other for a moment, and I saw the smallest flicker of something bright in his eyes.

My heart dropped as his hand carefully grabbed mine, intertwining our fingers.

I've seen his villain file, all the horrible crimes he's committed— arson, assault, terrorism, murder. The list is unimaginable.

Yet he was the first person I ever loved, and that's not something I've been able to fully let go of.

Someone cleared their throat, and we both looked to see Shigaraki standing behind the couch Keigo was on, both of them peering over at us.

Except Shigaraki looked amused while Keigo looked like he was going to kill me himself.

"I know what I want you to do for me, Amaterasu," Shigaraki smirked.

"And what's that?" I asked with a blank stare.

"You're going back to finish what you started today."

Dabi's hand tightened around mine while Keigo just closed his eyes at the words.

"Think you can handle it?"

I smirked, "I thought you'd at least give me a challenge. When do we leave?"