"So, I'm basically going to be stuck with another person who probably won't do anything on the flight other than just supervising me?" you question, holding your phone to your ear as you walk towards the entrance of your apartment building.

You hear Hoseok sigh on the other side of the line.

"Pretty much."

"And I can't even leave my hotel room and explore the places we're going to?" you say, shoulders slumped over in disappointment as you sit on your couch, legs crossed.

You can near him growing quiet for a second before his voice begins speaking again.

"Unfortunately, yeah." He states. "But don't worry, going to these places and not getting to go around too much isn't too bad. We do it all the time." He tells you in an attempt to comfort you.

"That's true. If you guys can do it, I should be able to as well." You respond before shrugging your shoulders as you begin adding more reasons as to why this isn't a big deal to you. "Plus, I've been to most of these cities anyway. Being a flight attendant, I've been on hundreds of flights at this point so I don't think there's anything I'd be missing out on."

"That's the spirit!" Hoseok responds. "I promise, we'll make it worth your while."

"But if I can't see you in person or even get to kiss you, how are we going to do this?" you question. "Won't it be as if we're still in two different countries?"

Hoseok begins laughing on the other side of the phone line.

"Y/N, you really are naïve, aren't you?" he questions. "I'm a little disappointed. You know the guys and I well enough by now. You really don't think we've already started scheming ways to figure out how to see you?" you smile softly as you hear him say this.

"You're adorable," you say before your tone immediately changes to a concerned one. Your body also tenses up as you say this next sentence. "Just don't do anything stupid that will make me have to take a long break again, please."

"Don't worry, baby. We got this." He responds. "After all, Namjoon, Jin, and Yoongi are the ones coming up with the plan. The maknae line has nothing to do with these plans."

This thought alone relieves your need for concern. You let out a sigh of relief as your body physically relaxes once more.

"Oh thank goodness." You breathe out into the phone. This causes Hoseok to let out a loud laugh on the other side of the line. "What? Why are you laughing?" you question.

"I see you do know us after all." He responds.

"Well those three are a little too... um...." You can't find the right word to say, afraid of offending Jimin, Taehyung, and Jungkook. You bite onto your lower lip as you think carefully.

"Chaotic?" Hoseok finishes your question. "We know, trust me." he laughs.

"Yes! That's the word I was looking for." You respond. You glance over at the clock and see that it's now nighttime where you are. "Did you need to get going, by the way? I know it's pretty early in the morning where you are." You state.

"Yeah, I have to start getting ready soon." He responds. "Before I hang up though, your flight to meet us here is in two days. I'm not sure what time or any of that information though. Namjoon was told by our manager that you need to make sure you talk to your boss in the morning, so don't forget to do that, okay baby?" you nod your head when he says this.

"Don't worry, I won't forget." You state. "I'll let you go so you can start getting ready. Talk to you sometime tomorrow?" you question.

"Of course. I love you, can't wait to see you soon." You smile as he says this, feeling butterflies in your stomach as you nod.

"I love you too. Goodnight... or I guess I should be saying 'good morning' since it's morning where you are." You say while laughing. This causes Hoseok to laugh as well.

"In that case, I'll say goodnight to you." He jokes. "Goodnight, Y/N. Can't wait to see you soon." He states.

"I can't wait to see you too. Bye, baby."

"See you soon, baby." Hoseok says before the two of you hang up the phone and let out a soft sigh. You grin before silencing your phone and setting it onto your bedside table.

You lay back down on your bed, resting your head on your pillow and stare up at the ceiling for a few minutes. Your mind begins to fill with thoughts as you stare at the white-colored ceiling, examining every line of the ceiling.

I hope things aren't awkward with the other members when they see me again.

I know it's been a few weeks since I've seen them but they shouldn't have changed too much since I last seen them in person, right?

And what if the other flight attendant I'm stuck with acts like a prison cell guard constantly watching my every move?

I hope the guys had some say in what flight attendant I get stuck with, I know they wouldn't leave me with a shitty coworker like Kasey.

Taking a deep breath, you shake your head and let your mind act like a dry-erase board, erasing every thought that came up in your mind just now.

Everything should work out.

You nod your head as you think this before rolling onto your side, closing your eyes as you start doing some calm breathing exercises to help yourself fall asleep.

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The next morning, you wake up and get ready for the day before grabbing some breakfast. You sit on your couch and turn on the TV to see what's been going on in the news.

You stare at your TV screen while eating your breakfast before smiling softly as you see that the latest award that BTS won is being announced on the news. Biting onto your lower lip, you nod your head as you feel proud of the seven of them.

Once you finish your breakfast, you glance at the clock before grabbing your laptop. You open the laptop and sign onto the website your therapist told you to go on.

While signing onto this, you grow excited as you think about how you're going to maintain your therapy sessions while still being the guys' flight attendant.

It's comforting knowing that I don't have to sacrifice my therapy to be with them. I'm so thankful that there's technology available now for appointments like this.

You take a deep breath while waiting for your webcam to connect to the session. You can see that Dr. Kang hasn't signed onto the website yet.

Granted, you signed on pretty early due to you feeling anxious about the system not working or other technical issues.

Once you finish doing a quick test of your audio, camera, and microphone, your nerves calm a little and you begin to wait.

Ten more minutes until your appointment.

You gulp before opening a new tab to start online shopping in an attempt to make those minutes go by faster.

After scrolling through the new arrivals section on a few different shopping sites, you hear a voice.

"Ah, you're early today, Y/N." You freeze for a moment before quickly closing the online shopping tab and going back to the tab with your appointment.

You see Dr. Kang smiling softly as she stares into the camera.

"Oh, hi, Dr. Kang. You're pretty early too." She nods.

"Didn't want to have any issues with the program... I'm assuming you felt the same?" you nod. "Well, it's good we're both prepared then."

"Yeah..." you say before both of you grow quiet. You glance around the room, a little weirded out by this method of therapy.

"So, Y/N. How are you doing today?" she questions.

"I'm good. I just had breakfast, had a good night's rest last night, and I'm really excited to be with the boys on tour again." You state. She smiles and nods.

"I'm sure it's a very fun experience. That's something most people can only dream of." She states before pausing for a second. "How were you with falling asleep last night? Any anxious thoughts before bed about going back?" You shrug.

"A few, yes. They went away pretty quickly though, none of them escalated to me not being able to fall asleep."

"Good, I'm very glad to hear that." She states. "Any anxious thoughts about your past?" she questions vaguely.

However, despite her being vague, you're very well aware of the fact that she's being vague to slowly work her way into the topic of your parents.

You like this approach, building into a topic rather than starting therapy sessions with specific and unavoidable questions. You like slowly getting comfortable towards speaking about topics and that's one thing that Dr. Kang does best.

"Not last night, no. Mainly just thoughts about how the whole process of being their flight attendant will be again." You state.

She nods and takes some notes before glancing back up at the screen.

"Are you still sleeping with the stuffed animals?" she questions. You nod.

"Is that bad...?" you question. She grins and shakes her head.

"If it helps with grieving, no." She responds. "I'd much rather have you hugging a stuffed animal than drinking or doing drugs every night to cope. It's a very healthy way to grieve." You nod.

"It just helps me remember that they're both watching over me." You reason.

"And they are." She states. "Always." You nod, feeling some tears in your eyes for a second.

She remains quiet before taking a few notes. You stare at the end of the pen waving in the air as she takes notes of what you're saying.

"Have you thought about the prescription?" she questions and you nod.

"I don't think it's a good idea to test new prescriptions if I'm going to be in another country..." you state before shrugging. She nods.

"I agree, I'd much rather you try them while home for a bit, at least for two weeks just so you know you're okay." She states before tapping the end of her pen against her cheek as she thinks. "Have you gotten any word back about when the tour ends?" she questions.

"I haven't but I looked online and their last show is in two weeks." You state.

"So most likely after they all get back to Seoul safely, you'll be back in Seoul as well?" you nod.

"Most likely."

"Okay. In that case, we can hold off on testing the medicine for now. That was our original plan anyway so this doesn't really affect anything." She states. "We'll just schedule weekly talks while you're away so you can still talk to me, okay?" You nod.

"Okay." You smile softly.

"I'll send you my calendar for the next two weeks so you can choose a time and day that works for you." You nod.

"Thank you." She smiles softly.

"Now that that's taken care of, let's talk a little more." She states. You nod before the two of you begin talking about the tougher things in life that people don't like talking about.

This ranged from what makes you anxious, when your depression is acting up, warning signs of when your depression and anxiety are getting worse, etc.

The session continued for the entire hour before you two hung up.

Needless to say, your chest felt lighter after understanding these things more. It was almost as if a burden was lifted, a weight now starting to get lighter than the prior session.