When I was a kid I was really emotional but after years of being bullied or having people tell me I'm a pushover or a wet blanket or having people jest generally be dicks about it I shut myself off. I switched myself off to things and now as a result of that I suck at understanding emotions.

Sometimes if someones upset I'll stand there and watch as other people help and calm them... And I'll just watch not knowing how to help or understanding why they're upset. This makes me feel like a dick sometimes but other times it's like my emotions just turn themselves off.

I realise this has made me a bit of an ass hole and I can be really insensitive. Yes I can still be emotional but I hide it or only get emotional round people I trust.

I struggle to empathise with people because I shit my own emotions away... I don't have many friends irl because honestly I'm a dick and I'm really sarcastic and sometimes offencive when someone is upset every one around thenn is hugging them and telling them itle be okay or asking what's wrong and I'm stood there like a dick going "wtf you crying about? "
Giw tf do you deal with emotions and why is everyone else so good at dealing with there own as well as other people's when I cant comfort someone without help.