Happiness is in the moment, the more focused the more intense, like a beam of light to the soul. And just as with well focused light, it is then we find better resolution. That's what I've learned from my parents. And that's what exactly I'm feeling when I'm with Aidan.

I looked up at the edge of the cloud there, it was a brilliant white patch, like a turning page catching the sun. The rest was dove grey with a subtle hint of purple, just enough to announce the coming sunset.

"A meteorologist says, when it comes to sunsets, there's a lot more in the sky than meets the eye." Wala sa loob kong sabi nang maramdaman ang yakap ni Aidan mula saking likuran. "For you, Aidan... what makes a good sunset?"

"Hmm..." he paused for a few second before he kissed my temple and answered. "A strikingly colorful one, where the colors are spectrally pure... say, vivid orange or red, as opposed to a more muted palette."

Napangiti ako sakanyang sagot, ihinilig ko ang aking likod sakanyang dibdib habang ang aking mga mata ay nanatiling nakatanaw sa nag-sisimulang kumalat na mga bituin.

"What we see with our human eyes is just a tiny part of the electromagnetic radiation that's given off by the sun. That radiation contains a wide spectrum of wavelengths, but our eyes are only sensitive to certain parts of it, the so-called visible wavelengths. Different colors are associated with different wavelengths."

"Tell me more about it, Mrs. Dr." He chuckled, placing his chin above my shoulder. "I wanna hear it and learn something..."

"Depending on what happened to the light before it got to you, some of those visible wavelengths don't even reach our eyes. Portions of it are absorbed and filtered out in the atmosphere." Nilingon ko siya, he's looking at me. "There's a good sunset every night. We just can't always see it from the ground. You may have noticed this if you've ever taken off in an airplane at sunset. It might not look like anything special from the ground, just a whitish-pink sky, because you're still within the atmosphere's boundary layer. That's where all the large particles are trapped, things like dust and pollution. But as the plane gets above the boundary layer, into cleaner air, suddenly the sunset looks very vivid. It's all a matter of perspective."

"Edi parang Paris Amanda pala ang sunset?" Bulong niya.

"Ha?"

"Palaging maganda..."

"Hindi iyon nakakakilig, Aidan." Iniwas ko sakanya ang aking mga mata lalo pa nang humalakhak siya at hinigpitan ang yakap sakin.

"Pasok na tayo sa loob, mahamog na rito." Sabi niya bago muling halikan ang aking sentido. "Kasi diba, fog can be dangerous if mixed with other pollutants to form a smog. And smog tends to linger in the atmosphere throughout the day, giving rise to a variety of ailments. At mas delikado iyon ngayon dahil dalawa na kayo."

Napangisi ako bago siya harapin. "Oh my God, you talk like me!"

"Syempre, hindi pwedeng hindi ko alam kung paano kayo aalagaan." Dinampian niya ng halik ang tungki ng aking ilong. "Halika na sa loob, baka luto na yung dinner ni Nanang. Ihahatid pa kita pauwi."

Nagpatangay na ako kay Aidan pabalik sa loob ng kabahayan. He's holding me with all the care he could give. But damn my senses for giving extra wow about his touch!

"Aidan..."

"Hmm?"

"Ayoko na bumyahe, dito nalang tayo matulog. Pagod na ko. Bukas na tayo uwi." I curved my lips downward in a fake sadness when he turned to me. "Tatawagan ko nalang si mommy, sasabihin ko kung nasaan tayo para hindi siya mag-alala."

Agad ko naman nakitaan ng bahid ng pag-aalala ang kaniyang anyo. "Bakit? Sumama ba ang pakiramdam mo? Masyado ka bang napagod kanina sa orchard?"

Mabilis akong umiling. "I'm just tired and hungry, Aidan."

I heard him sighed. He then smiled. "Okay, tara na kumain na tayo gutom na pala si tag team ko eh."

Ngumisi ako nang mapapayag ko si Aidan, we went downstairs and saw Nanang preparing the table for us. Aidan invited them to join us pero ang sabi ni Nanang ay doon na lamang daw sila ni Tatang mag-hahapunan sa tahanan nila sa likod bahay. Kaya naman, kami lang ni Aidan ang naiwan doon.

"Kain ka na." Sabi niya bago maupo sa tabi ko.

"Tired ako, Aidan." I said, leaning on my seat.

I opened my mouth and wiggled my brows, Aidan knows what to do.

Tumatawang inabot niya ang kubyertos at sinimulan na akong subuan ng apple pie. I was never a spoiled brat, but with Aidan spoiling me? I sure like the feeling.

"Nag-enjoy ka talaga?" He asked, putting some strands of my hair behind my ear while looking at me intently.

I nodded. "Thank you, Aidan."

It's true, I really enjoyed our apple picking date. This is my kind of dream date. Yung hindi tipikal. Yung marami akong natututunan. I love learning. Learning in any way. Learning from books, from people, from experiences and from everything.

After dinner, Aidan took me upstairs so I can rest. Iniwan niya ako saglit sa silid, kukuhanin niya daw ang damit niya sa sasakyan. Ako naman ay tumawag kay mommy upang mag-paalam at para narin kamustahin si Romee.

"Okay, I trust Aidan will look after you and our baby." Mom said. "Anyway, don't worry about Ro. She's fine now, bukas kapag pumayag na ang daddy mo, ididischarge na siya ni Dave-"

"Mom, kung hindi pa kaya ni Ro let her stay there. Mas sigurado tayong safe siya-"

"But you know your sister, Paris." Mom sighed. "Kung ako rin ang tatanungin ay mas nanaisin kong naririto si Romee, para mas mabantayan."

"Is she really okay? Wala ng masakit sakanya?"

"She said she's okay-"

Hindi naituloy ni mommy ang kaniyang sasabihin nang mula sa background ay marinig ko ang boses ni daddy at ni Uncle Dave.

"Hello, Paris. I'll call you again tomorrow, honey okay? Be safe. Matulog ka na. I love you."

"Okay, mom." I heaved a sigh. "Tell Ro to get better. I love you."

"I will, honey."

Iyon lamang at nawala na ito sa kabilang linya. Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang malalalim na hininga ang aking pinakawalan habang nag-papaikot-ikot ako sa loob kakaisip kay Romee, nang bumukas ang pinto ng silid.

"Natawagan mo na ang mommy mo?" Aidan asked, pinagmasdan ako nitong huminto at lumingon sakanya. "What's wrong?"

Umiling ako at marahang ngumiti. "Natawagan ko na si mommy, nasabi ko na sakanya na dito tayo matutulog."

He gave me a nod and a smile. "You take a shower first, ito nalang munang t-shirt ko ang isuot mo."

Inabot ko ang isang puting shirt na inabot nito, nangunot ang noo ko nang kumamot ito sakanyang sentido.

"There's a towel inside the bathroom, I'll wait here for your clothes. Para malabahan ko." He said, sitting on the edge of the bed.

Pinagmasdan ko si Aidan, there's something about his movement that's driving me nuts. Napansin nitong nakatitig ako sakanya, kumunot ang noo nito ng bahagya, sa wari ko'y nag-tataka.

"Paris?"

Mabilis akong umiling, iniwasan ko ang tingin nito atsaka nag-tuloy-tuloy sa loob ng banyo. I sighed deeply, leaning against the bathroom door.

What's wrong with me?

Scratch that. I know what's wrong and no it's not wring. I understand what's happening to me, it's just that I'm too proud to admit it.

I've never been like this. So, I really should blame it to pregnancy.

During pregnancy, the body will experience a whirlwind of new feelings, sensations, and emotions. The hormones are fluctuating and the blood flow is increased. Yeah, that must be it.

I stood naked in front of the full length view mirror inside the bathroom. I smiled softly looking at the minimal changes my body had gone through. My hands went there. My flat stomach is now having a cute, tiny bulge. And it warms my heart, knowing that another heart is in there.

My breast grow bigger, I can't help but anticipate for the moment that it will be filled with nutritious milk.

Mindlessly, I touched that part of my breast and immediately stopped. Tila napapasong inilayo ko ang aking kamay sa bahaging iyong ng aking katawan. I bit my lower lip and frustratedly groan.

Alright! I've had enough. With that increased blood flow comes easier arousal and increased sensitivity.

And this shouldn't be a bother to me. This is not a problem. Nilingon ko ang nakasaradong pintuan ng bathroom. Really, not a problem.

I took a quick shower and dried myself, wrapping it into a huge towel. Hindi ko pinansin ang t-shirt ba binigay ni Aidan, I don't want to wear that. I don't wanna wear anything!

I went out of the bathroom and saw Aidan, still on the same spot where I left him. Nakita kong bahagya itong nabigla nang malingunan ako.

"Where are your clothes?" He asked.

I shrugged and started walking towards him. "I don't know. But, I'm wearing none..."

"What the fuck?!" Bulalas nito bago namamanghang napatayo sa kinauupuan. "What's wrong with you, Paris?"

Okay, now my insides are frustrated. But no, I don't want to look frustrated. Okay! Calm down, Paris. Chill and relax.

"Aidan, tell me. Am I beautiful?" I asked.

I caught his eyes, he's just looking at me. I can't read what he has in mind, even the glints of emotions crossing his eyes.

"Am I beautiful?" Ulit ko, this time with a tone demanding for answers. "Hindi mo sinasagot, siguro hindi ka nagagandahan sakin."

Inirapan ko ito nang manatiling walang imik. I sighed and removed the towel that covers my body. I slightly shivered, when the cold breeze from the air condition kissed my all naked skin.

Narinig ko ang marahas na mura ni Aidan bago ako nito talikuran, I watched him went to where the air condition is, he turned it off. Matapos ay bumalik sa kinatatayuan ko.

Kinuha niya mula saking kamay ang tuwalya atsaka iyong muling itinapis saking katawan.

What's wrong with him?!

He should be kissing me by now! He should be tempted!

"What's wrong with you, Aidan?!" Naiinis akong kumawala rito at bahagyang umatras nang umakma itong aabutin ako. "What?!"

"Paris..." He sighed. He's looking at me as if I'm such a stubborn kid.

"Don't Paris me!" I snapped, I was even surprised when I started crying. "I hate you, Aidan!"

"Hey, baby. Why are you crying?" Agad na nabalot ng takot at pag-aalala ang kaniyang mukha.

"Anong why am I crying ka dyan?!" Malakas kong sabi. "You're neglecting me! I hate it!"

"Paris, calm down-"

"You don't ask me to calm down, damn you! I am all naked in front of you, Aidan because I want you! Goddammit! I want you. There I admitted it!" I saw how dumbfounded he is when I spilled what's on my head. "You don't understand how frustrated I am! My breast gets bigger and more sensitive. My vulva is becoming engorged from extra blood flow and even more sensitive. My sex drive is all fired up! Even without you initiating it! I want it! And it's frustrating the hell out of me! And I hate you! I hate you for not touching me!"

Naiinis ako. Naiinis ako kay Aidan! I hate him. I've seen myself in the mirror, I am not ugly! I may have gained pounds but that's because I'm pregnant!

"Do I really have to beg, Aidan? Because if that is..." Naningkit ang aking mga mata at kumuyom ang aking kamay. "Edi wag mo! Letche! I'm not, and I will never gonna beg for sex! Damn you!"