themes: hopelessness, trauma, grief

just today i stared in the mirror and asked

is this cruel dark world worth living in

when the pain of my open wounds sting

i am left here to bleed on linoleum floors

so many nights i could have ended it all

the line between courage and cowardice

is drawn along my tear-stained eyes

a million stories filling wicked nightmares

my question for you oh beloved traveler

does the beauty outweigh the brokenness

do bleeding scars become breathing stars

how many more sunrises must pass me

before a hopeful color is painted in the sky

and the fluid drains from my filling lungs

may we be set free from this crazed curse

but today i cry my aching bones to sleep