Hi Mama,

I'm sorry for today.

Oh gosh, I'm crying writing this all the sudden.

I was so immature. The silent treatment? Really?

This is why I left. So I wouldn't hurt you. So I wouldn't hurt me. But I came back, huh?

While all you saw was my blank face, a statue completely ignoring you, I was screaming and clawing just below my skin. I felt so sick and angry. So done with myself. I cursed myself and wished for hell because it was the easy way out.

What a horrible coping mechanism I picked up along the way. Ignoring.

Yeah.

Yeah.

There's not much to say I suppose.

11-11-23