Ezra's P.O.V

   I called my lightsader to me then jumped and turned around. I ignited my saber and pointed it towards...a wall. I let out a breath that was evidently being held and disabled my weapon, letting it drop to the floor.

I crumbled to my knees and held my head. "What's wrong with me?" I asked myself looking at the floor.

A knock at the door snapped me out of my thoughts. "Ezra, are you okay in there?" Sabine's voice said from the other side of the door.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I replied calming down from the events that just happened.

"Okay," was the last thing I heard the worried artist say before footsteps grew quiet.

Once I knew she was gone, I started to think. 'Maybe I should talk with someone about this?' I thought but who? Definitely not Kanan. Zeb and Chopper wouldn't be any help either. I'm not sure what Hera or Sabine would be like.

I just need someone that understands what is happening and the only one is Kanan. Yet, I don't deserve his help. Hera is busy with Sato for my little information that was left out.

So Sabine was my last option. I looked up at the picture she spray painted on the wall.

Maybe she could help me. I took a deep breath in and out before standing on shaky legs. I ignored the calls of the holocron and the urge to put the lightsaber back on my neck. I slipped out of my room and checked Sabine's room first. I knocked on her door before hearing a 'Come in.'

I opened the door to see Sabine spray painting on the wall. "Is there something you-" she stopped when looking up to see me.

"Oh, I thought you were Hera," Sabine said a bit surprised.

"Sabine," I said in a serious tone making her confused and worried?

"I can't keep this stress in any longer and I need to tell someone or else..." I wasn't able to continue and looked at the ground.

"Or else what?" She asked worried.

"Or else...I don't know but it won't be good is all I know," I said still looking at the ground.

"Alright," she started then guided me to the kitchen.

"Let's get something to drink to calm yourself," Sabine told me. I wasn't thirsty but maybe it will help calm my nerves and warm me up from this cold feeling.

"Sit," she ordered and I didn't do anything but obey. Soon she came over with two steaming cups and handed me one while she nursed her own.

I took a sip and smiled a bit as it was working a bit. Sabine smiled too.

"So..." Sabine started, "What's been going on with you lately?"

I look into the cup to see me but it really wasn't at the same time. I've grown and changed these last couple years. Some ways good but don't get me started with the bad things.

"I feel like I'm losing myself everyday since Malachor," I began like it was poison I'm my mouth.

"I just don't know what to do cause we keep getting even more and more dangerous everyday. I can't always protect you guys and it makes me-"

"Frustrated cause you feel useless," Sabine said finishing what I was about to say. I looked up in complete shock.

Sabine looked up at me with a dead serious look, "Don't you think most of us feel that way when we can't do everything right?"

"I-I guess so," I said.

"You guessed right," she said, "but that's just another way we learn from our mistakes even if we don't realize it."

"So what should I do?" I asked but didn't like the response.

"Talk with Kanan," was the last thing she said before putting her cup in the sink. Then she left me alone in the room with my thoughts.

I sighed then put my cup in the sink. I walked to my room and went in then laid on my bunk thinking. That's when the door opened and I turned my head to see...

Kanan.

"Kanan!" I said in surprise then jumped off my bed.

"Hey Ezra, we need to talk," he said then reached out his hand a little a walked forward.

"Um," I looked over at the table and saw the holocron still out.

"I need some rest since I'm promoted and everything," I say a little to quickly.

I moved over to the table but Kanan beat me to it and leaned against it.

"I heard and-" he paused when his hand brushed the holocron. I knew I was busted when he picked it up.

"The Sith holocron. You've been using it?" He said in disbelief.

"Well yeah, it's helped me win mission after mission," I said.

"Ezra, this is a dark path that I can't let you follow," Kanan told me.

"Since when do you care," I say harshly, "You barely show up anymore and when you finally come to talk to me, you're choosing what's best for me? I get that it's the dark path but it has helped me way more than you have since Malachor."

"This is a bad choice and it will get out of hand if you don't stop. It's only using your protecting of others to blindly follow its ways," he says.

"Well not for me," I huffed, "I can control it."

Kanan sighed then started to walk towards the door silently.

"Go ahead and take it. I don't need it," I said, "Just like I don't need you."

Kanan paused at the door and I could feel a little bit of hurt before he left the room. I huffed in anger and paced around the room.

I'm stronger now. I can and will protect my friends.

Third person's P.O.V

Little did Ezra know was that Kanan was helping him some. His master was blocking the voices. Yet, couldn't help Ezra with seeing the darkness before him.

It was a matter of time before Ezra either turns to the wrong or right side. Yet there is no such thing as a wrong or right side. It was just the Force.

*Time skip*

Ezra's P.O.V

   It has been a couple days later since Kanan saved me from the falling station. Now he is helping me the light the spider caves. I really messed up and as we approached a place with a little light I stopped Kanan.

   "I'm sorry for everything I did," I said.

   "I never blamed you for anything. It's time to forgive yourself," he to me. I smiled and replied, "Yes master."

   I surprised him by giving him a hug.

   I knew that things would get better between the two of us. I knew that it was going to get more hard and dangerous.

   But at least I have people to stand by me through it all.

   At least I can die knowing that people cared about me.

   More than friends.

   They cared for me as if I were their family.

   And no darkness or the will of power is going to change that.

   Ever.

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Yeah, this is it. I know it's not long but I wasn't planning to making it long.

I hope you all enjoyed it!

See ya!