Tired. That was all he felt right now. Nothing more than tired. Numbness spreading all over his body.  Staring at the plain ceiling with no thoughts in his head. It was like he couldn't feel himself anymore,his emotions were absolutely nothing. He was so disturbed that he didn't know what he should do? what should he feel right now? should he scream? cry? be angry? nothing. 

He felt a shift in bed,he turned his head to see his worst nightmare laying beside him,His boyfriend. Rowon's back was facing him,he could hear snores coming out of his mouth as he was fast asleep after their session. While he was dreaming,Taehyung was so close to crying after being used like that.

After everything Rowon did to him,Taehyung couldn't stop him. He hurt him so much and is still hurting him. Taehyung was fighting him,he really was but after he realised what Rowon had held against him,all of the urge to fight back had ran away and he honestly could not do shit anymore to stop him. 

He took his phone from the side table and opened it. He clicked on Guk's contact and sent him a quick text while he was still barely awake. After he was done,he shut down his phone. he felt his eyelid get heavier and he soon drifted off to sleep just because of how tired he was.

Jeongguk was barely sleeping when he got the message,instead he was worried. So worried he couldn't sleep at all the whole night. Taehyung acted super suspicious in the porch. He knows Taehyung has to be in some kind off trouble but he needed to trust him on this as he said. As much as he wanted to go inside and beat the shit out of Rowon for holding Taehyung back,he couldn't.

A sigh from exhaustion escaped his mouth. Taehyung literally showed him his place now that he thinks about it. He is too into Taehyung's business,that now Taehyung had to tell him to stay outside and dont meddle in their business. He shouldn't be thinking this as he still needs to be there for Taehyung but his mind can't help but think about how he is so useless.

Taehyung went through so much shit,manipulation and abuse. He probably still is and Jeongguk cant do anything about it. 

When his phone ringed because of notification,Jeongguk quickly grabbed it

and was more than excited to see Taehyung's text,only to feel his heartbreak.

My Love

I am sorry Guk,i cannot do this anymore. I am tired of fighting for myself,i know you said i should fight for myself as much as i could but i can't. I am sorry for disappointing you. 

Gukkie
tae???? What are you talking about????

Gukkie
Are you okay its 3 am,is everything ok???

Gukkie
fuck text me back tae

Gukkie
[Missed call (7)]

Jeongguk was finally back on the set after a lot of days. Namjoon decided to pause the shooting for a few days as it was going everyday for months so everyone needed some days off. Now that everyone was back to work all of them looked more excited to be back and energetic. 

Unlike others,Jeongguk was worried. He hasn't seen Taehyung yet and they have to start in ten minutes. He is thinking all kind off things,many bad things. This feeling inside him is telling him that everything is not okay. Something is going on with Rowon and Taehyung but he doesn't know what.

"Jeongguk-sshi? Jeongguk-sshi??" Jeongguk snapped out of his thoughts to see his co-star Sooyoung calling him. 

"Oh Sooyoung Noona,sorry i was just lost in my thoughts, Is something wrong?" He asked her politely,she chuckled and shook her head. 

She looked him straight in the eye and just walked towards him,she took a seat next to him on this couch and gave him a pretty smile. 

"Thinking about Taehyung?" She spoke up,making Jeongguk surprised as his eyes widened.

"H-how did you know?"

"Come on,almost everyone in the set knows about your crush on Taehyungie. You look rather worried,Taehyung isn't on set too,is there something wrong?" She asked him,Jeongguk was obviously not going to tell her the full truth.

"Um,Hyung got in a fight with his boyfriend so he may be skipped because he wasn't feeling like coming today i think" Jeongguk just made it up because the situation was alot more worse than just some simple couple fight.

"Hmm,Rowon-sshi right? i know i shouldn't be talking shit behind Taehyung's back but i don't like his boyfriend" She said,looking at her feet as if she was guilty about something.  Jeongguk raised his eyebrow at the sudden confession.

"May I ask why?" he questioned her.

"He just...gives me bad vibes? like ok fuck i am going to just say it. Don't tell this to anyone,not even Taehyung" Sooyoung suddenly said,making Jeongguk more curious.

"Ok i wont just tell me Noona"

"Fine,i went to this club a few weeks ago,I...met Rowon there,i greeted him and stuff asking him where is Taehyung? but he told him he came here alone which was weird. I was with my friends so i didn't thought about it much. I went to dance,already a little tipsy,i felt him...um..grinding on me? i swear i didn't lead him on for anything for him to just do that. I ignored it for few seconds thinking maybe he would back off but he didn't instead he started to touch my body inappropriately so i just pushed him away from me. I glared at him and asked him why is he doing this because Taehyung is my friend i don't want to hurt him but he just laughed it off making it seem like he was drunk when he was totally sober"  Sooyoung didn't made eye contact,feeling embarrassed even though this wasn't her fault.

"I am sorry that happened to you,that's so low for him,does Taehyung know?" Jeongguk asked her,even though he knows how much lower Rowon has gone.

"no,i felt embarrassed. He seems to be in love with his boyfriend,what if he blames it all on me? what's worse is i have seen Rowon make out with this random girl later on,he is cheating on Taehyung. Even if i tell Taehyung,i don't think he would believe me over his beloved boyfriend...he might accuse me of seducing him or something i don't know" Sooyoung spoke in a low voice,not making eye contact.

Jeongguk felt his gaze soften. He moved closer to her and put his arms around her shoulder,comforting her. He rubbed her shoulder as she tried not to cry. "Noona,Don't say that. Him grinding up on you and touching you inappropriately is not your fault and will never will be. You didn't consented to it so Rowon had no right to touch you like that" 

"I know,i just don't want Taehyung to think i am lying"

"He won't,believe me Noona,he has been through alot,even if he is blinded by his boyfriend,he would still rather believe you,the victim, than the harasser. Do you want...to tell him?" Jeongguk asked her,and she looked at younger for a second. 

She nodded. She is glad she talked it out with Jeongguk even though they barely talk to each other but since he is close to Taehyung,she knew she could trust. " You are really good with your words Jeongguk-ah. Kind of surprised Taehyung hasn't fallen for you yet" 

"Noona~ you can't say that. We both know Taehyung won't ever like me like that" Jeongguk felt his cheeks heat up,making Sooyoung chuckle.

"Are you sure about that? Either way I am still rooting for you. Since you already know I am not very fond of Rowon and judging from what you told me,Their relationship isn't stable either. If i were you i would start throwing hints shamelessly. Want Taehyung to be with someone who isn't a cheater" She said with a smile on her face. 

Jeongguk chuckled,muttering thanks. Before he could even reply,his eyes went to the person who just entered their space,he was one if the staff members.

"Ms.Park,Director-nim requested you to come to the set,Taehyung-sshi has arrived so we are going to start the shooting"  He told them,making Jeongguk head shot up. 

Both of them looked at eachother thinking the same thing. "I'll be right there" She stood up as the staff member walked out. 

"Are you going to do it after the shoot?" Jeongguk asked her.

"Yeah,you should come as I know he will be sad so he might seek comfort. I am not the best person for that and he likes to be with you anyway" She told him, making him nod. Both of them walked out of there,towards the set ready for the shooting.

"I want to break up with you Sua" Taehyung spoke up with a stern face. Already too into his role. His mood was perfect for today's shoot.

"What? Ha,is this a joke Taeyong? if it is it is not funny" She rolled his eyes as she folded her arms,her lips in a pout. 

"its not a joke,Sua. I am serious,i am sorry but i don't have feelings for you anymore. I don't want to lead you on so let's just end things here" Taehyung spoke with a little more  sympathy, moving closer to Sua as he was going to touch her but she slapped his hand away,making Taehyung flinch.

"Don't touch me! why are you doing this? is this because you like some other girl?" She asked him,tears welling up in her eyes. A class actor everyone.

"What? no-" 

"-Or is this because of Jiwon?" She cut him off,looking him dead straight in the eyes. Taehyung showed a nervous expression as he gulped.

"what? Jiwon has nothing to do with this so leave him out of this"

"He has everything to do with our argument Taeyong and you know it!! fine lets break up but for what reason? be honest with me,i wont judge you but do...do you like that guy? romantically" She emphasized the last word,for some reason this conversation resembles alot with their real life situation. 

"N-no i do not."

"Stop lying to yourself. I am leaving,thanks for the whole year i guess. I never wanted us to breakup but i have already have separated you from someone you like,i don't want to be selfish anymore so please be honest with yourself" Sooyoung gave him one last look filled with regret and guilt. 

She walked out of the room,leaving a blank Taehyung behind whose eyes were glued to the floor. Not leaving,just thinking and being expressive of his emotions.

"And cut!! That was amazing Sooyoung,I absolutely loved your energy there. You too Taehyung,good job both of you" Namjoon complimented them,giving them a thumbs up as he looked at the recording. 

"Thank you!" Sooyoung replied.

"Call Jeongguk-wait he is already here,just call Jin and hoseok it's time for their scene" Namjoon told the staff member who nodded,going out to call the other actors. 

While Jeongguk just stood next to Namjoon,looking at Taehyung who hasn't spare him glance ever since he came here. Is he really going to act like yesterday didn't happened and he didn't sent him that suspicious text message. Jeongguk had this urge to drag him out of here and have a talk so he can know whats wrong.

But he can't do that. For some reason he feels like Taehyung is mad at him and most likely ignoring him. Did Rowon brainwashed him into thinking Jeongguk isn't shit? he doesn't know but he wont be surprised if the other did that.

He just shrugged off his thoughts,just getting ready for his scene now as his stylist was making some adjustment into his outfit. Once he was done he walked into the set,ready for the shooting.

Once the shooting was done,everyone started to pack up for the day. It was a long day today,they shot alot of scenes today ,it was fair because of how many days they were off. Younger was putting his things inside his bag as he looked up seeing Taehyung talking with his manager.

"Jeongguk!" he heard someone call his name. He turned around and saw his own manager. He recently signed to a new agency and they are very strict about his manager being with him 24/7. It's fair as he is getting busy day by day but it gets annoying.

"Yes?"

"The CEO asked you to come visit his office by the end of the shoot. Since i'm going to drive you there,Should we go now?" The manager asked him.

Jeongguk was going to say yes until he saw Sooyoung going towards Taehyung at the corner of his eyes. He remembered he had accompanied her. 

"No, sorry i actually have something to talk about with director Kim,i will be in the parking lot in 30 minutes" Jeongguk said to him,Manager sighed and nodded,walking away from him. 

Jeongguk was glad he took his excuse and didn't ask more questions. He saw The other two going to one corner so he decided to follow them. He doesn't want to eavesdrop but he has to since he wants them to talk a bit and in the end he would join the conversation. 

Sooyoung was looking very nervous as she was playing with her fingers. Her eyes are not making eye contact with Taehyung.

"Taehyung Oppa,I wanted to talk about something with you" She said to him.

(Please don't say cringe and stuff because the term oppa is used as a form of respect,i know it is ruined a lot by koreaboos but still respect the term and dont be disrespectful) 

"What is it Sooyoung,make it quick i have somewhere to be" Taehyung said to her,using the same bland tone with her too.

"It's actually quite personal,it's about your boyfriend. I think he is cheating on you" she threw the bomb at him right away. Taehyung faces didn't changed much as he just scoffed while raising his eyebrow.

"Seriously? Are you here to tell me some lies? Please don't,I have better things to do" Taehyung was being unnecessarily rude to her. For Sooyoung it seemed fair as she was accusing his boyfriend without any proof but for Jeongguk he was surprised. 

"I-I am not lying . I saw him,I went to this club with my friends. Your boyfriend grinded on me and touched my body inappropriately and when I called him out for it,he blamed his drink for it" Sooyoung started to explain the situation but Taehyung looked like he was having none of it. He rolled his eyes.

"Then maybe he was drunk, Sooyoung,stop trying to make him a bad person. Its not like he fucking kissed you or something "

"Wow, are you really serious right now? you are really taking his side right now. Well I don't know if this makes you believe me but he also kissed this random girl too,not just a peck but full on making out. You are going to accuse me of lying again aren't you?" Sooyoung wasn't even holding back because she felt humiliated by the tone he was using.

"Why are you doing this Sooyoung? what do you want? are you here to blackmail me to not leak this into media and ruin my boyfriend career? just say what you want" Taehyung said,pretending to not care for what she is saying. He saw how betrayed Sooyoung looked and he felt back. Now he is understanding why no one wants to be friends with him. he felt guilty he won't lie.

"Taehyung do you really think i will do that? i told you how your boyfriend cheated on you by touching me without my consent and making out with other girls yet you are thinking i'm the bad person here. I am your friend Taehyung,i told you this because i care about you and you deserve better than that" Sooyoung came clean as she was close to crying,this really hurted her. Sure she wasn't as close to Taehyung but she is still his friend. Someone who she has worked with several times and just hangs out with a lot.

"Come on Soo, we are in entertainment industry,everyone wants something out of someone. You can't blame me for thinking you want the same too. What is it? publicity? should we go on a dinner right now? that would be a good scandal wont it-" Before Taehyung could even finish he felt a sharp slap on his cheek,making him shut up. He knew very well he deserves that.

Sooyoung was glaring at him as tears fell down her cheeks. Every word that came out of Taehyung's mouth hurt like a bitch. When she thought she had one genuine friend in this industry he pulled this shit. They should be glad they are at the back where no one comes or this would have been a mess.

"Fuck you Taehyung,i fucking hate you. I am not some whore who likes to sell her body for fame or someone who ruins others life for a little publicity. All I told you was the truth,if you don't believe me that's fine but don't make me some villain who was only friends with you because you are famous. This is it,don't ever contact me again Kim Taehyung. I am glad this movie shooting is almost over,I hope we don't get to be in the same set again" She spoke one last time,pouring holes onto Taehyung's body who had his head held low. 

She gave him one last look and walked out of the place,she didn't see Jeingguk hiding in the shadows. He saw the tears dripping out of her eyes. He really wanted to comfort her but he knows she needs some time alone right now,she just lost her friend. He needs to talk with Taehyung anyway.

Jeongguk walked towards Taehyung and moved closer to him. He felt someone's presence near him as he looked at the person in front of him.

"That was even low for you hyung,what was that?" Jeongguk spoke up,Taehyung made eye contact with the boy and Jeongguk saw how he was on the verge of breaking down.

Taehyung didn't even say anything and was going to walk past him when Jeongguk grabbed him by his wrist and pulled him back,making him stumble back. "Leave my wrist Jeongguk" 

"No,I won't until you tell me what's wrong? i heard everything and that's not like you at all tae" Jeongguk said to him.

"You don't know me Jeon,what happened here is none of your business. I was not going to sit here and just listen to her lies" He told him,making Jeongguk raise his eyebrow  at him in confusion.

"Taehyung, are you serious right now? you know that girl wasn't lying. You know how Rowon is like,he has cheated on you before and he cheated on you again. Why did you accuse her of lying?" 

"Why are you defending her?! Are you two going out already? are you here to beat me up because i called your girlfriend a liar? grow up Jeongguk" Taehyung scoffed at him,Putting on this facade of him being strong hoping Jeongguk could see it.

"I am not dating her and I won't ever be because I don't like her. I like someone else. That has nothing to do with this conversation. Stop whatever you are doing Taehyung because it is not going to work on me. What happened last night? i saw all the footage on the USB you gave me,i saw how he ruined  your life Taehyung,how are you still standing next to that man's side?" Jeongguk asked him,he saw how Taehyung expression changed when he mentioned last night.

"Leave my wrist Jeongguk,this is none of your business i have nothing to explain to you" Taehyung said to him as he slapped his hand away. 

He couldn't even escape from there as Jeongguk grabbed his arm harshly,making Taehyung wince in pain. Jeongguk's eyes widened as he left his arm. He pulled older closer by his hand and pulled back his sleeves to see bruises on his arms staining his tan smooth skin. 

"....Taehyung what the fuck. Did he...do it again? Is this what it is? are you scared? you don't have to be,fuck! you have me,i will protect you just please tell me you want get away from that man too,you told me to trust you so i left but this? what is this tae" Jeongguk eyes didn't leave his arm as his heart broke the more he saw it.

He felt useless,he said he would protect him but he never did,did he? He could have stopped this yesterday but he didn't and went home just because Taehyung asked him too. He saw how Taehyung's eyes were welling up with tears.

"just leave Jeongguk please. I don't want to be near you or anyone. Just leave me the fuck alone. You can't protect me from him,it's not possible and it's okay,you are not obligated to. Just leave me on my own." Taehyung said in between his tears. Jeongguk softly wiped the tears with his thumb and placed a soft kiss on his forehead.

"What do you want me to do Taehyung?" He gave up,Taehyung gave up. They had no hope. He saw how Taehyung would never fight for him. Is he even worth fighting for?

"Forget about me"

"Ok i will,just for you. Can i hug you one last time?" Jeongguk asked him and Taehyung nodded. He didn't waste one second to take the boy into his embrace.

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