flickering lights shining above
in their firefly nature
twinkling with and without life,
one second and then gone, again and again,
like the lose hold
on my own existence of dreaded living.

i lay there devoid of anything.
nothing.
nothing is left inside me
as you have taken everything
i had within my soul
while other took pieces without me ever knowing
and all is left for me is the shell of an empty body
filled with memories that are haunting me
caging me
torturing me , baby.

they wash up in my mind like the waves of an azure sea
running back to embrace the sandy beaches.
words of yours you had whispered once in mind echoes back.

"one man's trash is another man's treasure.
you are my priceless treasure."
the bittersweet feeling of belongingness sparks.
how did you know of such a possession of yours?
i had never told you my name literally translated to treasure.

"your wish is my command"
darling, your love was my breath escaping at every second,
dancing at your commands in alluring patterns.
your honey sweet voice itself
made your commands be my deepest wishes instead.

"i dont know why that just made me smile"
and you thought i will ever let myself
be the reason behind your frowns?
i want to be the reason behind
those genuine beautiful smiles that swipes over your lovely lips
as if a painter himself lovingly mixed the colors of love
to paint that image of you smiling.
for me to keep tucked in my now nonexistent heart.

"why are you sitting awake this late,
looking this cute in your sleepy state?"
you asked me that every night as we had our conversations
about everything and anything, under the stars
that tried to look at me from my windows always,
to see if your words were true as you say.
and gosh i do remember like an innate routine
tucking my hair behind my ears
and looking at you incredulously to answer
that i was a lover of the night.

"cause i'm yours"
that was the very reason i had let you see
bare pieces of my life that only some has traced upon only.
but never have indulged
and found themselves lost in me like you had.
and i do remember burning so bright,
cocooned in a warm blush red haze,
glowing knowing you were mine.

"i will be there for you. yeah?
any way you want me in your life."
yes yes yes.
i wanted you and want you still in my life
in all aspects you have to devote to me.
a lover. a best friend. an equal.
a shoulder to my head. a genuine heart to love.
a companion for life.

"i promise you, i won't be the one you lose from your life."
you promised, looking so deeply in my eyes,
when i had regurgitated this overflow of feeling and emotions
of my butterfly filled stomach finally
in front of you. about you. to you.

but, i'm laughing in mirth at this point
of my clashing thought now in sheer empty voices.
ha ha ha.

"you are my future."
darling,
i remember going quite, so quite
that the moon dared not breathe in the silence.
well, where are you now?

-honey, every words of yours i hear at night alone
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