So I have been through a rough time with friend issues at the young age of 9-14. And I've gained this thing from this to not trust anyone cause they'll hurt me like she did.

I was betrayed and bashed in the back and was enraged. And I had an urge inside me telling me to 'fight back for what you want' or 'stand up for yourself'. I was traumatized and hurt in so many ways I can't explain. Sometimes I'd think of murdering myself, or just getting it over with. (But I was to scared of the pain).

And this is about the time where I just gave up. One day she'd be my friend and the next she'd hate me. The more and more this happened, the more trouble I got into and would start getting blamed for her mistakes or others to.

It was terrible and I don't want people to do what I did. I hide from everyone and pushed everyone away. I tried to be happy and cover how I felt. But I'd crash in my room and cry and cry and cry. I'd cry myself to sleep thinking, "your annoying everyone knows it" or "just stop and leave". It was pretty bad, see I'm a silent crier and I don't make much noise. So when I'd cry nobody would know, and I wasn't going to tell anyone I cried myself to sleep, I'll just sound like a baby.

I tried to push through, until it got so bad I had to go to the principles office. We were let of the hook but I could have been in so much trouble.

Later she left the school, after using my best friend Janki (JMPs123 love you mom) as her personal psychiatrist. She came back I felt all the rage and sadness well up in me when I saw her sitting in that room. I just wanted to kill her cause of the pain she caused for not just me. But I looked past it and ignored her.....

What I'm saying is that if your being bullied, just ignore them and keep on moving. They will eventually leave you alone. And if they don't stop, don't fight back and most DEFINITELY DONT kill yourself over some person. You'll look more weak and then you've just avoided your problems, and another thing to think of is what about your parents, friends, teachers, and family.

How would they feel if you left them?

Cause I know when a friend of mine started to joke about suicide. I thought about what it would be like if he was gone. What would I do. What would happen to the class. And more importantly, his family. What would they do. And I'd cry everynight praying and hoping that he wouldn't do it. Thankfully he didn't and were in a great relationship.

But that's not the point what I'm saying is Don't do it and think about your acquaintances.

The people who's smile is the biggest, hurts the most.
The people who joke the most about depression, suffer from it.

Turn the other cheek and walk away. (I don't remember the book its in)

In the Bible it says not to retaliate cause they will get judged for what they have done. It also says to turn the other cheek and walk away. But if he still swings then turn the cheek. But another one is keep your friends and your enemy's closer.

Tell me in the comments what you would do in this situation.

Anyways bye guys. Have an amazing day and Renner don't take everything to personally.
~Leena