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❝ letter nine ❞

9th June 1944

Dear Steve,
                      I apologize for the hysterical previous letter. I do not know how to handle us being so far apart for so long and I should never have sent it.

It was a childish and foolish mistake and although you may not receive it, I would still like to apologize. Everything I said is true and I understand if you have met someone else but it is such a cruel letter. I do not understand why I would discard all the love we shared simply because of my own anxieties.

But everything has been strange for the past few months. I am still so endlessly tired and the cause has finally been understood. The doctor has given me medicine and my aunt is planning the trip to Florida. I am still not sure whether I will be able to make the journey down but I am hoping to. I am tired but I know that the sun will do me wonders and Florida has always been a beautiful place according to my aunt.

I trust her instincts and I trust that it will make me better. I know that you being here with James would make me better but that is impossible in this current situation so I must try and live without you both for the moment.

And I can do that. I just need to know if you are alive. I will not renew my begging because it is hysterical and cruel to put so much pressure on you but anything would be appreciated at this moment. It would soothe my anxieties and calm my restless nerves but I understand that you are incredibly busy.

But other than my health, I have been thinking about you as I always do. The war seems to be finally turning completely in our favor and the British attacks on Normandy seem to have been successful. I am not sure about military tactics but I know that the closer we get to Berlin, the sooner we will be free and France is as good a place as any.

You would have so much more to say to me if you were here but I have realized that I do not know anything that you would say to me at this moment. You are so unpredictably wonderful and you have so much knowledge that I wish I could retain.

I just hope that when you have won this war and Germany is taken back from the Nazis, that you will come home and we can be happy. I know I would love you for eternity if you came back. Just your presence is enough to change my mood so please, be careful and come back from this war alive.

Even if your head has been turned by some other woman, I will always be hopelessly devoted to you, Steve Rogers.

With all the love I own,
Josie