Winnie's Pov

~3 hours later~

We got back home from the recording studio and I ran upstairs to my room and I changed my clothes. I put on black basketball shorts, a purple tanktop, and white hoodie. I put my hair into a ponytail, and put a black bandana on as a headband.

"Why?" I heard Ethan's voice. I turned around.

"Why what?" I asked and started walking towards him.

"Why don't you trust me?" he asked and had hurt in his voice.

"What are talking about? I do trust you Ethan." I told him.

"What's wrong?" he asked me again.

"Ethan, nothing is wrong." I assured him. He put his head in his hands.

"Winnie, I know that's not true." he said looking straight into my eyes.

"Why do you assume something's wrong?" I asked him.

"Your not acting like yourself." he answered and I looked to the side and back at him.

"I'm not acting different." I told him.

"Winnie, I know you and this not how you act. Something's wrong." he said. I looked down and started playing with the necklace. He lifted up my chin to look at him. "Why can't you trust me enough for you to tell me?" I turned around and started walking towards the desk. "It's about Grayson, isn't it?" I froze. "Winnie, it wasn't your fault."

"But it still happened Ethan." I said and he turned me around.

"Winnie, it wasn't your fault, stop feeling guilty." he said sternly.

"I can't help it." I said and looked down.

"Winnie please. It'll just bring you down." he said.

"You swear you're not mad." I said.

"I swear babe." he said. I hugged him tight and kissed him.

"Want to finish that drawing?" I asked and he nodded. I ran to my closet and got it out. I went back and sat down on the floor. I grabbed the pencil and started on Dax.

"Don't don't forget the little dimple since he's smiling." Ethan pointed out. I added it on his cheek.

"There, done." I said. I signed my name in the corner. Ethan got it and pushed up the paper and it showed my other drawing. He was about to turn to it.

"Wait! No Ethan, don't." I said frantically trying to grab it but he already saw it.

"Winnie, what the hell is this?" he gritted through his teeth.

"I-I didn't want a diary." I said. It has blocks of drawings of what happened to me and my family.

"Winnie, this is really all the real thoughts of you. Were you really that scared?" He asked and kept looking through it.

"Wait, no! Ethan please give it." I said frantically.

"Winnie. I-Is this one true?" He asked.

"Ethan, please give it." I begged. He got up and left. I grabbed my sketch pad to see what he saw. I closed it and put it up. I slid down the wall and put my head in my hands but didn't cry.

"What happened?" I heard Liam's voice.

"He found out." I answered.

"About what?" he asked and sat next to me.

"The reason why we got kidnapped." I answered.

"How?" he asked.

"I didn't want a diary because I thought it was too girly. I drew what I felt. I would draw what happened that day and tell my real feelings. We were working on a picture of me, him, and the twins. We finished today and I signed it and when he went to he pushed up the paper and saw the drawings. He saw them Liam, he saw them." I answered.

"What was it of?" he asked.

"Me, Hudson, Bailey, and Brent sitting on that mattress against the wall, the four men standing there in front of us, and the computer and camera. It had on there why we got kidnapped and what I thought." I answered. "he saw it and left."

"He'll be back." he said and touched my face.

"That's not the point Liam. He was complaining about me trusting him and then he wouldn't give me my sketch diary back." I said.

"What was the trust about?" he asked.

"Because I wouldn't tell him what was wrong." I answered.

"What was wrong?" he asked.

"Because, I felt like I cheated on Ethan and Ethan told me it was my fault." I admitted.

"How'd you cheat on him?" he asked.

"Almost every time I'm in this closet and after I'm dressed Ethan always comes from behind and wraps his arms around me. I got changed since I was soaked, after I finished arms wraps around my waist and I thought it was Ethan. I didn't look and I said hey Ethan and he whispered in my ear guess again Tomlinson and he kiss my neck. I told him to get off of me and he pinned me again the wall and kissed me and I couldn't get from his grip and Ethan walked in. I finally got the dude off of me and I told Ethan it wasn't what it looked like and the dude wrapped his arm around me and said I was his. I told him no the hell I'm not and punched and kicked his shin and took him out of the house. I went back up and I had to explain to Ethan what really happened and he hugged me but I felt he was still mad at me. I just couldn't get it out of my head that I basically cheated on Ethan." I explained.

"Who was the boy Winnie?" he gritted through his teeth.

"Grayson." I answered.

"Hazzy, Niall, and you are the only ones who know what happened from you five boys." I said. "I thought I was going to lose him."

"Winnie-"

"Can we all do something fun today?" I asked.

"Like what?" he asked.

"I don't know. You find that out and I'll try and fix my problem." I said and he nodded and left..

I stood up and I grabbed my phone.

To: Ethan 😘❤️

"Why did you leave?"

From: Ethan 😘❤️

"Why didn't you tell me?"

To: Ethan 😘❤️

"I was going too but not by that sketch diary. I'm sorry, the day was going good and I didn't want too ruin it."

From: Ethan 😘❤️

"I understand. I'm sorry because I wouldn't give it back, it was personal and I still read it."

To: Ethan 😘❤️

"I can't stand when I hurt you and I've been doing it a lot lately. Do you forgive me for not telling you?"

I felt two arms wrap around my waist.

"Lollie, I was never mad." Ethan whispered in my ear and sent shivers down my spine. He grabbed my waist and turned me around towards him. I went looked down but he lifted my head up. "Don't think about it. You look down and I can't see those beautiful blue eyes." my cheeks heated up and I smiled, he kissed my cheek.

"How much did you see?" I asked him.

"What are you talking about?" he asked me. I smiled.

"Never mind." I said and he smiled. He kissed me and touched my bum. I jumped on his back and we went downstairs. I saw Nick and Bailey on the couch.

"Where's the boys?" I asked.

"I don't know. They told us to stay here until they come and get us." Bailey said. We sat down and I put my legs across Bailey and Nick and my head in Ethan's lap and he was playing with my hair. I looked up at him and I kissed him. Liam came around the corner.

"Stop that!" he said sternly and I rolled my eyes. "Hey, follow me." He led us to a room. He opened the door and it was awesome. It had a skating part, basketball, football(American&British), outfits, dancing, drawing, and more.

"Ok, I'm pissed at you five boys!" I yelled and had a pissed face. They looked confused. "why the hell didn't you tell us about this room?" Ethan wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my cheek.

"We wanted it to be a surprise." Dad said. Me and Bailey ran to the outfits. We made sure the boys didn't see what we had.

"Where can we change?" Bailey asked.

"Right there." Dad said and we ran there. we got changed into the clothes. I had on a cheerleading uniform. I put on a sports bra, the top was a V-neck purple and white outlined, the bottom was a upside down V and it stopped in the middle of my breast and bellybutton, the cover your underwear were purple, the skirt was a little short and was frills and was purple and had a white outline, and purple, white, and black supras. I put my hair into a messy ponytail. Bailey had on the same exact thing except hers was pink and white.

"You ready?" I asked her.

"Let's do this." She said. We walked out and they looked and their jaws dropped.

"Close your mouth boys you might catch flies." we said and I walked to Ethan and pecked his lips.

"Angel, you were a cheerleader?" Harry asked.

"Yeah, I just didn't cheer at that football game." I said. "Where's the skateboards?"

"Your gonna skateboard in a cheer uniform?" Zayn asked and I rolled my eyes.

"Boy, do not make me come down there." I threatened.

"The skateboards are right there." Liam said pointing at them. I got one and started skating. I done my tricks and rode back towards them and stopped. They were shocked. I ran back to the costumes and grabbed a hip hop dance one. I put on black spandex, a black sports bra, a white off the shoulder crop top, black baggy harem pants, black and whites Jordans. I let my hair down and a black beanie that has a 'W' on the roll up. I grabbed my beats earbuds and my phone. I walked out and walked to the drawing part. I plugged my earphones into my phone and turned on my music. There was a large white piece of paper on the wall. I grabbed a pencil and was going to started on my secret drawing. I started the sketching part. I felt arms wrap around me and I looked and saw Ethan I pulled out my earbud, and smiled at him.

"Hey babe." I said and kissed him.

"Hey, everyone's going to bed. You ready and you can finish tomorrow?" he asked.

"Sure." I said and put the stuff up. I walked upstairs to my room and walk into my closet. I put on some gray Aeropostale shorts and a white tank top. As always arms wrap around my waist.

"We have school tomorrow." he said and kissed my cheek.

"Ugh, why?" I asked.

"Because, we're 17, we go to school. You need a education." he answered and turned me around. "try not to get in trouble."

"I can't promise nothing." I said. "I try my best to keep my temper down."

"Let's go to bed." he said and kissed me. We walked to the bed and covered up. Ethan put his arm around me and I scooted closer. I soon started drifted off into a good sleep.