Winnie's pov

I woke up and Ethan wasn't in the bed. I just went downstairs and only Bailey, Harry, and girl was here.

"Good morning." I said and walked to the kitchen. I got a granola bar and walked out and I was pinned against the wall by the girl.

"Get the hell off me you bimbo." I said and pushed her.

"What are you doing?" Bailey yelled.

"Stay away from Harry." she warned.

"He's my brother and lives here." I said and she slapped me. I slapped her harder.

"What the hell?!" Harry yelled. The girl held her face and fake cried. "Angel, why'd you slap her?!"

"What?! She slapped me first!" I yelled.

"Why would Quinn do that?!" Harry yelled at me.

"Because, she pushed me and she told me that I was fake and I didn't deserve you." Quinn said.

"She's lying!" Me and Bailey yelled.

"Come on." he said and grabbed my wrists and I winced. He froze and turned around. He jerked my wrists and saw the two cuts. "Didn't we just get on you about that?!"

"I didn't cut! And why would you care?! All you ever do is trash talk about me!" I yelled and he slapped me, I slapped him, he pushed me and punched him and he went to punch me but I grabbed his wrists and flipped him. I straddled him and punched him and he straddled me and punched me. Quinn pulled me off and slapped me and Bailey punched her and she pushed Bailey.

"See Baileys fighting her now!" Harry yelled. The boys walked through the door.

"What the hell is going on here?!" Louis yelled.

"Angel slapped Quinn!" Harry said.

"She hit me first!" I yelled.

"Because she pushed me and trash talked Harry and that girl over helped her." Quinn said.

"You little bitch." Bailey gritted through her teeth and started walking towards her but Nick grabbed her.

"And angel cut again!" Harry said.

"I did not!" I yelled.

"Winnie! What did we tell you?!" Zayn yelled.

"I didn't cut!" I yelled. "That bimbo there slapped me and I slapped her, Hazzy walked in and yelled at me. Me and Bailey yelled she was lying but he didn't believe us!" I turned to Hazzy. "I thought you trusted us?!"

"Harry were done!" Quinn yelled and left. Harry got in mine and Baileys faces.

"See! Being a spoiled ass ugly brats, and doing this you made her leave! I swear everything you do ruins this family! I regret adopting you and meeting Bailey. I swear I fucking hate you two. Everything that happened to us came from your past Winnie, it's all your fault nobody else." he gritted through his teeth and he left. Tears welled in my eyes and I clenched my jaw and fists and I turned around and walked upstairs. I had tears streaming down my face and I punched the wall, I slid down the wall and tears streaming down my face. I grabbed handfuls of hair in hands and pulled. Flashbacks coming, thoughts, everything I've done. It's my all my fault! I'm just a worthless broken girl who doesn't deserve to live! I don't deserve the life I have now. I ruined this family!

"Makayla, calm down." I heard Marcus's voice. He picked me up and put me on his lap. "Lil Kay, calm down, it'll be ok."

"No Marcus, it won't. If I'm living with this family I'm ruining it. It was all true, I am a ugly worthless broken girl! It's all my fault, I don't to deserve live. I don't deserve this life!" I choked out.

"Winnie, don't you dare talk like that. None of that is true, you can't help what you've went through. Your nowhere near ugly, your beautiful in every single way. That curly headed boy doesn't know what he's talking about, if he wants a girl who looks like a crayon box threw up on their face then let him." he said. "don't let him get to you, you still have all those people downstairs that love you. I just got you back." he said and hugged. "show me the Winnie smile." I gave him a slight smile. He tickled my stomach and laughed.

"I like Winnie Makayla Tomlinson better with a beautiful smile way better than the one you just had." he said.

"Thanks Marcus." I said and hugged him.

"Your welcome. Anything for my lil sis." he said and I smiled.

"I love you Marcus." I told him and hugged him.

"I love you too Makayla." he said. "I think there's someone in the hallway for you so I'm going to leave." he left. I sat on the bed and Ethan walked in.

"Did you hear all that?" I asked him and he nodded slowly. I looked down. "I swear, can I ever get one day without something happening." I asked. "Ethan, I love this family. But I can't handle it Ethan, I just can't."

"No Winnie, don't talk like that. Don't even think like that." he said sternly.

"Eth, you can say that because all this drama isn't happening to you." I said. "it feels like sometimes, the boys do regret adopting me. I know I would."

"Winnie, stop." he said. I jumped off the bed.

"How?! I thought when I got adopted, I would have a real family, one that's loving and caring, one that tell me they love me everyday, one that can at least spend one hour just hanging out with me, one that I would belong in!" I scream. "It always happens! Always!" I looked down.

"Lollie, this family does worry about you." he said. I looked up.

"When got sent that CD. What were you all doing?" I asked getting in his face. He looked down. "That's what I thought."

"Winnie no, we do care." he said. I chuckled.

"That's where your wrong Ethan. If they cared, they would trust me, I love how they care so much but I all they can do is get in my face and yell at me. That's not caring Ethan. I don't show it but every time I get yelled at or fight them I think of all the people who used to hurt me. I think it's going to happen again. I can't trust them like I used too, I miss just going to Nandos and hanging out. If they care, they got prove it because so far, their nowhere near it." I said and breathing heavy.

"Please tell me you think I care." he said.

"Babe, I know you care." I said and hugged him and kissed him.

"Thank god because you know I couldn't ever live without you." he said.

"I know." I said and he looked at me. "I'm kidding, I couldn't live without you either." And kissed him.

"I'm going to take a nap." I said yawning.

"Alright sleep good." he said and I laid in the bed and fell asleep.

~~~~~~Flashback~~~~~~

I woke up and put on some sweats and tank top. I walked to the kitchen and saw Harry making a chocolate cake.

"Hey Hazzy." I said.

"Hey angel, whatcha doing?" he asked. "Wait, "Did you just call me Hazzy?"

"Well, everyone calls you Hazza or Harreh, so I'm calling you Hazzy and I'm the only one that can call you that."

"You got it, now whatcha doing?" he asked.

"I want to help you." I said.

"Are you sure? Your only 14." he asked.

"Well, this 14 year old it about hurt this 18 year old boy." I threatened and gave him a death glare.

"Ok, crack the eggs in the bowl." he ordered. I smiled, and I did, I put the eggshells in the trash. I turned around and saw Niall trying to take some chocolate mix.

"Niall!" I said and I smacked his hand. "No!" he threw some flour on me. I threw some on him. I poured some whip cream on him and he poured chocolate syrup on me. He poured paint on me and I poured some on him. And I fell and he fell.

"What is going on in here?!" Liam asked.

"He did it!" I said and pointed at him, but at the same time he said "she did it." Louis came in the kitchen.

"Where did you get paint from?" Louis asked.

"You see this mess and the first you ask about is about paint?" Liam asked.

"Woah." Zayn said.

"Clean up this mess." Liam demanded.

"But-"

"Zip."

"Huh-"

"Zap."

"What-"

"Clean it or your grounded." he said. I gave Niall a evil smirk and he nodded. We threw flour on Liam.

"Oops." I said shrugging my shoulders. He came towards me and I ran. "Ah!" He grabbed me and threw me over his shoulder. "Let me down Liam!" I was hitting his back.

"Nope." He said and I can tell he has a smirk on his face.

"I swear if you don't put me down I will bite your shoulder!" I threatened.

"You wouldn't dare." he challenged. I bit his shoulder. "ow!" He put me down.

"I tried to tell you." I said and shrugged my shoulders. I ran back to the kitchen and hid behind Zayn.

"She bit me." Liam said childishly.

"I tried to warned you, you were just a idiotic brother that wouldn't believe me." I said. He started walking and I just got on Louis's back. "Help me da-Louis." I said and everyone looked at me shocked.

"Please don't hurt me! I didn't mean too." I begged.

"Winnie were not going to hurt you." Zayn said and hugged me.

"Group hug!" Louis said, they all hugged me.

"I love you guys." I said and smiled.

"We love you too." they all said and I burped and it got quiet. We all bust out laughing.

~~~~~~~flashback over~~~~~~~

I got a few more good flashbacks like that. I got up, I put on basketball shorts, a tank top, and supras. I put my hair up and put on concealer. I grabbed my phone and walked downstairs and stood in front Liam.

"Will you take me to the boxing ring, please." I asked.

"Sure, let's go." he said and I grabbed varsity jacket. "we'll be back." We walked out. "Why'd you wanna go?" we got in his car.

"I need to let out some anger." I said.

"Oh, right." he said and started the car.

"I had more flashbacks while I was resting and calming down." I admitted.

"Why didn't you scream and cry?" he asked.

"They were good ones." I said."about our family." I looked down. We finally got here and went inside.

"Punching bag?" he asked.

"Please." I said and he chuckled. I slipped on the gloves. I started punching the bag.

"Harry didn't mean it." he said and I shook my head.

"It doesn't matter, Liam, he still said it. Everything he said is the stuff I've been thinking and Ethan has been telling me it's not true. That's why it hurt me so much because I finally started not to believe it and then he said it." I said. "Liam, this is the second time he's said it." I punching the bag.

"Winnie, let him cool off." he said.

"Liam I can't do it." I gritted through my teeth and punched the bag some more.

"What are you talking about Winnie?" he asked.

"If I got to keep bringing so much drama to this family." I started.

"Then what?" he asked and I punched the bag.

"I can't handle it anymore Liam." I said and kicked the bag and dropped to my knees and put my head in my hands. "I can't do it, I give up."

"No! The Winnie I know struggles but she never. gives. up." he said.

"Liam I have too." I said.

"Why? Because your a quitter?" he asked.

"I'm not a quitter!" I yelled.

"Right now you are." he said.

"Liam, I can't stop myself from giving up." I said.

"You can't, but I will not let you give up." he said.

"Liam-"

"No! I'm not losing you Winnie, I've lost you more than once." he said.

"I'm not that girl who smiles and laughs and stays strong anymore." I said and he got up and walked to the table. He hit me in the head with a newspaper.

"Snapped out of it. You have not changed, if you weren't strong you wouldn't be sitting here today. Ethan scares you when he gets mad but he won't lay a finger on you or even think of it. Us five boys have gotten so mad and you didn't get scared, you stood your ground even when we hit you. You get scared of Ethan because your afraid you'll lose him." he said and I looked down. "I'm right. That hole in the closet was suppose to be you Winnie, but he didn't. That's how we feel about you, we don't want to lose you. I bet Ethan wouldn't let you give up either." I looked up.

"I hurt this family so many times and was my fault that happened. I've hurt Ethan so many times and I gave him many opportunities to hit me of how mad I've made him. He's the one person in the house that hasn't hurt me. He stuck with me and I have no idea why." I said.

"Because he loves you Winnie, that's why he blew up when you cut. He couldn't picture not having you and can't stand seeing you hurting yourself. Neither can I, and I won't. Winnie, I do care more than you know." he told me.

"I'm not forgiving him anytime soon Liam." I said.

"I know." he said.

"I don't hate him, I still love him." I said. "but, he's on silent treatment."

"I know you didn't cut, because if you did you would have made more." he said.

"I trusted him Liam, almost more than Ethan. He betrayed me, that's another reason it hurt when he said he hated me." I said.

"Winnie, I swear I won't let you give up because if you do, I do." he said.

"You deserve your life, unlike me." I said. He lifted my facing facing his.

"Don't ever say that, you are nowhere different than me. You went through all that shit growing up and look at you now Winnie. Most girls would probably flinch at anyone's touch or let hate get to them. This girl I see is a beautiful, brave, majestic, smart, funny, and damn right awesome 17 year old. I love being around you, just seeing my little sister in the morning brightens up my day. I don't like the face you have on right, let me see that Winnie smile." he said and I smiled. He shook his head and started tickling me. I laughed and smiled. "there it is!" He laughed, I stood up.

"I love you Liam." I said and I hugged him.

"I love you too Winnie." he said and hugged me.

"Let's go home." he said and I jumped on his back, we got in the car, he started driving home.

"Our convo is between me and you." I said and he nodded. We finally got home and walked inside.

"Hey guys. How'd it go?" Zayn asked.

"Good." I said and ran upstairs to my room. I took a shower and changed into undergarments, purple shorts and a tank top. I felt two arms wrapped around me.

"How'd boxing go?" he asked.

"Good, I got anger out." I said and he smiled and I smiled back. I kissed him and bit my lip.

"I'm glad. It's kinda scary you calm down by violence." he said.

"Well, Liam talked to me so it helped." I said.

"About what?" he asked.

"Sorry can't say. It's nothing bad." I said and he nodded. I walked to bed and covered up.

"I love you Lollie." he whisper in my ear and sent shivers down my spine.

"I love you too Ethan." I said and kissed him. I cuddled into his chest and drifted off to sleep.