Collin's point of view

"Why do I have to go to school? I literally got out of the hospital yesterday." I huffed as I crossed my arms. "Can't I just like relax for one more day? Please?" I asked Luke.

"Sorry bud, you need to go to school. We won't be home so you can't just stay home. So go get dressed and I'll be downstairs." He told me and I sighed while nodding.

"Fine." I huffed and he smiled. He closed the door and I pulled off my black t-shirt.

I grabbed some thin maroon sweatshirt out of my dresser and then pulled it on. I yanked a pair of black skinny jeans on after stripping my shorts off and then I laced on some maroon vans I had but hardly ever wore.

I put my glasses on and then I brushed my teeth after I put my earrings in. Once I reached up to fix my hair, I realized the sweater showed my stomach. I was going to change but Luke was already calling me down so he can drive me to school.

Screw it. Who cares?

I grabbed my backpack and then made my way downstairs. "Ready?" He asked me and I nodded.

"Y-Yeah, let's go."

-

"Have a good day at school."

"Unlikely." I said and then closed the car door. I walked up to the school building and people looked at me weirdly and some even sympathetically.

I didn't want them looking at me at all. I don't like when people just stare at me. It makes me uncomfortable and it makes me insecure.

"Hey Collin, glad to see you're okay man." Some older guy I don't know said to me. I looked at him and he smiled. "Heard about the whole ordeal, nice to have you back."

"Oh uh th-thanks?" I said and he just nodded before walking away. I stood confused for a second and then I carried on walking, trying to figure out why someone would be glad to see me.

What the fuck.

"Collin! Oh my god I'm glad you're alright! I was so worried!" Some girl in my third period said as she rushed up to me, hugging me. "You're okay right?"

"F-Fine." I said and she pulled away from me, smiling brightly. "I-I um thanks." I said and she just smiled at me again before walking away with her friends.

What the double fuck.

"Hey man, I'm sorry for all the crap I did to you. I didn't know you uh self-harmed. I'm sorry. I didn't know it effected you that greatly." A guy who would push me around and hit me said. "I don't know what I was thinking back then. I won't do it again, I promise."

"You-You know?"

"Practically the whole school does bro." He said and fixed his varsity jacket. "Well, catch you later. Tell me if anyone fuck with you, I'll kick their ass." He said before walking away to a bunch of cheerleaders and other boys in varsity jackets.

What the actual fuck?

I went to my locker and when I opened it, a bunch of envelopes and pieces of paper fell from it. "Oh my-What the fuck?" I said out loud and some girls offered to help me pick them up.

I thanked them and they nodded before walking off. I took, the now organized, notes and such and then shoved them in my backpack and I put my textbooks away.

"Hey Collin, what's up?" I heard Kayla's voice and I turned around. I looked at her and she just looked at me.

What the fuck is going on?

"Twins!" She said and smiled. I nodded and gave her a smile aswell. The only different in out outfits were the shoes and the fact she had shorts on rather than pants.

"How could you do this to me? This is my outfit." She pouted and I laughed lightly. "You look nice. I think we have the same top too."

"We probably do." I said and chuckled. She nodded and the bell rang. "I have to go, um, see you at passing period?" I asked her and she nodded.

"Yep. See you Collin." She said and kissed my cheek, causing a few students around us to 'aw'.

I made my way to my first period and as soon as I opened the door, some kids were shouting at me that they're glad I'm back and am okay. Even the teacher did and he hated me.

-

I sat under a tree by the field with Kayla, notebooks in out laps and pencils in our hands. We were drawing each other because we got bored and competitive on who drew the best between us.

"Hey Collin!" Some girl shouted and I bit back a groan. When will people stop talking to me? I don't think all of this attention.

"Hi." I said and smiled fakely at the girl who usually makes fun of me during gym because I'm just a small blonde boy.

"I just wanted to say that you're welcome to sit with me and my friends. I know I may have came off as rude but I was just going through some personal problems." She chirped and I nodded, not convinced in the slightest.

"Maybe next time." I lied and she nodded. She said she'll see me later and I just waved at her before she went back to her table.

"I thought she hated you?"

"Same." I mumbled and got back to my drawing. "Everyone is coming up to me and talking to me and this guy called me cute and this girl asked me out. I don't know what the fuck is going on." I said and she smiled smally.

"I don't know what to tell you man, I don't know what's going on either." She said and I nodded. "Can I ask you something?"

"Go ahead, you always can."

"What did you tell the girl who asked you out?" She asked and then gave me an innocent smile.

"I told her I wasn't interested," I said and smiled. "And that the only girl I wanted to date was you."

She smiled and then nodded, a blush on her cheeks. "The guys asked for me to drop by today after school, is that okay?"

"There's never a time I don't want to see you so I don't see why you're asking me that." I told her and she chuckled. "What do they want from you?"

"Nothing, just to keep you company." She said and I nodded. Some boy walked up to us and I was just about ready to throw this notebook at him and scream even though my frustrations and irritance was not his fault.

"Hi Kayla," he said and then sat down. "This is Collin?" He and she nodded. I looked at him weirdly and he looked at me weirdly too.

"Who are you?"

"The question is, who are you... staring at like that because I am fabulous and deserve respect." He said and then laughed. "I'm only joking, kind of. I'm Justin."

"Oh," I said and shook his hand. "I'm Collin, but I-I think you know that already." I said and he nodded.

"I love how you two are matching, it is so cute. Oh my god, relationship goals as fuck." He said and I smiled, chuckling a bit. He was so outgoing... it kind of irritated me.

You're such a fucking grouch today.

"So, uh, what's u-up?" I asked him as I went back to my drawing. I looked up at him occasionally as he spoke about how students here have no fashion sense and how he wants to just throw their wardrobes away and give them new ones.

"Unfortunately I do not have the money to fix the mistakes, sorry, the terrible choices they deliberately choose to make. I need it to spend on myself and for my older sister and my younger brother and my father." He said and I nodded, chuckled lightly at his rant.

"Also, I think I have the same exact shirt as you two, why is that so weird to me?" He asked and I looked at Kayla.

"The queation is, why are you two shopping in the girls' section?" She asked and then Justin went on another rant.

"Because girl clothes be soft as fuck. Come on, why are your shirts like freaking heaven but guy shirts feel like hell. Why are you punishing us? What the hell? It's like you want me to walk around ass naked." He said and I laughed, causing him to smile.

"Well at least you won't get that judged if you end up leaving the house ass naked. If you're a girl and you show your shoulder it literally means you're a hoe and sleep with a different guy every night." Kayla said and I looked at her.

"Why is you shoulder showing then? You aren't sleeping with a different guy ever night." I said and she rolled her eyes, pushing me away from her slightly.

"Ooh, getting jealous?"

"No," I hummed and looked at Kayla. "It's just that I know what's going on, don't I?"

"Of course you do." She said and smiled. "I tell you just about everything." She told me and Justin looked between us.

"Oh," he said and nodded. "I see. Kayla got herself a boyfriend. Nice. You lucky he dresses nicely too because I would have fried his ass hella bad." Justin said and I smiled, a bit glad he was here and wouldn't stop talking. It wasn't that irritating anymore, it was more amusing.

"Me? Fried? By you? Yeah right."

"Love hate relationship." Kayla sang and then looked us. "Go pick pedals off a fucking flower."

"Boy, I will fry your ass so perfectly that KFC will be banging on my door, begging for my secret." He said and I laughed as I shook my head.

"Can't fry anyone because if you do go near fire your hair will burn from how much hairspray is in it." I shot back and he gasped. "Might wanna check the mirror because I thought those grey hairs were legit."

"I approve of him." Justin said, causing me and Kayla to laugh loudly. Kids stared at us but I tried my best to ignore them.

"I never really heard you sass anyone before Collin." Kayla told me and it looked at the her. She had this proud smile on her lips and she seemed happy. "You never really speak up."

"I-I know, it's weird." I said and closed my journal so I can finish it at home, which involved coloring. The due date for these was tomorrow anyways so I had time.

"Anyways, bitch, I saw those pictures you posted on instagram using the stickers I gave you. How dare you go all tumblr aethestic chick without me? You know that is my thing!" He gasped towards Kayla.

"Sorry, I had more important things to do than call you to come to a hospital room at eight o'clock." She said and Justin gasped.

"Like what hmm?"

"Anything else."

He gasped and I laughed as I pressed my back against the the tree. I ran my hand thtough my hair, accidently exposing my hip bones and my stomach.

"Oh wait, what are your next periods homeboy?" Justin asked me and I told him. "Sweet, we have gym together."

"D-Do we?" I asked and he nodded. "Cool." I said and nodded.

"We're going to kick some flat ass in basketball." He said and I looked at him confused. "Oh yeah, you were out for awhile. We're doing basketball."

"Oh..."

I'm going to die in gym...