Vanessa's point of view

"Why are we all here?" Calum asked and I sat quietly, not speaking, not even looking up. I sat here beside Michael and Ashton, choking in the tense silence.

"Luke babe-"

"I'm gonna fucking kill you Calum." He said and looked at his bandmate. They all looked between them and Luke asked calmly, a tone that absolutely scared me. "Do you know why?"

"Luke what's going-"

"Shut up." He said to Bryana and Ashton glared at him, telling him not to talk to his girlfriend that way. "Calum, do you know why?" He asked again and Calum shook his head.

"I haven't done anything."

"You haven't done anything." Luke said and laughed. I grabbed on to Michael when he jumped up, and I could just see horns growing from his head and fire behind him. "You haven't done anything? You fucking liar."

"Luke calm down, what the hell is your problem?" Arzaylea said and he threw his phone on the couch beside Calum.

"Fucking explain that Calum. Right now before I rip your balls off." He said and Calum picked the phone up.

Bryana looked and Calum gulped. "Don't show it to them, tell them what the pictures are." Luke said and Calum turned it off. "Tell them, we're waiting."

"I'm scared Michael." I said and he just rubbed my arm as Calum choked out an answer.

"It's me and-and Vanessa."

"And what are you doing?" Luke asked, red faced. I shook my head and Michael gave me a hug. "Tell them, what were you two doing?"

"Luke, did you really have to bring every-"

"Shut the hell up and tell them what you were doing." He said, cutting Calum off, and Michael butt in.

"Luke, calm-"

"Shut up, I know you knew about this too. Tell them god dammit Calum-"

"We were kissing and holding hands, there you go. Me and Vanessa are dating are you happy Luke?" Calum said and I winced at the silence that followed him.

"Really?" Arzaylea asked and Michael ran a hand through his hair. "Vanessa... are you two?"

I didn't answer her, too afraid to pull away from Michael. "Answer her Vanessa." Luke said and I clutched on to Michael.

"Luke, stop. She's scared." Bryana said softly and I was actually shaking because I was trying not to cry.

This was all too overwhelming.

"No, I'm pissed okay. My twenty years old bandmate is dating my fifteen year old daughter. If I didn't want her dating someone her age, what makes you think I'd let her date some five year older than her?" He said and Michael whispered to me that it's gonna be okay.

"You're literally taking advantage of a child Calum, that's not right! I thought you were smarter than this?" Luke said and Calum yelled back at him.

"I have not taken advantage of her. If anything, all I've done is help her feel better after you make her feel like garbage. That's all you're good at, making people feel like garbage." He said.

"She's fifteen and you're already biting on her neck and lord know what else. You fucking dick." Luke said and Michael winced as there was a bang. "I'm gonna fucking kill you Calum."

"Get off of me you psychopath." Calum said and I just squeezed my eyes tighter. "You can ask Vanessa, I've never done anything she wasn't okay with-"

"She's fifteen, what the hell wouldn't she be okay with-"

"She's not stupid Luke-"

"She is if she's dating you of all people-"

"Just because your relationship is rocky-"

"Don't you dare bring up my relationship when you're with a minor-"

I jumped up and then ran upstairs, too overwhelmed to do anything. I slammed the door and then went into the closet, bringing my knees up to my chest and crying into them.

I just fucked up their friendship and possibly the band. God damn, I can't believe myself. How could I be such an idiot, thinking that this would stay a secret?

"She's fucking fifteen!"

"Get off of me Luke! It's not like we're doing anything illegal!"

"How am I supposed to know that when you're out sneaking around with my daughter?"

I cried harder and I head the closet door open. "Vanessa? It's Arzaylea and Bryana. Come on out love."

"Make like Larry and get out of the closet." Bryana said and even though I was sad, I laughed. "There you go. Come on."

I got up and then ran into Arzaylea, giving her a hug. "Are you-Are you mad?" I asked and she shook her head.

"No, I'm not mad. I'm just really shocked, that's all. I promise I'm not mad." She said and I nodded.

"If it helps, I thought the pictures were cute. You both looked happy." She said and I looked at her as she pulled her phone out. "See those smiles? He's smiling bigger than when he gets complimented on his bass skills."

"I'm not saying it's perfectly okay to be dating him, because you're still young, but I'm not saying you two should break up and not be together. It's caught up on the line of, if it makes you happy... I guess." Arzaylea said and I sniffled.

"I mean, yeah, dating a minor isn't a good idea, but like, if people can look last that..." Bryana said and showed a picture of us kissing. "It's cute."

"When was that?" Arzaylea asked me and I laughed a bit as I smiled.

"I-We went to M-Miranda's quince and he told me don't-don't hate him before he kissed me." I said and smiled smally. "I told him I-I didn't."

"When you'd go out with Calum, like hang out, what would you do?" Arzaylea asked and I sniffled.

"Um, talk a lot, laugh, eat junk food, listen to music, cuddle, play video games, hold hands, stuff like that." I said and she nodded.

"No Netflix and chill?" Bryana asked and I shook my head. "See? That's not bad. If only Luke knew that. He must have saw that and though 'Calum's fucking Vanessa'."

I vsibly winced and that as I shook my head. They laughed and Arzaylea said there's plenty of time for that when I'm fourty years old.

"I can... I can count on my hands the number of times we've kissed." I said and they nodded. "It wasn't a lot."

"If I see you around Vanessa again like that you're out! Gone! We'll find a new bassist!" Luke shouted at him and I gulped.

"You can't do that! I started writing sings for this god damn band. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't be where you are now." Calum yelled.

"Calm down, that's not going to happen." Arzaylea said and I nodded. "How did that picture spread by the way? The one of you two kissing in like the dark?"

"Miranda."

"What?" Bryana asked and I nodded. "Why would she do that?" I shrugged and then jumped as doors were slamming shut

"Oh god." I said and held Arzaylea tighter. She shushed me and rubbed my back softly, telling me that it'll be okay.

"I swear to god Vanessa," Luke said and I didn't want to look at him. "Look at me." He said and I forced myself too.

He grabbed my jaw and Bryana yelled at him. "If you go near Calum like that again, I swear to god that you'll regret it."

"Why?" I asked, speaking without thinking. I honestly wanted to know why he was so against it. I knew he'd be mad but I didn't think he'd be this mad.

"Because this is for your own good. You cannot date my bandmates. I thought that would have been established the moment we signed the adoption papers." He said and let go of me so he could walk away.

"Sometimes I wish you never did it." I mumbled and he stopped.

"You know what-"

"Luke please-"

"I didn't want to sign those papers, neither did Arzaylea. We didn't want a kid." He said and my heart hammered against my chest.

"That is not true Vanessa, don't listen to him." Arzaylea said as she grabbed my arm gently.

"This is the filthy fucking truth and don't you dare hide it Arzaylea. Don't lie to her. We didn't want to adopt you. We didn't want anything to do with a kid at that time." He said and I gulped.

"Then why?"

"Because my reputation was going under and our management just so happened to find you at a local adoption center. To wake media up, we adopted you, so media would buzz about you being adopted and me adopting." He said and I looked down.

"So all of this was fake?" I asked and he nodded as Arzaylea protested. "A scam to raise your reputation..." I said as tears filled my eyes again.

"I'm surprised you didn't know." He said and I looked at him, feeling so broken, so empty, so used.

After that huge argument, the huge fight where he called me his daughter, like an actual dad, he turns around and tells me he used me to save his career.

"It's funny how I thought two kids would wanna adopt a kid." I mumbled brokenly and ran my hands over my face.

Oh my god I was so stupid.

"No, it's not funny. What's funny is that you fell for it-"

"I looked up to you. You were my idol. I looked up to you as a musician, as a songwriter, as a person, and now when I look at you, I feel nothing but the urge to vomit. Because you know what Luke, fuck you." I said, wondering how the hell the person I idolized could be such a dick.

I wasn't even sad anymore, I was angry. I was pissed. This whole time I thought that maybe it'd work out like this, but no. It won't work out. Not after this.

"Vanessa, look at me-"

"You and the band are what got me through everything, you know that? I thought, hey if 5sos can get through tough times then you can to. Hey, if 5sos can follow their dreams and be successful, you can to." I told him. "I put you on a pedestal especially, on a throne, but I guess I should have met you before I did that." I told him, ignoring Bryana and Arzaylea.

"Love-"

"I guess you really can't judge a person without knowing them personally." I said and then pushed past him.

I ran downstairs and then out the front door, hearing Bryana and Arzaylea call out to me. I didn't answer them, I just walked away because being withing a miles range from Luke made me what to cry.

Everything made me want to cry right now.

That one blade of grass that was the smallest bit shorter than the others made me want to cry.

Just everything... and it was all Luke's fault.