Vanessa's point of view

I flipped through the songs on my phone as I sighed, not finding any interest in the songs that played. Out of irritance, I just left it on some The Weeknd song, trying not to continously press the skip button.

I looked out of the small window on the tourbus and then turned my music up. I watched the city pass by and the moon seemed to run away from us as the sun peaked through the semi-dark skies.

"I don't wanna hurt you but you live for the pain, I'm not trying to say it but it's what you became," I sang softly, the cold air stinging my skin. "You want me to fix you but it's never enough, that's why you always call me because you're scared to be loved."

I closed my eyes, wondering why I couldn't fall asleep. It's not because it's tough to sleep in a bunk, it really isn't for me, I just... I don't know. I couldn't stay asleep.

"Hey," someone said and I opened my eyes as they took my earbud out. "It's kind of cold, don't you think?" Calum asked as he closed the window.

"I can't tell, sorry." I told him and he just nodded as he sat beside me. "Wanna?" I asked as I held my earbud out for him.

He took it from me and I scooted over so he could lay comfortably on the couch with me. "Zayn?" He asked and I nodded as he wrapped his arms around me, the song changing.

I looked out of the window, a little in awe at how pretty the city looked under the slightly cloudy, but colorful skies. I didn't know what city we were in, but the dark buildings along the somewhat bright sky was enough for me to love it.

Calum buried his face into my side since he was laying a little lower down the couch than I was, and his breath tickled me slightly since I was in a sports bra and some joggers. I closed my eyes again and sighed softly as I put my hand over his sleeve covered one.

"You're very cold."

"No, you're just warm." I said and he chuckled quietly as he yawned. "Why are you up? Go to sleep."

"I got cold, that's why I'm up." He said and I apologized again. "Why are you up?"

"Couldn't go back to sleep after I woke up to go pee." I said and he nodded as Sam Smith played now.

"Sad." He commented and I nodded. "Are you okay Nessa?" He asked and I nodded again.

"I'm fine, swear." I told him and took a deep breath. "It's just a playlist." I told him and he nodded.

"You can always talk to me, you know that right? You can trust me." He told me and I nodded, telling him that I knew I could. "Don't bottle your emotions up."

"I know. I'm fine Cal, I promise. It's just music in a playlist." I said and he chuckled softly.

"It's never 'just music' Nessa." He said as he traced shapes on my tummy with his thumb. "Music isn't 'just music', never has, never will be."

"Yeah, you're right." I said and he pressed his lips against my skin softly. "You should go to sleep, you have a show tonight."

"You should get some sleep too." He told me and I shrugged, telling him that I wasn't the one who was performing in front of thousands and thousands of people. "You've got a point there." He said and I got up.

"I'm thirsty, hold on." I said and he let go of me. I stood up and then pulled my joggers up since they were falling down my hips.

I went to the fridge and then grabbed a bottle of water bottle. I grabbed a can of beer for Calum, since that's all he ever drinks, and then walked back to the small living area of the bus.

I closed the sliding door and then handed him the beer before opening my water bottle. "What's this?" He asked as he chuckled, opening the can.

"It's beer?" I said as he took a drink. I capped my water bottle and tossed it on the opposite couch before sitting down beside him.

"I... nothing, nevermind." He said and set it on the small table. I laid down and he moved my phone beside the can so neither of us had to worry about the tangled wires of my earbuds.

"Be a little spoon?" I asked and he looked at me like I was crazy. "Please?" I asked, pouting slightly.

It took a moment or two, and then he groaned a little too loudly. "Fine." He said and grumbled about how much he hated this as he turned around.

I smiled and wrapped my arm around his waist, resting my head on the arm of the couch as his rested on my arm. "Yay." I said and he laughed lightly as he yawned again.

"I think I'm gonna sleep." He said and I nodded as I closed my eyes. "If I die in my sleep from Luke, promise me you'll take my spot in the band?"

"I could never be as great as you but I'll try." I said and he thanked me, seeming completely serious as he relaxed a bit, his breathing soft. "Night Cal."

"Night." He said and I held him tightly as he held my hand in his.

-

"Why is #CalumIsALittleSpoon trending?" Calum asked me and I shrugged. "What did you tweet?"

"I haven't tweeted all day?" I said and he narrowed his eyes at me. "Swear to god, it wasn't me."

"It was me." Ashton piped and we looked at him, well I pointed rapidly at him.

"See!"

"Why would you?" Calum asked and Ashton said it was kind of cute. "Just because Bryana won't let you little spoon."

"She does! Sometimes." Ashton said and we laughed. I took a drink of my hot tea and then looked at Luke.

"What's with you and always going to the studio in flip-flops, jeans, and a hoodie?" I asked and he shrugged as he sat beside me.

He leaned his head on my shoulder and I patted his head. "We're all tired." Michael said and I told them that I wasn't. "That's cause you're twelve, you have lots of energy."

"You drank three energy drinks Michael, how are you not bouncing off of the walls?" Ashton asked and he shrugged as he sat on the counter, drinking a glass of ice water.

"I miss Arz."

"I miss Bry."

"I miss my Oreos." Michael said and we all looked at him. "What? Not everyone can get at girlfriend guys. Not every girl wants to date an ugly band member who spends all his time either in a studio, playing videos games in his room, or in a therapy session." He huffed and I pouted.

"Aw Mikey, you're not ugly." I said and Luke agreed. "You're more attractive than ninety-eight percent of the human population." I told him.

"I better be in the list that he isn't more attractive than." Luke said and I laughed.

"Ha, no. Andy Biersack and Halsey are hot okay, sorry Mikey but, no one is hotter than them." I said and Luke butt in.

"Halsey is eh. She's attractive but there's prettier, there's hotter."

"Like me." I said and he choked on nothing. "I am kidding. Everyone is hotter than I am. I literally look like donkey ass." I said and they laughed.

"Poor Calum." Ashton said and I agreed as Luke closed his eyes as he leaned his head on my shoulder again

"I'm too tired to get protective." Luke mumbled and I laughed as he chuckled. "I don't want to leave the bus." He whined and Calum agreed.

"I get to stay on the bus, hell yeah." I said and they all swore at me. "I'm not the famous ones, go put on a show and then maybe I'll have food by the time you're back." I said and they cheered.

"That excites me." Luke said and Michael agreed. "Food excites us. We love food more than we love ourselves."

"Talk about yourself Hemmings." Calum said and I laughed. "You know what excites me more than food." He said and it was Michael who took his beanie and threw it at Calum. "Hey!"

"What?" I asked and Ashton shook his head. "I'm actually not even going to think about it. I'm just going to do something else." I said and pulled my phone out, opening Twitter since everything else cannot be opened with Luke right beside me.

"I'm gonna fall asleep on your shoulder Nessa." Luke said and I nodded. I went to make a tweet and then I opened the camera, looking at Michael.

"Say hi for twitter." I said as I went to record it. "Michael! Say hi."

"Hello!" He said and I went to Calum and Ashton, who smiled and waved. "Luke's very sleepy and Cashton are just drinking."

"It's probably beer." I whispered and Luke chuckled a bit. "Say hi Luke?" I asked and flipped the camera.

"Hey." He said and smiled sleepily at the camera. I turned it to me since time was running out and I patted Luke's cheek.

"Hemmo is very tired so you're not gonna see him much. Bye guys." I said and blew a kiss as Ashton yelled a good morning.

I posted it with a good morning text aswell and then set my phone down, turning it off. I leaned my head on Luke's and Calum grabbed my phone. "What are you doing?" I asked.

"Hacking your Insta." He said and I rolled my eyes. I nodded and then looked at Luke who's eyes were closed and his body relaxed, moving softly with each breath.

"Shouldn't he get back to his bunk?" I asked and Ashton nodded. "Take him back?" I asked him and he said he would when he finishes his drink.

"I'm not a fan of your behavior Calum, I need you to chill out or square up." Michael said and Calum laughed. "I will fight you."

"And you'll lose because I'm stronger." Calum said and Michael rolled his eyes. "Take a chill pill." He said and I opened Tumblr as soon as Calum gave me my phone back.

Luke was asleep, no harm done.

"Well then." I mumbled because the first thing I saw was a gif set of 'cuddly' Mikey with oversized sweaters and big smiles. "He's so cute." I accidentally said out loud and all attention was on me.

"Who's cute?"

"This little kitten." I said, scrolling down and showing him a gif of a kitten. "Isn't he adorable?"

"Looks like Mikey."

"You know what?" Michael said and pointed at Ashton. "You guys need to stop calling me that, I will fuck you up."

"Kitten."

"You're a kitten."

"Mikey's a kitten."

He glared at all of us and I smiled sweetly. "You wouldn't dare hurt me." I said and he turned to Calum and Ashton. I looked at them and they flipped me off.

"Actually, we got to go to the studio." Ashton said and Michael groaned. "It's noon. We have a short acoustic set, an interview, and then at five we have an actual concert."

"Luke." I said softly and pushed him a bit. He hummed and I shook him a bit more. "Hemmings-"

"Yeah?"

"You guys gotta get to the studio. Go change your shoes and maybe eat a mint." I said and he opened his eyes.

He breathed on me and I held my nose as he sat up, laughing at my reaction. "That burned my insides." I said and Ashton laughed.

"Go get dressed Luke, come on." He said and Luke groaned ad he stood up. "I'll buy you a coffee on the way."

"I'll better be what I like." He said and we all laughed at how dramatic he was.