Jordan's point of view

I laid in my bed, my music playing softly since I was afraid of the silence. I hated it. When it's silent, my mind starts to race and when my mind races, I always end up in tears. Whether it's from overthinking things, haunting memories, or whatever, I always end up in tears.

I pulled the blanket up more and cuddled into my body pillow. I didn't have one of the guys, or Timothy, to cuddle up to. I was all alone in my room, and scared out of my mind. Well, I wouldn't say scared, it was more of paranoia rather than fear. However, I think paranoia is a type of fear, I'm not sure.

I heard a thump and I froze. My body chilled and my breathing stopped. I felt a lump rise in my throat and I didn't dare move a single muscle. I kept my entire body under my blanket with a hole barely big enough to allow me to breathe.

I was beyond paranoid now. I felt as if I was going to cry because of a simple sound, something, anything could have made. It was ridiculous, but I couldn't help but feel as if someone was in here. As if someone was watching me.

I reached for my phone under my pillow very slowly and then turned it on, quickly shining it into my dark room. There was nothing. I turned the lamp beaide my bed on, and saw that my skateboard had fallen from its spot propped against the wall.

I let out a breath of relief and then turned the music off on my iPad. I opened the door and then made my way towards Ashton's room. I opened his door and looked into it like a child.

After that little episode in my room, I felt like a child aswell.

"Ash?" I whispered into his room. I made my way to his side of the bed and then poked him in the back of the shoulder. "Ashton?" I asked and he hummed. "I-I, can I sleep with you tonight?"

"I thought you said you'd be okay alone?" He said in this deep and croaky sounding voice.

"I um guess I wasn't." I said and he turned around. "Can I sleep with you?" I asked and he nodded. He scooted back and I heard a feminine whine. I forgot Viviam slept in the same bed asw Ashton.

"Get in," he said and I did. I laid down beside him and he wrapped his arm around me, causing the blanket to fall over me too. "Are you okay?"

"Just a bit paranoid."

"Don't be." He said and I nodded as I closed my eyes. "I'm right here. I won't let anything hurt you, or take you." He told me and I turned around. I hugged Ashton back and sniffled. "Don't cry princess."

"I'm sorry."

"For what?" He asked me, his voice going back to as it normally sounds. "Dammit, she kicked me." He grumbled and I laughed softly. "What are you sorry for?"

"Being such a pain in the... neck." I told him and he hissed again. "I just bring problems and drama wherever I go."

"No, it's fine, don't worry about it." He told me and then groaned. "Okay, fuck, can we just go to your room? I'll still be with you, its just, she keeps kicking me."

I nodded and we got out of bed. He picked me up and then carried me to my room. He closed my door and then turned the light off after I got into my bed. I laid down beaide the wall and he got into my bed.

"Come here." He said and I scooted closer. He wrapped hid arm around me again and I hugged him back. "You have nothing to be sorry for, I'm the one who should be apologizing."

"You just wanted what's best fo-"

"No, I was inconsiderate and I was really hard on you." He said. "I'm sorry. I didn't realize how rough I was treating you until Chelsea yelled at me. Or maybe it was when you ran to one of the other boys instead of me."

"It's okay, I forgive you." I said and he kissed the top of my head. I closed my eyes and I jumped as I heard a tap.

"It's just a branch against the window princess, calm down." He whispered and I nodded. "I won't let anything hurt you, not now, not ever. I love you too much to let anything in this world hurt you."

"I love you too dad." I accidentally slipped and he gave me a tight squeeze. "I'm sorry, I-I didn't mean to it just slipped out. If you don't want me to call you th-"

"No, it's fine. If you want to, you can call me dad." He told me and I nodded. "Now go to sleep princess, you have school tomorrow." He told me and I nodded.

"Goodnight... dad."

"Goodnight sweetheart, sweet dreams." He told me and I nodded. "I'll be right here when you wake up, I promise."

-

"Aww, father-daughter moment." I heard a voice say and I buried my face more into whoever was hugging me, I'm assuming it was Ashton. "Do you think she went to him or he went to her?"

"It doesn't matter, it's still adorable." Someone said and then a few clicks filled the room. "Wake the two up." They said and then suddenly, we were being shaken.

"Ash, JJ, it's time to get up." Someone said and I groaned. "It's morning, you have to eat breakfast and get dressed for school."

"I finished school, so fuck off."

"But the little girl in your arms hasn't." I pried my eyes opened and saw Luke's familiar face. "There are those pretty eyes. Come on, come eat your breakfast and then you can get dressed for school." He told me and I nodded.

"Dad, I need to get up." I said and he sighed. Woah, morning breath. He let go of me and we both winced as someone screeched. At least, I think it's a someone. It could have been a cat that was stepped on.

"You left me to be with your daughter?"

"You say it like I'm dumpimg you for her, jesus christ, is it such a crime to hold my daughter when she's too paranoid to sleep?" Ashton grumbled and Luke helped me out of my bed.

I went down to the living room and took a seat at the dining table. "Thank you." I said as I looked down at the eggs and spam and Calum told me it was nothing. "Oh, you cooked, is there blood in it?"

"Shut up and eat." He laughed out and I smiled. I grabbed the ketchup set beside my plate and put some in the corner of it. closes it and then set it down for whoever else to use.

"What's up with you and Ashton all cuddled up? Isn't he too old for you and aren't you with Timothy?" Chelsea joked and I laughed. "Kidding, that would be rather strange seeing as he is your legal guardian.

"Extremely weird." I said as I took a bite of my piece of spam. Good thing I didn't have a lot, not only is it fattening as balls, but it's also really salty. "But um, I got scared last night and asked him if I could sleep with him."

"But he was in your bed?"

"You kept kicking me last night! I swear, I have a bruise on my back and my ass because of you."

"There's your answer." I said and he nodded. I finished my food quickly and then stood up. I put my dishes in the sink and then went upstairs.

"I'm going to drop you off at school today sweetheart." Ashton told me as he passed me by. "If you would like, you can go over to your friends' house after school. We have things to do that we can't get out of and I don't know if any of us can pick you up. With everything going on, I don't want you to be alone, so you can't walk home."

"Thanks for telling me." I said and he nodded as he scruffed my hair up. "I have to go get dressed now." He nodded and then I went into my room.

I went to my closet and grabbed a plain black tank-top, black skinny jeans, a pair of maroon converse, and Christian's maroon hoodie he 'left' when he was over last.

I got dressed quickly and went to my bathroom. I put my hair in a messy side braid and then put my glasses on. I sprayed on some perfume and after I did my teeth brushing and face washing, I put a grey beanie on and grabbed my backpack.

I walked downstairs and saw Ashton. Chelsea and Michael were arguing and I wanted to ask what was going on, but I decided agaisnt it. "Ready?" Ashton asked me as he spun the car keys in his fingers.

"Yeah," I told him and we walked out of the place. "Do you think-Do you think the school knows about Taylor missing?" I asked him after he shut the front door.

"I'm sure after his parents didn't find him last night they reported it." He told me. "So yes, I do believe they know about it." He said as we got into the car.

"Now, how about some of Sleeping With Siren's new album?" He asked and I nodded as he put the cd in. "That's what I'm talking about, smile Jordan. You look much better happy."

"So I look ugly when I'm upset?"

"Yes." He joked and I laughed. I shook my head and leaned my head on the window as the sound of Kellin Quinn's voice rang through the car.

-

I waved bye to Ashton and then went up to the school. "J!" Timothy said as he saw me and ran up to me. I laughed as he engulfed me in a hug and I hugged him back. "We won last night, isn't that amazing?"

"It is." I said and laughed. "Did Mr. Kings give us our extra credit yet?"

"He quit his job is what I'm hearing." Christian said after he and James came walking over. "We still get it, but he quit his job. They had to find a new teacher to fill in for him."

"Who is he?"

"We don't know." James said. "All I know is girls are saying he's fucking hot and looks like he just finished everything required to become a full-time teacher." He told us as the bell rang.

We began walking to the classroom and as soon as I opened the door, my eyes almost fell out of my head. "Peter?" I asked and he turned around. Chelsea's hot, gay, best friend?

"Jordan, what a coincidence." He said and I nodded as I took a seat. "I heard what happened with Taylor and I just want to tell you I hope you guys can get him back. I also need to calculate your grade considering the extra credit I was told you were given for the show yesterday." He said and I looked at Christian.

"He's so hot when he gets all smart." Christian said and James pouted. I agreed and Chris looked at me. "No, back off, he's mine. After all, he doesn't swing your way. So, swerve out of his lane and into one that is actually open for you."

"Children, take a seat. Today we are going to learn, well, practice, how to recite details from the text and use them in our writing. We will be watching a video and as soon as it is over, I want you to write your opinion on it, reciting exact details from the video." He said and turned the lights off.

"Taylor, d-Oh," I said as I looked at the seat beside me. "I forgot, you're not here." I said and slumped in my seat as the movie began playing.