sometimes I can feel myself being a jerk. and even though i try, i can't stop. and it's always my fault. I'm not going to say that it's other people whom ive treated unfairly or like a lesser's fault. because most of the time it's mine and mine only. I say things I shouldn't. I'm terrible with words. I hate it all. I hate that I do this. I hate what I do to myself. I hate that I don't share about it.