i don't know what to do...

and i feel like an ass for writing this...

it's fucking valentines and i can't even write...

anyhow, im not sure what to do

i want to be there and give my love and afection

but im not sure how without being 'how me and shota are'

and i can't stop crying

g*d i feel like an ass...

and this is very directed and it makes me feel worse... 

i just want to be there  but i know i shouldn't

or maybe i should and im an idiot?

no proably not...

i don't like this...

fuck this, i got to wipe my tears and enjoy today. it's fucking valentines day! get it together man! im going ice skating today stop mopeing dammit! get your sad ass outta bed and go strech beacuse i know im gonna fall on my ass all day. 

wow did i just motavate mydelf by saying i suck at icekating?

pft-

well i feel better now

but i still wanna post my rant :p

still have no clue what to do though...