I turn all the lights off and close the curtains to get on my bed, I pull the blanket down to my feet since it's already hot in here and I play the video again, to watch it entirely.

A sexy song, a sexy girl, what else could I ask for? This is honestly the channel I love the most. I lie down more comfortably with my big pillow under my head and lick my lips, sliding my feet up the sheets, I decide to turn my large TV on and watch the video on it.

Her body is even better on that screen. My heart hastens for no reason known but my teeth nibble onto my lips unceasingly. I've been horny today to not change the habit and y/n's thighs always do something to my mind that makes it harder for me to not be turned on.

Since I'm exhausted and want to relax a little, I enjoy the video to the full, scanning her curves and exciting myself with the sight of her bare thighs I love so much. I can't understand what she doesn't like about her thick thighs, hips, and little tummy, they make her even hotter as hell.

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Not willing to hold back my needs, I lower my legs down to the mattress but slide my hand in my sweatpants. The wonderful body of y/n now turning around as the movements she's making are heightening the heat she's causing, I rub my hand on my already hard member but arouse myself with better images. Imagining her in those clothes in here, dancing for me but stripping with a lot of tease right before my eyes, that makes me even harder. I keep my eyes on her body moving to the rhythm of the song and speed up the pace of my wrist, grabbing my cock and taking it out of my pants to pump it.

I gulp down but a heavy exhalation leaves me, my arm getting under my head as I'm gradually diving into something deep and good. My breathing accelerating as my hand is picking up the pace, I tighten my hold on it and focus on the head to stimulate it, jerking my hand up and down as fast as possible to make me reach the climax. My lips part for the air to leave me more easily but I don't stop watching her while going faster with my hand. The sight of her thick thighs, her hips swaying, her body rolls that are so sexy and make me think about what they could give me if she was on top of me, I bite my lips to control myself as much as I can but keep stimulating my sensitive member.

As soon as she bends over, my mind goes insane and I lose my breath at the feeling of a great sexual pleasure taking over me, my veins jutting out of my hot skin and pulsating fast as I'm going hard and feeling my muscles flexing all by themselves. A deeper exhalation slips out of my mouth. "Ohh...god..." I rasp but smirk in front of the sensual scene, her moves worsening my state as I wish I could have her next to me, my eyes look up at the ceiling to leave this hot baby but shut and allow me to never stop the heavy frictions.

"F—Fuck..." I keep my voice as low as I can but put my head on the pillow to have my arm over my face and cover my mouth. I pant and feel my body twitching as my cum is about to be released but I keep my voice as quiet as I can, to squeeze my cock and pump it strongly. My eyes close, my lips part to let my quivering breathing escape, and my spine numbs, my muscles contracting through my entire body as the heat is rising up and burning me from the inside. I don't slow it down but clench my fist to control myself and not moan, the pleasure coursing through me and my throbbing veins, I drop my hand on my chest going up and down at warp speed and push my head back in my pillow to arch my back. A growl vibrates through my throat but I turn my head on my pillow to set my eyes back on the TV and not stop moving my hand up and down at warp speed in front of y/n dancing so freaking sexily.

Willing to get better sensations while watching her, I stop for a moment but lean over my nightstand to unlock the last drawer but take my transparent fleshlight. I get back in my position to get ready, my veiny hands shaking, I insert my cock inside the toy but bite my lips and make it go up and down.

My eyes remain fixed on her thighs, the thickness of it turning me on as her legs are often spreading and making me want her. My mouth widen to let the hot but unsteady air free my lungs but a whimper slips through it, my member pushing back and forth inside the toy for the enticing and soft sensations with its tightness to make it even easier for me to imagine myself fucking y/n. "Oh dammit—" I pant even harder and go faster with my hand, thrusting my hips to push my cock back and forth inside the fleshlight and make it go in and out at a swifter speed but get my wrist to become sore. "F—Fuck yeah...." a moan escapes me but I feel myself arching my back as the pleasure is intensely taking over me. I cannot open my eyes anymore, my parted lips never closing as I'm hyperventilating and hurting my wrist and arm with the speed of my actions

The orgasm weakening me, my trembling hand stops to keep my cock deep inside the toy and in a short second, my breathing hitches, and I moan while cumming inside the item but feeling my body twitching forth. All the rush of blood consume my energy, engendering a groan to end into a whine but catch me off guard when I had to keep it low, thank god the music in my room covers everything so I let myself breathe out and pant loudly while the cum is still leaking down my cock and making it twitch at each little amount of liquid being released.

I swallow my saliva to moisten my throat as everything went faster than I thought and I open my eyes, to gaze down at the mess I made with the liquid spilling on my lower abdomen but I get the item away to use my fingers on the tip, the thick liquid making everything way better for the arousal. At the feeling of my legs jerking because of my muscles, I don't stop using the fleshlight filled with my cum but insert my cock back inside, the wet and creamy sounds filling the room, I tease myself and jerk the soft part on the swollen tip to make me whine silently and overstimulate myself now that I'm too sensitive.

I don't stop but throw my head back in my pillow as the heavy and hard frictions are driving me insane and leaving me breathless. I keep y/n on my mind but lose my senses while abusing this oversensitive spot. I whimper in a murmur while continuing but to not hurt myself, I use my other hand on the base while pumping my length and not only the head anymore with the fleshlight, feeling the thick liquid hastening the movement of it, a nervous chortle runs out of me. This feels so damn good that I want to keep going but I feel like I'm going to fall asleep.

I slow it down as the feebleness is now overwhelming me after the rush of excitement and heat, my shaking hand lets go of the toy but my cum leaks out of it to end on my skin. I drop it next to me and take a break, my eyes landing on the screen to fall upon another video that played all by itself. This girl is stirring my mind up way too much. 

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— Next day —

Sunday, October 24, 2019.

8 pm.

'YOUR P.O.V'

"Hey," Jisung enters my bedroom, visiting me as planned. I greet him and close the door once he's inside. "How are you?" I turn around but get to my bed for him to join me on it. "I'm cold as hell but I'm fine," he giggles while sitting down and leaning back on the wall. "What about you?"

"I am too...just...there are some things that keep on bugging me..." I cover a part of my body with the blanket but don't look at him. "Why? What's wrong?"

"It's about Jungkook..." I nervously tell him, always feeling a bit anxious about this topic since he knows what I'm going to say. "He...I feel like he's just playing with me or...being close but not even realizing how I feel about his touch..."

He sighs but glances away, his hands in the pocket of his jeans jacket. "I was best friend with him but now that I'm being close to you and seeing how he acts...I keep on hating him and his behavior towards girls. I think he just likes to get the girls close to him, earn some satisfaction by seeing how easy it is for him to make them fall in love with him but them not give a fuck. I've been friends with him for a long time already, he dated plenty of girls and once he's single, he keeps on flirting. Just watch how he acts with Dahee, this girl is a real bitch and yet he constantly forgave her for the horrible things she's done."

"Was she his girlfriend...?" I ask with an ache in my chest. "Honestly...I don't even know. He changed so much since Seyoung left him that I can barely recognize him anymore. He...I don't even know..." he exhales sharply and bends his head back against the wall. "I don't want to make him a bad person but...lately...he's not the same anymore. Maybe he already had sex with her...maybe not...I don't even know but he disappoints me."

I remain silent, hardly swallowing the bitterness of the pain he just caused. There was already a wound in my heart but now he just deepened it. He turns his head back in my direction to lays his eyes into mine. "I know you're in love with him but...I'm scared you could get hurt. He said he doesn't want to date anymore at the moment, he even rejected Dahee so...yeah...I know it's hard but you should try to slightly erase those deep feelings."

"Easier to say than to do..." I lower my gaze. "Why don't you tell him you hate it when he touches you?" he asks, having no idea what is going through my head. "Because...even though it's hurt, I want him to do it. I love when he hugs me, touches me, and all...I'm scared to say it and then not get this type of thing from him anymore...that would hurt even more."

"But he can sometimes go further with a girl he's close to," he answers with nothing that could help me. "What does that mean?"

"That means...if he sees you liking it and feeling comfortable when he does those little things. He will start to touch you more, kiss you on your neck and then act with you as if you were his girlfriend but without the feelings you might have," he explains as he must know him like the back of his hand. "That's always how it happens with him. That's why all the girls he hangs out with want more than a friendship."

"Should I give up...?" I hopelessly pose the risky question. Either it's going to still give me some hope, either it's going to do the opposite. "Well...you can try. We never know. He easily falls in love depending on the girl so...since he already called you cute and adorable and spends some time with you, this isn't impossible."

"Not impossible but hardly possible," I bring my arms to my stomach, letting them rest on the lower part of it while crying from the inside. "I talked with him yesterday but kinda made it obvious I was upset about the fact I thought he ignored me...then he hasn't stopped texting me then playing with me during the day. Then this morning I told him a guy annoyed me on the bus to my stepbrother's house and he got mad about it, he said I should have called him..."

"He's often very protective with his 'girls'...that's not even a surprise..." he removes his hands from his pockets to touch his face and rub his eyes. "Why don't you want to talk to him anymore though...? What's the exact reason?"

He shrugs and crosses his arms. "I hate how he acts. I asked him to stop being so close to you but he wouldn't listen so now I'm done."

"Okay, but what he does to me...like the kisses and hugs...it's just to have fun? He doesn't even feel anything?" I try to know more about his behavior that really played with my feelings and made me believe in something that isn't even true. "Of course he does feel some things. He always told me that he loves being close to a girl physically if he's attached to her and feel good or comfortable with her but while you're surely going to take it as a romantic act, he's going to do it in a friendly manner to make you both feel good," he slightly relieves me in some ways.

"The only thing that will make you see if he has feelings for you and do this as more than a simple friend, is to pay attention to the way he reacts when you hug or touch him. Just like he does it with Dahee, she's just a friend for him and once she hugs him or kisses him, he barely returns it. That's how you'll see what he feels. If he touches you even more once you hug him or if he asks for more kisses and smiles or kisses you back, he's definitely into you," he offers me more information about him that is kind of necessary. "And...he never does it for sexual satisfaction...?"

"He does," he nods. "That's why it's hard to know how he feels but most of the time, if he starts to be more sexual with a girl that means he wants to be more than friends but sometimes he just won't admit it 'cause he knows he easily falls in love and he hates it. It's too difficult to describe him...especially now that his ex left him."

"Well...I'm going to go through hell then..." I glance away but hear the sound of my phone echoing through the room. I make fast to grab it and check who the text comes from.

< hey, I wanna play with you bbgirl🙆‍♂️💕 ]

[ I can't now >

< why?😭 ]

[ I'm busy... >

< have I said something wrong...? Are you mad...? ]

[ No, I'm just with Jisung >

< oh yeah. I forgot about that😑 ]

I put my phone down on the bed but focus on Jisung.

— Next day —

Monday, October 25, 2019.

7:40 am.

'JUNGKOOK'S P.O.V'

I step in the schoolyard but head towards the library in a rush after missing my subway. First lesson with y/n and I'm already late. Dammit.

I hurry to enter the building while stuffing my earphones in my bag and make my way to the library. I expect her to glare at me, to punch me or be mad but maybe the lollipop I have with me will maybe make her forget this, I know how this baby thinks.

As soon as I reach the room out my eyes land on the girl waiting for me at the doors. She must have been waiting for long minutes since she's sitting on the floor.

"Hey..." I bite onto my bottom lip but comb my hair back while panting. As awaited, she looks daggers at me but rises from her spot, getting up on her feet and passing her hands over the back of her skirt to place it back properly. "I came here forty minutes ago, I woke up earlier to be here in advance and be able to work a bit more with you..."

"I—I'm sorry...I swear I put an alarm but I didn't hear it and the subway I had to take just passed in front of my damn face..." I tell her all the truth but feel bad about it. "That's too late today..." she steps aside to leave but I grab her arm. "Please y/n...I wanted to be on time I swear...I wanted to work with you..."

"Whatever..." she frees herself from my grip to walk away but I stand before her and put my arms around her. "I'm sorry for being a jerk...I'm going to make it up to you."

"I don't care...I won't come earlier anymore," she doesn't hug me back but sulks at me for this stupid thing. "Come on...I wanted to have this lesson with you..."

"There's only one way to make it up," she looks up at me as I'm pouting just for her to fall for my cute face no girl can resist. "Tell me and I'll do it," I place my hands on her cheeks.