•••

12:30 pm.

"Hey..." I look at her with my hands in the pockets of my leather jacket, not getting closer or hugging but only fixing my black cap. She doesn't say anything but steps closer to me to end with her arms under my jacket for them to be around me and her face against my chest. "I'm sorry..."

I exhale sharply but don't move or return the embrace. "Dahee..." I place my hand on her arm to delicately pull her away. "I'm here to talk, nothing else."

"You don't like me...right?" she gazes up at me, her question being hard to answer without hurting her. "Dahee...you know how I'm feeling lately and I told you I don't want to be in a relationship again at the moment—"

"But I'm not like her..." she sobs right before my eyes, "I won't ever cheat on you or hurt you...I swear to god Jungkook..." she stares into my eyes hopelessly but I break the eye contact and sigh. "I don't want to hurt you either Dahee...I like you and I like spending my time with you by my side but I just can't...I don't want to be in a relationship now..."

"If you didn't date Seyoung...would you have tried something with me...?" she wipes her tears away while breaking my heart with this gaze. I hate hurting people like that but I'm not going to force myself to say yes when I know this won't work on my side. "I don't know...maybe but I don't know how I would have felt...It's not against you, I promise. I just don't want to try something new. I'm not okay."

"Are you sure it's for that reason...? Isn't it because I'm not pretty enough...?" she starts to say dumb stuff when I explained to her the reason of my answer. "No...you know you're pretty. I told—"

"Is it because you're already in love...? You're dating y/n or another girl...?" she cuts me off only to ask me unnecessary questions. "No Dahee! I told you, I do not want to date anyone at this right moment. Stop thinking like that."

"I just like you and...you have no idea how much it hurts when I see you with another girl..." this scenario happens for the thousandth time. I already faced this, I already had to say no to a girl when I was dating the other bitch and thought I would end my life with her. "What if I wait for you...? Will you want me once you'll be ready...?"

"Don't wait for me...please..." I make her understand my answer in a kind manner, not being harsh or too straightforward. She doesn't look at me anymore but only moves forth once again to encircle my waist with her arms. "I'll wait...I don't care..."

I don't push her away to not make it harder for her, my arms returning the hug to comfort her after the answer she received and which must be as painful as a bullet through the heart. "Have I ruined our relationship because of this...?" she snivels in my chest as her tears aren't ending. "No, you haven't."

"Can we go back to normal...?" she raises her chin up to gaze into my eyes with her teary ones but out of habit, I wipe those tears away from her skin and nod. "Yes..."

She tightens her clasp around me but rests her head against my chest. "Do you want me to buy you a coffee?" I comb her hair back but change of topic as fast as I can, not standing this heartbreaking one. "Yeah..." she doesn't refuse but withdraws from my body to just hold onto my leather jacket as if she didn't want to let go of me. "Stop crying then, alright?" I remove my arm from her and brush my finger past her wet cheek. She gazes at me and acquiesces cutely to follow me.

•••

1:20 pm.

< ok ]

The cold answer of y/n makes me smile in front of my screen, sipping onto my milkshake while walking with Dahee towards her house.

[ I can see you sulking, drink your banana milk🍼 >

< I was annoying you so I don't want to text you again and bother ]

[ Come on my little girl. Don't make me come to your house and play with your hair >

"Could we see each other tomorrow?" Dahee drifts me out of my phone as I was smiling while texting y/n. "Tomorrow? I'm not sure, I often have to do the grocery with my mom to help her."

"Oh...alright..." she doesn't insist to my greatest pleasure so I take a look at my phone again. No answer from the mad girl so I lock my phone and put it in my pocket, to focus on Dahee and put my arm around her neck while walking. "I'll call you if I'm free."

"Yeah...Have you seen what some people said about you on Twitter though...?" she peeks up at me as this seems to be serious but I shake my head. "No. I never go there, I'm more interested in my games but why? What did they say about me?"

"It's Seyoung..." she mentions this bitch again. "She was talking with your other ex Mia on Snapchat but Mia published the conversation they had and it was about you. Seyoung was telling her that she only misses you because of how good you were in bed and how big your dick is and all that type of disgusting stuff...there were some messages into which she was describing what you would do to her during sex to make Mia jealous since she never did it with you. She even said that she was sometimes going to your house only to have sex...and also...that you were super kinky and would be turned on when she would call you daddy or that you were too addicted to sex..."

"Oh...good then..." I don't show any interest in this, sipping on my beverage and erasing that information from my brain right away. "They fought on Twitter because Mia wanted to show she's a bad person but your other ex who seems to hate Seyoung said in the comments that she's a bitch, but then when Mia asked if what she said about you is true, she answered with 'yes, it was always the best sex with him', like...they were not even ashamed of talking about it so freely."

"Wait. Are you talking about Minji or Yumi?" I ask to know which ex she's talking about but given the look she's giving me, this doesn't seem to be any of them. "I'm talking about Ava..."

"Oh...Ava...yeah..." I rub the back of my neck as the name only comes back to my mind now. I almost forgot about her. "That was before Yumi...so...some time ago..."

"You forgot about her, didn't you?" she gets me right when I was pretending to know but I gulp down some of my milkshake awkwardly. "Maybe...but my brain wants me to forget them. I'm not playing it the victim but there were the ones acting like bitches. Either they cheated on me or they just used me and then left me for stupid reasons."

"What kind of reasons?" she demands more details about things I wanted to not think about again in my life. "Like...I'm a beast in bed but too clingy in public, or I'm too kinky or too babyish. That kind of shit," I tell her the truth while swallowing my bitter saliva. "They were just there for my dick and nothing else. I remember that girl Yoojin, that one literally told me I needed to be a real man outside of the bedroom too cause this was a turn off when I would cling onto her."

"What did you answer her after this?" she asks without knowing what might come back to her. "Fuck you," I let out the words I pronounced at that moment. "I said it like that, 'Then fuck you and find the perfect bastard you want cause I won't change the way I am with girls only because of you'. Some days after I said that, I heard from some friends that when she left my house she cried and told everyone I was an asshole. Like...sure...I'm the one always pampering my girl but getting dumped and used but I'm an asshole."

"You never dumped any of your girlfriends?" she never ceases with her curiosity but since I already hurt her enough today, I don't show my annoyance about that topic but answer. "I did. Some of them were sometimes too handsy with other guys and I wasn't liking it or they would blow a fuse once I wasn't able to buy them something they wanted...all that type of toxic stuff I don't need in my life. I mean...I'm not a wallet you go to once you want something and neither a dick you use once you're horny."

"Yeah...I understand but how many girls have you dated already...? It sounds like you had thousands of girls..." she keeps her straw between her lips while staring at me talking endlessly but I stir in my drink. "Well...let me count..." I make a pause to let my brain work well, reminding me of the names and faces.

"I think...around...seven or eight...something like that...but I dated most of them when I was young so this was teenage or kid love you know," I barely recall all of them but give an approximate number. "There was a girl in elementary school though, my mom told me about her many times and always told me that she was my first love but I don't even remember her name or anything about her. I just know that my mom told me I was in love with her, talking about her, and asking to see her all the time then once I would be at school, I wouldn't leave her but hold her by the hand whenever we would be able to. That's cute when I think about it," I smile at my own story, remembering the number of times my mother mentioned that girl. "Has she already told you her name?"

"My mom?" I raise my eyebrows at her before chuckling. "She has a goldfish memory. Impossible for her to remember it and I couldn't even pronounce her name well since I was just a kid but the only thing she remembers is that I was calling her booboo and each time I would see a peach, I would point at it and pronounce that nickname. From what I can remember, she told me I was calling her like that because I told her that once I would be with that girl, my heart would make 'booboo'," I laugh at my own stupid self. "I couldn't even pronounce boom boom correctly "

She smiles but finally stops with her questions. "Well...anyways...we're here," she mentions the end of our walk, her house just on our left. I look up at it but then lay my eyes on her. "I guess you're going to study now?"

"I don't know yet—"

"Yes you do," I contradict her words. "Study for the tests of Monday, don't be like me," I smile but tuck my hand in my pocket while sipping my drink. "I want to be like you," she comes closer but gives me a hug, before standing on her tiptoes to press a kiss on my jawline and step back. "I hope we'll see each other tomorrow..."

"I'll call you, don't worry," I reassure her with words I might not be able to stick to. "Okay...see you," she smiles but once I answer her with the same words she heads to her house. That hurts me to know she's in love with me and that I'm not feeling the same way towards her, I'm just tired of relationships at the moment and I'm not ready to start everything again. So since I don't want to make her believe in some things that won't happen, this is better like that at least I don't lie or have remorse.

As she's now in her house, I grab my phone and get back on my way to my own home.

[ hey, you're ignoring me now? I swear I'm capable of coming to your house right now. I'm not kidding🙂 >

< I'm playing ]

[ You're playing?! What game? I want to play with you >

< COD so you better not get on my nerves because this game is enraging me ]

[ Aw. Cute. Your cheeks must be red with anger😍 >

< 😠 ]

[ are you free right now? >

< why? ]

[ I don't want to work but since it's Saturday we can see each other for a lesson >

< I can't today I'm sorry ]

[ Why...?😔 >

< My stepbrother is the one keeping an eye on me today...He doesn't want me to see anyone ]

[ I'm a good guy. You can tell him I'm just there to work, I'm not gonna try anything if that's what he's scared of >

< No...I'm serious Jungkook. I can't see anyone ]

[ Alright then...you're playing on the Ps4 rn? >

< Yes ]

[ I'm going home so I'm going to join you. Put your mic on >

< I can't put the mic on or else he'll hear me ]

[ Seriously?😒 your stepbro is annoying >

< he's not annoying he's a bitch ]

[ Oh😂 you're obviously not best friends I see >

Since she doesn't answer anymore I put my phone in my pocket and follow the path to my house that isn't far away.

•••

2 pm.

< Why do you absolutely wanna play with me?! ]

The mad girl sends me a text after receiving my tenth invitation to join me.

[ Why don't you wanna play with me?! >

< I'm in the middle of a match! I'm not going to leave it ]

[ ☹ >

At the sight of another text popping on my screen, I press down on it and check what this says since this doesn't come from y/n.

< Hey! Have you seen the new video on YouTube?! The girl is fucking hot and the views blew up in no time last night! ]

[ Send me the link >

In just a short second, he gives me the link that leads to this video of a dance cover in question so I don't wait before taking a look at it.

< It apparently is someone you know well😉 you'll be shocked once I'll tell you the name of that girl ]

His last text appearing on my screen, I read it but focus on the video, lying down on my bed while y/n is still in her match. I know that body very well, no matter the fact that the clothes are not usually the ones I see dressing it. This is tight, black, revealing the wonderful curves of a girl's body while her face is covered by a pretty white and red fox mask.

She is honestly hot as fuck and the way she moves her body is terribly enticing. I swear to god those bare thighs remind me of someone but I can't remember clearly who it is. Anyway, I need to ask who is apparently hiding behind that mask.

[ Who is that girl I'm supposed to know? >

< y/n💀 ]

[ You— >

[ What?!😂 stop joking that can't be y/n, she's a soft and shy squishy baby >

< I swear. I'm not joking it's y/n, I was shocked as well when I saw it but the more you look at it and the more it's obvious. Jisung went to her house and he saw her bedroom, he's the one who talked about it to me ]

[ I was like 'damn I know those thighs'😂 I know why now. I'm shocked tho, she looks totally different >

< Ikr I subscribed to her channel now, there's other videos and she's so good at this I might want to watch them everyday...at night...😏 ]

[ stop it pervert. Watch other videos but not hers >

< why? She's not yours ]

[ I'm her best friend now, I protect that little bean so hands off >

< fuck you🖕 you can't stop me anyway ]

[ asshole >

I huff but go back to the video to subscribe to her channel and leave a comment on that new video she just posted yesterday. Now I'm sure this is her, her arms, her hands, and those damn thighs. This is my little y/n.

I smile while watching it again but scroll down to the comments, to leave my own one.

_ sexy and cute. I love it, you're perfect💕

Once it's sent, I take a look at the others and what they said about her even though I might not like it to see other men fantasizing about her or worse, being nasty.

_ Hot baby❤ keep moving those hips please🥵 _

_ holy fuck girl that body is a blessing _

_ please answer your private messages😭 _

_ so cute and perfect, keep going! _

_ never disappointing I'm in love with you😍 _

I stop reading them, not standing it anymore and receiving a text from this girl in question.

< ya! I'm here when are you going to start the game?! ]

[ Calm down smollie! I was on my phone >

I drop it on my mattress but take hold of my controller to sit up and have sight of her in my group. I don't wait but start the game as she asked me to, or more ordered me to do.

< I'm there just because you want me to. I can just play with other friends if I want to ]

[ you would leave me for someone else?😨 >

< you left me for your sleep yesterday🙄 ]

[ oh come on🙄 you know I did it because of your dude who would lose his shit again if I was spending my whole night talking to you >

< sure. You would have wasted your time talking to me if he wasn't with me... ]

[ why wouldn't I? I like annoying you >

< the match is starting. ]

I smile at her answer but get ready to play. Since we're in the same team I can't beat her but I still can have a better score at the end, I cannot be lower than her in the ranking.

•••

8 pm.

My phone vibrating as I was watching the tv with my mom, I take it out of my pocket and check what the notification is.

_ littleangel17 just posted a new video _

I make fast to click on y/n's video with eager but lower the volume of my phone, for the sound to not be heard by my mom. I watch the first seconds of it without focusing on something else but get turned on right away. My little kitten is wearing the sexiest clothes ever, all black, a crop top with long sleeves, high-waisted and tight leather shorts, with a harness. Those bare thighs are going to play with my emotions, I swear to god.

"Mom...when are you going to bed?" I land my arm between my thighs, keeping my legs bent up but pausing the video.

"I don't know, I'll maybe go to bed a bit later today because I don't work tomorrow," she stretches her body but keeps her eyes on the tv. "You don't work tomorrow?!" my astonishment about this goes out. "Yep! I'm going to have a long weekend for once."

"Good then," I lick my lips but lay my eyes back on my phone screen. I really have some urges and I don't want to wait till she goes to bed.

"I'm going to bed mom, I'm tired," I lie to her with no shame but she nods and keeps watching her show as I stood up. "Goodnight, love you," she pronounces and I tell her the same before heading to the stairs. "And no need to pass by my room once you go to sleep," I make her know to save myself from any awkward moment that could happen but she agrees without asking for more. I walk into my room now that I reached it and lock the door behind me. I turn all the lights off and close the curtains to get on my bed, I pull the blanket down to my feet since it's already hot in here and I play the video again, to watch it entirely.