10 minutes later...

After having me walking by her side the whole time and passing by the Subway for me to buy a sandwich, she sits down on our bench with me and takes her food out of her bag she placed over her lap. I already started eating because of my horrible hunger so I'm keeping quiet to her biggest pleasure.

She complained about me touching her when we were in the shop but once we were at the Subway and that I was waiting for my sandwich, I sneakily ran my fingers through her hair again but she just giggled and punched me to act shy and blush then right after that, I pulled her in and took her in my arms but weirdly, she kept quiet and only smiled while enjoying it.

I stop myself from eating as soon as I see her pulling the peel of the banana down, she focuses into it like a child but slides the length in her mouth to bite on it as if she was timid. I can't take this. I put my food down but snatch that fruit away from her hand.

"Don't eat this like that..." I keep my sandwich on my lap but hold the banana to break a piece of it and head it to her mouth. "You know how guys are," I make her eat it and she does without any reluctance. "How you are, you mean?"

I chuckle but let her chew at her own pace. "If I was, I would have watched you eating it and thought about other stuff," I smirk but break another piece of the banana to feed her. "Ay, your bacteria," I pass the tip of my finger over her lips as she left some saliva on it but smile the way she does it. "I don't like to know your fingers are going inside my mouth."

"Why? I'm clean," I feed her again with a bigger piece of banana. Maybe she'd likes those fingers somewhere else. "You often touch your crotch," she points at it shamelessly, getting me to gape at her. "How dare you? I never touch myself in front of people-"

"Let's stop this conversation right now," she interrupts me as if this topic was making her feel uneasy but since she brought this up, I don't put it to an end. "What's the problem? You don't like to know I touch myself?"

"Don't talk about this! I don't want to know it!" she raises her voice to speak with her mouth full but I just laugh and carry on. "I just want to make it clear! You're not a man so you don't know why I put my hand there," my laughter resounds while she's pretending not to hear me. "I don't need to be a man to know what you do in your pants..."

"If I do it that's only to fix what's inside, okay little girl?" I answer straightforwardly in order to make her know about it. "Can you leave me alone and not ruin my pure ears?" she looks daggers at me but I cover her mouth with my whole hand. "Keep quiet and don't raise your voice at me."

She pulls my arm down but doesn't say anything more.

•••

4 pm.

I grab y/n's arm as soon as she steps out but keep Jisung in sight. "Wait for me at the gate, I need to talk to Jisung. Alright?" I warn her about it as quickly as I can. "But...we're going to miss the subway..."

"We'll take the next one and I promise I'll talk to your parents if I have to, okay?" I ask for her word but she nods to my greatest relief so I let go of her. "See you and wait for me," I give a squeeze to her cheek and watch her walking away as told. However, I stand on my spot to lay my eyes on her Jisung and wait for him to leave the classroom.

As soon as he puts his bag on his shoulder to head towards the hallway into which I am, I step forth and stand right before him to not let him go any further. "Can we have a talk? Please."

"A talk about what?" he answers coldly, staring into my eyes. "About y/n," I don't beat around the bush. He sighs but looks on the right as if he was checking whether y/n is here or not. "Are we gonna talk here?"

I shake my head but make him follow me with some relief, I'm glad he hasn't refused but I was expecting it since I know him. Once there's a problem, he talks and doesn't avoid it.

Now that we're down the stairs, I head outside and open the door for the two of us in order to join y/n who waited for me as told. I smile at her once I catch sight of her figure but as soon as I reach her out, I touch her arm and make us leave the school with Jisung remaining silent.

"Can you stay here while I'm talking to him?" I ask her in a quiet voice, keeping her just right in front of a shop to make sure no one will try to bother her. She agrees to this with a smile so I walk a bit away with Jisung, to not go too far and still have my eyes on her.

"Jisung...I want you to tell me why I got to know from y/n that you talk about me behind my back," I set my eyes into his but he only maintains this contact, to look daggers at me. "Do you enjoy what you're doing?"

"What I'm doing?" I frown but hate those types of answers that are only meant to leave someone confused. "Yeah. You know exactly what I'm talking about. You are fucking acting closer to her since Dahee stopped talking to you as if you were using her to-"

"I stop you right there already," I cut him off and raise my hand up to his torso instinctively to put an end to his sentence. "I was acting that way with her before the little fight so stop inventing such bullshit for no reason. I know you're behaving like that only because you're jealous but that girl is just a friend to me, alright? You know how I am with girls, I'm not different with her."

"But you should be," he sternly replies. "You should fucking stop being so close and touchy with her. You know I like her, you know I want to date her and you keep on acting that way with her without giving a shit about it! When I said that you like showing how easy it is for you to get all the girls you want, I meant it and I still mean it!"

"I can't believe my best friend would one day dare to say such things about me..." I express my disgust without keeping it to myself but don't even see him changing of thought. "How can you talk like that when you know I'm not that type of person? You were saying that I was disappointing you because of the fight but you're not any better given the shit you're saying about me."

"You were acting like a jerk because you were hurt but now it's my turn and it's all your fault, only because you don't give a damn about what the girl you're touching can feel," he cuts this conversation short and already flees away. What the hell does he mean by that?

Y/n...could she have said some things to him?

I bite onto my bottom lip but lay my eyes on y/n waiting on the same spot since I asked her to. Unfortunately for me, Jisung passes right by her but stops at her level. I make fast to join them as they're talking but as expected, they end their chatting once I'm close.

"She's going home with me," Jisung glances at me with disregard and grabs y/n's hand to take her with him. "We're going to take the subway all together, no need to separate us," I follow them since we have to take the same way. "No. She's going to my house."

I grab his arm but pull on it to stand right before them. "You were talking about y/n just a minute ago, weren't you?" I bring this up in front of her while she's clearly not understanding anything. "Just knock it off-"

"Did you tell him something about me y/n?" I put my eyes on her to only focus on her and what she says. "Do I make you uncomfortable when I touch you?"

"No..." she shakes her head with her lips slightly pursed. "Why are you asking me that?" her facial expression tells me she's lying and pretending not to know. There's something they're keeping to themselves and this is pissing me off. "Ya...are you enjoying this game? Are you both gonna keep on lying to me as if I was just a dumb asshole?"

"We're not lying to you Jungkook..." her soft and fainthearted voice calms me down instantly as I'm gazing at her but feeling different. Now each time I see her looking at me like that, I feel guilty and get rid of my wrath. I give up on this and just heave a sigh to leave them like Jisung wants me to.

If he wants me to just be a simple friend to her then I'll be, then we'll see if she will be as happy as she is right now.

•••

5 pm.

I lie down on my bed after taking a shower, wearing only a pair of grey sweatpants. I keep my feet on the ground but grab hold of my phone to check if I received some texts or notifications.

A text from y/n...?

< hey...I'm sorry about earlier...I didn't want you to be mad... ]

She sent me this thirty minutes ago while I was busy and not on my phone, as if she hurried to tell me something and make sure I wouldn't stay angry with her for whatever reason.

[ it's fine. I'm not mad at you >

< Sure? Jisung didn't mean what he said... ]

[ Yes he did but whatever. He doesn't even want to listen to me but only be jealous so I don't want to try anymore >

< Jealous? Why would he be jealous? ]

[ forget it. Did you tell me the truth when you said I don't make you feel uncomfortable when I touch you? Cause if you just lied to not hurt me, I'd rather know the truth >

< I told you the truth. You don't make me feel uncomfortable, I know that I always act like I want you to stop but I'm just shy... ]

[ Why are you always so shy with me only? I saw Jisung holding your hand earlier and you were not blushing at all, even when you talk to him and look into his eyes you don't even seem to be a bit nervous at all. Has he said something to you that makes you feel that way around me? >

< He doesn't say anything about you Jungkook. You just make me nervous...I'm not even lying or anything, it's just your eyes and all... ]

[ Sure. "My eyes and all..." are you sure about that? >

[ Anyways...you're cute and you should stop looking at me with your baby eyes full of sadness that break my heart >

< yea I'm sure and what? my baby eyes? When did I do this? ]

[ When I got a bit worked up, you said you didn't lie and gave me that baby gaze🥺 exactly like that emoji but let's not talk about it or my heart's gonna burst. Aren't you with your "man" rn? >

< Yes I am but I want to talk to you as well ]

[ I let you talk to him or else he's going to come at me again. I need to do my homework anyway >

< alright... ]

Even though I would like to spend more time talking to her, I drop my phone on my mattress and rub my hands onto my face. I'm exhausted, I think I need a rest and I'll then work, or maybe do it tomorrow.

- Next day -

Saturday, October 23, 2019.

12 pm.

"Jungkookie!" my mom knocking on the door wakes me up when I was peacefully sleeping like a baby. "Myeah?!" I squint my eyes while trying to open them, rolling on my back but covering my face with my arms. "Are you gonna wake up and eat something or spend the rest of your day in your bed?"

"Ehh...yeah..." I give an ambiguous answer, half asleep. "I don't know..." I slide my arms down but only to pull my blanket up my head. "The lunch is cooked so come downstairs if you want to eat," she tells me before walking away.

I plaintive moan escapes from my dry throat but I take a break, I need to slowly come back to consciousness in order to not shock my poor body. I slept way more than I was supposed to but that feels good. Since I can't even wake up without checking my phone, I grab it blindly and take a look at it.

Several texts from different people, however, the only ones grasping my attention are from y/n.

< are you still working or I'm annoying...? ]

< I guess I am ]

Aw. That breaks my heart, she sent me those yesterday while I was sleeping and she even waited one hour between them. I yawn a bit wildly but move my blanket down to my chest to answer this poor baby.

[ Hey, I was sleeping I'm so sorry. You're not annoying me you know it little baby😣 >

She doesn't answer yet, certainly sleeping at this hour. I check my other texts but read the ones I received from one of my ex's friends who still wants to talk to me and who I often ignore.

< Hey, how are you Jungkook? I'm sorry if I'm bothering you, I just wanted to know how everything's going for you ]

[ Hey, I'm good as always >

< Really? I'm glad to hear it. I've been worrying about you and...Seyoung does as well. I heard from Dahee that you've been acting different since the break up ]

[ are you just here to talk about that bitch? If yes then just ignore me cause I dont wanna know anything about her >

< No, please don't misunderstand. I just wanted to talk to you and know how you're doing. I haven't been able to be in contact with you since I went to college so I just wanted some news from you. I'm sorry...Dahee's been sending me texts and she's just feeling bad lately and I thought I would ask you what is going on ]

[ Dahee keeps badmouthing my friend so idgaf if she's not alright. She calls her a bitch and hoe without even knowing her so she should stop this >

< She likes you. That's why she acts that way, she can't stand to hear you mentioning that girl all the time and she's just jealous because she likes you! ]

[ She likes me? Sure. She's just trying to get me and hurt me like that other bitch did >

< What the fuck is wrong with you Jungkook? Dahee is sincere and she's freaking head over heels in love with you! She's not pretending or trying to hurt you! ]

I sigh but leave this conversation I don't want to continue, I answer my other friends' texts one by one. As expected Dahee sends me a message to try reaching me. I swear to god those girls communicate in a second.

< Jungkook...I'm so sorry for the things that I said about y/n. I didn't mean them and I was just jealous of the attention you were giving to her but not me. I like you sincerely Jungkook...I'm not lying... ]

< Are you free...? I want to see you... ]

[ yeah. Where do you want to meet? >

< the café near your house, let's meet in front of it ]

[ alright I'm there in 20min >

I put my phone down on the bed but rub my eyes. I really don't want to see anyone today and wasn't planning to do it but I have to, I feel like she's going to ruin my mood.

I straighten up but grunt, throwing my blanket away from my body and sitting on the bed. I pass my hands through my messy hair while yawning again, I might fall asleep at an early hour once more tonight.