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5 pm.

"Hm..." a humming sound coming from me takes me by surprise but wakes me up. The quietness now coming back after my dream, I open my eyes to the full but quickly find myself facing y/n's back while I'm holding her tight. I don't move yet, enjoying the moment with her after staying apart from each other. I take a look at my watch to see what time it is but then snuggle up against her even more right afterwards, to keep my face in her back and not perceive the light of outside but only remain in this warm little space.

This is the best feeling ever.

When I thought I would fall asleep again, she turns around and causes my face to be in her breasts but I don't move away, I just tighten my clasp around her and let her put her arms around my neck.

"Baby..." I mumble in her chest. "Are you hungry?" I ask since it's already five pm. "Hmm...a little bit but I'm okay..." she answers with her tired voice. I smile but feel my stomach growling. "I'm hungry but I'm too lazy to move..."

"Do you want me to do something?" she sets me in some confusion, wondering what she's talking about exactly. I gaze up at her but make our eyes meet. "Do something?"

"Yeah...I'm not really good at it but...I can do it for you..." she continues to stir my mind up so I heave myself up the sheets to have my face in front of hers. I lick my lips and stare into her eyes. "What are you...talking about?"

"Cooking for you..." she answers but ruins my fantasies. "Oh...alright..." I place my hand on her hip but put my head back on the mattress. "No need to cook, do you want to go out to eat something?"

"Where?" she doesn't refuse so I suggest a place. "I don't know...a restaurant...or something like that..." I look at her to check her reaction but she shows more discontentment than something else. "Well...I'm not really the type of girl who likes to go to restaurants..."

"Okay, it's alright. I guess you don't like going out to eat even if it's at a Subway or Burger King?" I still try to know what she likes more but this time she seems more for it. "We can go there if you want but I'm more into buying food and eating together at your house..."

"I like this idea a lot," I nod but smile at this. "It's way better than being out with people around us," I totally agree with her opinion but still wonder about something. "What would you like to eat though? Do you want to order something or go to the supermarket?"

"I don't know...we can order. What do you prefer?" she asks for my own opinion but I shrug. "I want you to decide."

"Then order...like this, we can stay here," she finally chooses what she wants so I smile but move back, to grab my phone and sit up. "Do you want me to put some music on while checking what we could eat?" I peek at her and comb my messy hair back but she nods and comes closer.

Now I have to find the song she would like to listen to. I look through my playlist and pick one. "Here, is this-"

"No," she shakes her head without letting me finish my sentence. "I dislike that singer...I really don't like it..."

"Really?!" I gasp out of shock but stop the music. "How can you hate her?! My baby can't do this to me..."

"Hey...that's just my opinion and taste..." she acts a bit hurt by my reaction but I giggle. "I'm not judging you for liking that...so don't judge me for not liking..."

"I'm not judging you baby...but why don't you like it?" I ask to know more but she shrugs. "I just dislike her songs or the way she acts...and I don't like it...that's all...I have the right to not like it..." she glances away like a little baby that has been scolded. "You heard me talking about her some time ago maybe?"

"Maybe..." she raises her eyebrows but makes it obvious she must not have liked the way I talked about her. "Aw come here," I laugh but put my arm around her to pull her in and press a kiss on her temple while she's sulking. "We were not a couple yet but now you're my baby girl and no one is better than you."

"I don't like sweet talk," she doesn't stop mumbling through her breath full of bitterness but I take her in my arms, her little smile coming within sight. "Are you being jealous?"

"Why would I?" she raises her eyebrows. "I don't care..." she pretends again. "Play Falling In Love instead. I love that one..."

"Ah, finally we go along with this," I change the song since I'm noticing that something is bothering her more than it should. "This is one of my favorite songs."

"Yeah, I agree with this," she nods but smiles. "Alright then, let's listen to Cigarettes After Sex again," I pick this song and let it play, feeling like the lyrics are very special at this moment shared her. "You know I love you more, hm?" I make sure to remind her since I know what can happen in her head with her insecurities. She could start to think stupid things that will make it worse to love herself. "You better do..." she doesn't look at me but only keeps her eyes fixed on something else, hugging her legs and acting alright.

I giggle but lean towards her to peck her pouty lips. "I'll never leave you for someone else. Don't start to put silly things in your head for such a small thing like that. Alright? I'll always choose you over everyone."

"Stop it already..." she doesn't trust me as expected but I plant a kiss on her lips. "Don't believe me if you don't want to, I know I'm telling the truth. I know you personally and love you so I would never ask for someone else."

"I know, I'm not dumb..." she acts like she didn't already do it but still avoids my face. "Look into my eyes then," I lay my hand on the sheets and stay close to her body. She briefly peeks at me but tries to hide a little curve that appeared in the corner of her lips. "That's not what I asked for."

"You know I can't stare into your eyes...stop this..." her cheeks turn red now that I'm forcing her to make eye contact but she melts me to the ground. "Then I'll have to punish you..."

She shrugs to show she's not in the mood. "Hey baby...you're not going to ignore me because of this...are you?"

"No..." she shakes her head but doesn't tell me everything. "What's wrong? I know this is not an usual reaction so you're hiding something."

"I just hate myself and know I'll never be like the girl you'd like me to be...a perfect girl..." she spills it out to finally tell me. "So yeah. I'm stupid but I don't care. That makes me feel like I'm not enough. Not pretty enough, not good enough for you and-" my lips put an end to those horrible words. I place my hand in the back of her neck to make sure she doesn't pull away and keep the contact going for some long seconds.

Then I break the kiss to look into her eyes. "I never want to hear this again. Alright?" I assert myself while staring into her eyes. "There are other guys you like as well, random actors, singers that you stan a lot and more, am I right?"

She nods to me. "Do you like them more than me because?"

She shakes her head without ever breaking our eye contact. "Then do you think I would like a stupid singer, a random girl or bitch who flirts with me more than the girl I love? Seriously."

No words leave her mouth but she just turns her head in another direction. "Now you understand why I'm sick of my stupid self...who would want such a stupid girl who cannot love herself or have some confidence? That's a waste of time."

"Are you insane?" the pain drives me mad, the sound of those words hurting me more than she could ever imagine. "Yes, I am-"

"No, you're not," I cut her off. "No girl has ever cared about me as much as you do and did yet. And do you think I feel like the perfect guy? I hurt you, I'm an asshole who hurts everyone and acts childish once something doesn't work...no one is perfect..." I stare at her even though she's looking away as if she was trying to hold some tears back. "I've never felt so loved before, you make me feel so good that I don't ever believe just once that you would try to cheat on me. Maybe I'm naive but I don't fucking care, I trust you. After what I did to you, you still put your trust into me, you still stayed with me and forgave me even after I was an asshole."

"I just feel like that because that guy who left me like shit always told me he would never want to lose me, that I would always be his first priority and that I was the most important person to him..." some tears form in her eyes but break my heart. "I thought I really meant something to him and that for once in my life...I was worthy...but no...he just dumped me without giving a shit about it...and now I feel even more dumb for being the type of girl I always told myself not to be...I didn't want to fall for a manipulative guy...for a sweet talker...yet I did and now I just feel unattractive and worthless..."

"Alright..." I sigh but keep my eyes where they are as I'm fighting against my own self to not cry. "I understand you. I know what it feels like to believe that you're not good enough and that no one will ever love you for who you are, that you're just a poor shit that people like to use. I felt like that before I met you, then I started to get to know you, I started to hang out with you...to fall in love with you..." I let my emotions take over me and speak about my feelings for the first time. "Each time I'm with you, I feel good, I forget all my worries and I just don't ever want to know what time it is because I don't care, I just want to be with you and spend my time by your side...No matter what you say, you're the prettiest girl to me...inside out...because you're able to just put happiness where I can't fucking find it..."

"I'm sorry..." she apologizes again. "Sorry? Why? You feel sorry for loving me? For making me feel good and loved more than anyone ever did?"

She shakes her head but cries because of me and the tone of voice I'm using to say my words. "The only thing you should feel sorry for is that you made me addicted to you. Why do you make me feel like that? Relaxed and happy. Why do you keep on making it hard for me to be away from you? I feel so lost when you're away...when you don't text me...talk to me..." I avert my eyes from her as the distress is already taking over me. "I had another dream that made me feel weird yesterday...you weren't there when I woke up and...I couldn't find a way to calm myself...I was hurt and scared because I couldn't hold you and be reassured...."

"I couldn't text or call you because my stepbrother threatened me to hurt you if I was..." she reveals what she didn't say to Mino but this makes me even more mad. I'm going to kill this son of a bitch. "Where does this fucker live? I'm going to beat the shit out of him."

"No...don't do anything...please..." she shakes her head and refuses to tell me. "Why? I can't even have you with me all the time which means you're going to see him again, he's going to get drunk again, hurt you or do disgusting things he doesn't have the right to do to you and then he's still going to control you. I can't let this happen."

She gazes at me without replying. A simple little argument just made us come to this serious conversation. I move towards her as the silence just cut us off and I wipe her tears away, to press my lips on hers. "I love you. You can be as annoying as you want, you can complain as much as you want, I'll never stop loving you."

"Me too..." she speaks in her small voice but looks up into my eyes. "Well..." I stand up but head to my desk after an idea just ran through my head. I open a drawer and get a black Sharpie out of it to go back to my bed but get on my knees to face the wall behind the headboard. I open the marker and draw something on the light grey wall.

She doesn't say anything but lets me do what I want with only some random music playing. I do it very carefully to not make any mistake in the drawing but leave it for a second, I get out of the bed and step to my desk to grab a pink Sharpie and then go back to my drawing. I fill in the area I let with no color.

In two short minutes, I finish what I started and get lower on my knees to peek at y/n. "There, that's a permanent marker so my mom is going to kill me but I don't care," I move back to her in the center of the bed and take a better look at the drawing of y/n. This is a bit implicit but we both know who this little figure with a pink coat hides. However, there's something missing.

I go back to it and add a tall figure of man, to make him lean over her and hold her. Since I want to put a special detail, I walk to my desk again and this time get a red one. I finally end this drawing with a little heart and write the date to always remember it.

"Here..." I land next to y/n but kinda feel proud of what I did. "What do you think?" I set my eyes on her to know her opinion but she smiles. "That's cute, I love it."

"Well...I'm gonna act like a kid but...since you don't seem to believe I would do anything for you..." I pull the sleeve of my sweater up to focus on the back of my hand. I grab the black marker and use it on my skin. I write y/n on it and draw a heart with the red pen. That's childish but I don't care.

"Is it really permanent?" she gazes at me with some surprise but I nod. "Yes, and waterproof but it also is something that doesn't fade."

"People are going to see it..." she believes I'm going to regret it but I shrug and beam. "I hope they are."

"I want to do the same but...if my stepbrother sees your name on my skin...he's going to go berserk..." she expresses less joy but I bend over to lock our lips. "You stay with me today and tonight. I don't want you to be with this piece of shit anymore."

"But I'm scared to face your mother after...after what you told me about Sangook..." she puts this topic forth when I stopped thinking about it but I make it fast to relieve her about this. "My mom will never hate you. She was even worried about you when I told her what happened and all..."

"Really?" she peeks up at me with what seems to be doubt but I affirm my statement. "Yes. She was hurt but also worried...she was disappointed by what I did to you because she likes you so...since I was not feeling good...this was a bit hard for her to handle me and know what to do."

"I want to stay with you but...I can't lie to him...he doesn't want me to sleep over at someone else's house and even if I tell him I'm going to be at our parents' house, he's going to check if I'm telling the truth," she worries about this but I know what to do. "Hey...I'm gonna face that guy. Alright?"

"No Jungkook, please," she comes closer to me but now gets serious. She must not know I'm not scared of him. "He already fought with some guys...he doesn't like you and could hurt you severely so please...avoid this...I know how you are and you're going to confront him and get mad if he starts to say some things you don't like, so stay here-"

"No baby," I interrupt her but for a good reason. "This guy has been using you and being a disgusting pervert so I'm going to face him, you'll stay here if you don't want to see anything bad happen but-"

"No," she dares to not let me finish my sentence and gets out of the bed. She seems exceedingly nervous about it. "I'm scared you could get hurt by him Jungkook...he can be violent when a guy is too close to me...he never hurt me so don't do anything...I'm okay..."

"He can be violent with me if he wants, I do enough sports to calm him down and make him shut it," I make it evident I'm not afraid of this guy that is way thinner than me. "No...Jungkook...you have no idea..."

"Baby," I look up at her. "I'm going to do everything to not get into a fight. Alright? But if he starts to piss me off, I'll make him understand he better not try my patience or pick up a fight because this will end badly with me."

"I'll tell your mom and she will stop you," she believes in her idea but I chuckle and grab my phone. "No, she won't," I think little of this. "Do you even imagine how worried she will be if my stepbrother hurt you? What if you have to go to the hospital? Will you be happy of what you did?"

"You really distrust me that much?" I glance up at her with disappointment. "No but he's strong too! Why don't you want to understand I'm scared for you?!" she tears up for her distress to express itself right before my eyes but this suddenly changes my way of thinking. "I know him more than you do and I know he won't stop hitting you because he already hates you...don't do this Jungkook...please...I'm terr-"

I hurry towards her but place my hands on either side of her face to kiss her lips. I calm her down and make the kiss as soft as possible to erase the tension. "Stop being worried like this...you're gonna give me your stress," I stare into her eyes but soothe her as much as I can. I brush the tears away from her face with my thumbs and join our lips for a sweet peck, before putting my arms around her neck.

"Let's stop talking about this and order our food," I decide to put an end to it since I want to enjoy my time and get back on the bed, throwing the markers on my desk to lie down and get on my phone to check what I could order on Burger King.

"What are you doing?" I lay my eyes on her as I noticed she wasn't moving but she joins me and sits down. I can only see her back now. I leave her alone a little bit but pick what I would like to eat. "Do you want me to order something for you?"

"Yes..." she answers to make it easy so I order a few things that are the best and then make fast to order. Once it's done, I get in my playlist and change the song. I press on 'Cigarettes after sex - Apocalypse' since I know she likes this one too.

I drop my phone now that it's playing and close my eyes. My arms cover my face and I take a break to think about what I'll do. If I meet her stepbrother and get into a fight, she's probably going to be worried and scared but could even have a panic attack because of me. I don't want this to happen but at the same time, I want to make this piece of shit regret what he did to her.

The feeling of her body leaning close to mine makes me remove my arms from my eyes, I gaze down at her as she's lying down on my body but hiding her face in the crook of my neck. "I don't want you to get hurt because of me..."

I don't say a word but hug her back. I sigh while I can hear her sobbing but plant a kiss on her head, to answer her. "I won't do it...okay?" I tell half of the truth. I will not go to his house today but wait for her to be at her parents' house to visit him. I know where he lives since Mino told me. "Really?" she raises her head up to look into my eyes with her baby ones full of grief. "Yes baby, I won't do anything. We'll go shopping after eating and I'll buy you some clothes for you to stay here. Is that alright?"

She nods and pecks my lips, getting me to smile and hold her face. We both stay silent but scan each other's features as the music is still playing on repeat in the room. I lick my lips but stroke her cheek with my thumbs, memorizing each and every little trait that makes her face so pretty and cute, but also special to me.

"Do you know what I did that drawing?" I break the silence in a gentle voice but she shakes her head. "I did this because..." a smile turns the corners of my lips up but I tuck some of her hair behind her ears. "Because I want to always wake up and see you...I want to keep this and then one day when I'll be older, look at it and remember you were my little pink fluffy coat girl who was always blushing because of me..." my heart feels soft but I go on in my sentence. "And also...I wrote the date to always remember this day. The day I promised you I'll always show you how much you mean to me, how much I love you and will always do my best to protect and make you feel good."

She smiles like a delighted baby but hugs me even more fondly, to put her face in my chest but cause a beam to form on my face. I hold her tight but straighten up with her in my arms, groaning while moving and standing on my feet to carry her. She encircles my body with her legs and arms to cling onto me and I place my arms right under her butt to walk up to the door.

I don't forget to take my phone in the way but step out of the room and get downstairs. While I'm peacefully walking down the stairs, a kiss on the neck provokes a rush of blood to my head, the pleasure of this touch affecting me momentarily. I smile but reach the living room. "Do that again."

She does as told and presses her soft lips on one of my sweet spots. I put my phone in the pocket of my light brown trouser but sit down on the sofa to have her on my lap. "Keep going baby..." I ask for more since I know this is going to release my stress and push on her lower back to press her upper body onto mine. "I'm bad at kissing a neck..." she tells me bullshit but I don't believe in this. "Great, that's a perfect time to practice then."

She smiles but shows her shy self when I know she's good at this. "This spot is very sensitive so little bites and touches of your tongue on there could drive me insane."

"But if you go insane...this isn't a good thing..." she acts a bit reluctant when she knows what can happen once I go crazy. I grin but approach my face from hers to whisper against her lips. "I'm gonna do some stuff you might like I lot to your body."

She giggles but looks at me in the most innocent manner which is why I love teasing her sexually. No matter how sexual this is, she will always look cute. "And what stuff will you do to my body?"

I bite my lips while staring at hers but turn onto the sofa to lay my legs on it and have my back against the other angle of it. "You like when I talk dirty, don't you?"

"Maybe..." this little girl blushes while asking for some nasty stuff but I place my elbow on the back of the sofa on my right, to rest my head on my fist while caressing her thigh. "Come closer, I'm gonna say it in your ear."

She doesn't think twice before leaning over to have her face at the side of mine and let me approach my lips from her ear. I stare at her while getting amused but enjoy this with a smirk. "I'm gonna blindfold you in a room that only I know about in this house, then undress you... I murmur but see her the red of her cheek intensifying. "Tie you up to the bed with handcuffs or satin fabrics..." my fingers slide up her curves to get to her neck and rub them on the length of it. "Then...I'll enjoy the sight of your naked body waiting for mine to control it..." I press a kiss on her ear before whispering my last words. "And I'll let you there to punish you," I smirk mischievously but leave her frustrated.

She complains with a sigh but hits my abs, getting me to grab her wrist and grip it. "Do not punch me, bad girl."

I swear to god I missed this.