•••

'JUNGKOOK'S P.O.V'

6:10 pm.

The dinner now cooked, I sit down on my chair just right next to Mino but away from my baby, after staying in the bedroom all alone. I don't know why but the teacher separated the girls from us to be at different tables. As if this was necessary...

The only thing I'm happy about is that I can see y/n, she's in my sight so we can see each other. Anyway, I have to bite the bullet and deal with it until the end of the meal. I grab my chopsticks and start to eat, checking on y/n since I can't hold back from doing it but noticing she's doing the same. I haven't come back to her after the argument with Jisung so I must have caused some anxiousness to her.

"Are you okay?" Mino pokes my arm with his elbow but I look at him. "Yeah..."

"That means no," he understands me. "You're too obvious," a sigh escapes him but he lays his eyes on me with worry. "What happened in the bedroom?" he asks out of concern but since I need to talk to him, I tell the truth. I say everything, sentences after sentences that were said to not miss a thing.

"...so after that..." I gulp down but keep going. "I just stayed in the room to be all alone...I needed to..." I explain the reason of my absence earlier and he acquiesces.

"Hm..." he chews on his food but shows he's thinking about what I said. "Oh and also...I talked to her about Sangook...and guess what..." I put this forth to drift away from the first topic that only hurts me. "Well...that scares the shit out of me but I'm gonna say...she's his daughter...?"

"She is..." I let the truth out with a knot in my stomach. "That was really shocking when she said his name...I couldn't believe it...and the things she said made it clear this wasn't another guy with the same name...I almost got the chills..."

"That's pretty messed up...but...thank god he's not blood-related to you or else that would have been horrible for the both of you...you know..." he shows a disgusted face while having some thoughts on his mind. "That would mean that your sister gave you head...and that..." he shivers on his spot like a dumbass. "Just ew..."

"You say 'ew' but some people are into that..." I raise my eyebrows but still don't agree with my sentence. "And those people are sick," he stuffs his mouth with some rice but I keep my eyes fixed on the table, thinking about some things I shouldn't have in my head. "Yeah but...what if...what if I got to know she was my sister earlier...? Do you think I would have erased all my feelings just like that...? That's messed up but when that happens you think differently..."

"In this case, I understand because you don't know it but..." he shrugs. "Otherwise that'd weird."

"The weirdest about it is the fact that just because we know they're a sister or brother, they don't feel the same way anymore," I point out with what seems wise to me. "Like, if you don't know she's your sister, you fall in love with her without any problem but that girl doesn't change just because she's your sister, you know?"

"Yeah I understand what you mean," he doesn't leave me in my opinion without getting what I say. "Whatever..." I sight and look down at my dish. "I...I feel weird since that argument with Jisung..."

"What do you mean?" he frowns and pushes his spoon in his rice. I scratch my eyebrow and keep my eyes down with shame. "I hate this feeling but...I hate to be hurting him...I feel guilty and bad as hell for what I did and...I don't know..."

"What the hell are you thinking about Jungkook?" his forearms touch the table and the lilt of his voice deepens. "Do you think I deserve y/n?" I gaze up into his eyes but feel my heart aching. "What if...I should not let myself date her...? I hurt Jisung...I did the worst thing ever to him and I'm just a shit..."

He stares at me but the look in his eyes doesn't seem good at all. "Are you saying what I think you are right now?" he reacts with rudeness while I have no idea what I'm doing. "I feel bad..."

"And just for that you're gonna hurt her?" he gets upset about what I implied. "I know that was a bitch move but are you gonna hurt that girl just because of Jisung? What the fuck do you want? She loves you."

"I know...!" I speak in a low but angry voice. "I wouldn't want to hurt her but how can I date her without thinking about Jisung and the fact he's hurt because of me?"

He sighs heavily but glances away as if he was really not appreciating this. "This little girl fucking loves you and the only thing you think of is what this guy is gonna feel? You knew this would happen that way. What do you want exactly? To just have a Seyoung or Mia again? Uh?"

"Stop saying bullshit like that..." I mumble but start to get irritated. "Then stop being so fucking dumb," he throws at my face but I just take it in. I'm the one to blame into this. "You're really getting on my nerves by saying that Jungkook," he drops his spoon on the table and stands up but I grab his arm. "No...please. I know you're mad but I'm just worried..."

He gazes down at me but clenches his jaw, to sit back on his chair but against his will. "I don't know that girl very much but I know what she had to go through so if you hurt her only because you now regret your choices, I'll hate you and remind you of what you did every fucking day."

I sigh and avert his eyes out of shame.

•••

10 pm.

[ Goodnight, I love you too❤ >

I send my last text to my mother and lock my phone to place it on the bed. This one onto which y/n is since she wanted to be with me and that I also needed to have her close.

I haven't stopped thinking about the issue since the argument, I feel full of anguish, sadness, and more unbearable emotions that consume me. Feeling y/n moving around, I lay my eyes on her and lie down on my back, making her put her head over my chest to have my arm around her neck. The room remains quiet and I pull the blanket over us, her forearm resting on my torso and allowing me to caress her skin with my fingers.

I hate myself for the way I'm feeling right now. I'm not ok, the guilt keeps on driving me insane and at the same time, I'm scared to cause something bad only because of my stubbornness.

"Are you mad at me...?" y/n whispers but gets me to shiver. "I'm not..." I shake my head but close my eyes, running my fingers through her hair to comb them back and plant a kiss on her forehead. She doesn't say anything more but remains still.

What if my behavior affects her in a wrong manner?

I sigh heavily but plant a soft kiss on her cheekbone and continue the caresses on her forearm.

- Two days later -

Sunday, November 8, 2019.

2 pm.

I enter the bus after y/n, now on our way back to the school where we all have to go before leaving for our houses. I follow her steps and once she sits down in the corner, I join her and get on my own seat. We haven't talked much either these past hours, she often hugged me yesterday but since this morning she seems more distant with me, we just don't say a lot of things to each other, only because of me.

I nibble on my lips anxiously but tuck my hands in my pockets, feeling my hands staying against the side of y/n's thigh while she's looking out of the window and avoiding my gaze. The way I'm acting must hurt her.

At the feeling of my phone vibrating, I take it out and check the text I received.

< did you fight with y/n? ]

I exhale sharply at the sight of Sarang's question, not standing this girl anymore. I still force myself to answer.

[ no why are you asking that? >

< Dohyun said you're in bad terms because of Jisung and I noticed you were kinda cold with each other today ]

[ we're not in bad terms >

< oh alright ]

< can I ask you something tho? ]

[ What? >

< is that true what people say about the way you asked her out? ]

[ what do people say? >

< I heard you talked about Jisung to y/n and badmouthed him then had sex with her...and like people keep saying you use her for sex ]

[ what the fuck is this shit?! Who said that in the first place?! >

< I don't know, I just heard it from Dohyun and now Dahee and Mia are talking about it on Twitter. Dohyun even posted a snap saying 'I wish i had as much pussy as Jungkook gets' then another one added to that 'he fucks first to keep them for himself' and they kept on talking like that ]

< a friend of Dohyun even said y/n is just a slut you pay to have sex with and he just replied with 'I'm sure this girl sucks a lot of dicks😅 look at her videos, she's a real cumslut bro' ]

At this last text, I stand up in a rush but throw my phone on my seat to look for Dohyun. As soon as his face comes within sight, I make a beeline for him and grab him by his throat to yank him up and throw my fist in his face as hard as I can, to make him end on the floor. The students all reacting and watching me while I'm landing on the injured guy, they yell but I don't stop myself from hitting him hard with wrath.

My hand cups his throat with force and I approach my face from his hued one covered with some blood. "Talk about y/n in a bad way again and I fucking beat you to death. Alright?"

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" he tries to push me away and kick me but I catch his arm and twist his hand, to crush it against the floor and make him whine. "Stop- Stop!"

"Jungkook!" a manly voice I know by heart yells my name and this person grabs me by the arm to wrench me up. "What the fuck are you doing?!" he speaks at my face after pushing me into the side of a seat but I force forward to kick Dohyun in the crotch then get thrown away by Mino. "Stop this!"

"He fucking bitched about y/n!" I shout into the bus as I can see all the students recording with their phones like dumbasses. "This motherfucker!" I glare at the guy getting up on his feet while bleeding. "Jeon Jungkook, what the heck did you just do?!" a teacher appears from behind while Mino is blocking the way to not let me go back to that little shit.

"Are you mad because I said the truth?!" he dares to shoot back with a smirk just to piss me off but I stomp forth to push Mino, however, get shoved back to my spot with y/n sitting down on the left. "Jungkook you sto-"

"The slut who sucks a lot of dicks is your sister who shoved mine down her throat so many times-" I get pushed back by Mino who's yelling at me but see Dohyun trying to rush towards us while swearing now that I mentioned this bitch. "Uh?! Do you wanna know how many times she asked for it?!" I stare at him while going off out of extreme wrath, hearing Mino telling me to stop but not giving a damn since I can't stand it once someone talks like that about y/n. "Shut the fuck up you bastard!"

"What?! You don't like the truth now?" I madden him and try to countervail my best friend's strength. "Don't you fucking dare talk about my sister that way you piece of shit!" he attempts to reach me out while another guy is trying to pull him back too, hating to be hearing her sister Minji being mentioned when this girl didn't deserve my love at all after what she did to me.

"That sister of yours that I-" a hard slap in my face makes me shut it. "Y/n is right next to you for fuck's sake!" he rasps in a low voice for her to not hear it but I stare at him, regretting what I just did out of anger. "I'm gonna fucking kill you Jungkook!"

"Everybody stops now!" the teacher shouts at us while I'm feeling bad about what just happened. "You all get back on your seat and stop recording!"

"You get on my seat and stay there until the end of the ride, got it?" Mino states but grabs me by my shirt to push me in the front but take my seat next to y/n.

'YOUR P.O.V'

The shock still overwhelming me, I peek at Mino who just joined me but see him looking daggers at Jungkook walking away with the teacher. Every student retrieved their seats for the calm to be back.

Not only he seems to be ignoring me lately but now he acts like that? What happened for him to be so different?

Mino next to me heaves a sigh but lays his eyes on me. "Don't worry about anything, hm?" he touches my hand to help me to not stress out and I lie with a nod. "He's just on edge since yesterday...he can never control his anger..."

I deviate my gaze and look out the window, feeling something painful in my chest after the words that Jungkook hurled out of his mouth. How can he say such things out loud without even thinking or caring about the fact that I was just next to him?

I don't even know what he feels for me anymore. He barely talked to me today, when I was holding his hand he was making me feel more bothering than anything else.

"Hey..." he nudges my arm in a kind manner to make me look at him. "Don't feel bad or hurt, that wasn't against you. He just blew a fuse because Dohyun said bad things about you."

I gaze down at my hands and toy with my fingers nervously. I felt hurt today emotionally but I believe this is my fault, I'm maybe too clingy with him and he needs space.

"Anyway," he speaks out and tries his best to make me feel better after this fight that I didn't expect to see. "What are you going to do once you're back home?"

"I don't know...my stepbrother is probably going to attack me with loads of questions so I would like to sleep but I don't think that will be possible," I tell him the truth but notice his eyes never leave me. "Hm. Your stepbro is a jerk?"

"Yeah...kinda..." I smile and wrap my fingers around my wrist. "Why? Is he the typical little shit that bugs his sister but protects her?"

"This is the perfect definition of him," I acquiesce but scoff internally at this guess he got right in once. "They're all like that," he chuckles and combs his hair back while I seem to be causing some awkwardness unwittingly. "Did you like the trip though? That wasn't too hard with the pains you had to deal with?"

"Oh...it was fine..." I shrug, resting my head on the back of my seat. "Just those things that ruined a big part of it but other than that, I liked it. What about you?"

"That was kinda fun but too short to my opinion," he answers. "I like the fact we don't work so if that could have lasted longer, I would have been even happier," a smile curves his lips up and he glances at me. "I saw you the other day with Mister Lee after school though...is it true that your stepbro asked him to drive you home?"

"How do you know that?" my heart skips a beat, this stuff that wasn't supposed to be known by anyone but me and that teacher. "Well...people like to stick their noses in others' business so...I heard it."

"It just...yeah...it happened just a few times..." I admit and don't t hide it. "Really?" he grins as if this was fun but I nod. "Doesn't he have like an expensive SUV car?"

"Yes...but he just asked him to do it because of what happened with a man the day before...he wanted to make sure I was safe and since no one could come pick me up on those days, he asked him..." I explain the reason why in order for him to not misunderstand and he shows some comprehension. "Ah alright."

I feel a bit bad for thinking like that but the ride is more fun with him by my side, I haven't been so talkative today because of Jungkook so that makes me feel less annoyed and useless.

"Anyway, we still have at least two hours of bus so...do you want to play?" he takes his phone out but I agree without knowing more, making him smile and look at his screen. "Do you know the game-" a text appearing on his phone cuts him off but way before he could swipe it away from his screen, the words 'I wanna suck your dick rn' get scanned by my poor eyes and I act cool to not laugh. "Damn, asshole," he makes this disappear but I chuckle without holding my voice back.

"Pretend you never saw that," he scoffs in a soft manner but this 'Jiminie🍑' sends something more to embarrass him for the second time.

'So hurry your pretty ass up bb😏🍆'

"Oh for fuck's sake," he huffs and almost throws the text away. "Wait a minute, I'm going to answer him or else he's not going to stop," he gets into the conversation so I retreat to not read his texts but leave him alone for short seconds.

I take this little moment to check my own ones even though I want to ignore Minkyu.

< where are you? Is it still going to take a lot of time?❤ ]

[ almost 2hours >

< alright, I'll be in front of the school. See you and text me as often as you can to reassure me. I love you❤ ]

[ ok, I love you too >

I lock my phone and place it on my seat to get it right at the side of my thigh, not liking to be messaged by him when I just want to be left alone.

"Here we go," Mino grasps my attention as he must have told the person to stop and I lean back towards him. "That's the game I was talking about," he turns his phone to have it in a horizontal way and let the images slowly take shape on his screen. "What's the title?"

"Call of duty on mobile phone," he reveals what I know and like a lot. "All those people are shits on that game, they're so bad this is ridiculous," a chortle escapes him while I agree but silently. "Let's share my phone to play one match at a time."

•••

4:20 pm.

"Ahh! Dammit!" Mino complains as I just beat him to bombsquad after trying different games together. I giggle but watch him not swallowing the bitterness of the defeat. "Alright...you're the best y/n," he finally says what he refused to pronounce some minutes earlier but I laugh and leave the game now that we're soon there.

"Gosh...I've been humiliated," he exits the game as well and locks his phone but glances at me. "You could have let me win you know...that's mean..." he pouts but makes me chuckle in a shy manner while shaking my head. "I play fairly."

He beams at my reply but checks outside. "We're soon going to arrive I see," he straightens his back to stretch his body, showing some fatigue after the long ride on a seat without moving. He managed to make me enjoy these two hours without too much worry on my mind, that was pretty great.

"I'm gonna check on the little moron, stay here," he stands up to leave me alone, so I listen and remain still. I wonder what he is going to tell him.

I take my phone out since Minkyu asked me to text him once I would arrive and do as told.

[ I'm there in five minutes >

< ok, I'm right in front of the Mcdonald, join me there❤ ]

I read his message but then gazes up at the sound of someone coming back.

"Hey, sorry...I fell asleep..." Jungkook sits next to me after staying away for what felt like an eternity. I don't say a word but acquiesce.

5 minutes later...

I stand up after Jungkook did and zip my coat up to close it and put my hood on while getting out of the bus. This is freezing cold, so I really cannot wait to be in my stepbrother's car. I head up to the compartment full of suitcases and make my way through the students to get mine as Jungkook is staying next to me and doing the same.

Once I have it, I use all my strength to pull it out then land the rollers on the ground. I drag myself away from this small crowd but see Mino coming up to me, with Jungkook following from very close.

"I'll get my revenge, see you tomorrow," he smiles at me, but I chuckle while he's walking away. I take my phone out to check what time it is once Jungkook stops before me but only hear, for long and endless minutes, how silent he is. 

"You go home with me...right?" he asks, breaking the quietness between us, but I shake my head and tuck my phone in a pocket of my coat. "No...I'm going home..."

"W-Why...?" he does not act like the usual Jungkook I am used to seeing but only speaks in a calm and low voice. "I...my stepbrother is here..."

"Hm..." he understands and stares at me with a misty gaze. We don't say a word but awkwardly look at each other as if we were strangers, so I decide to just cut this short. "I...I gotta go...See you tomorrow," I grab onto the handle of my suitcase and get ready to move. "See you tomorrow..." he doesn't even touch me or say an 'I love you' like I expected him to so I just drop my gaze down and move away.

I wish I knew what goes on in his head since yesterday.

Without even knowing why, my eyes get filled with tears as if that weird behavior of his was affecting me severely and causing some pain. It's just the incomprehension and then my insecurities that make me believe this is my fault and that he just doesn't like me as he said he does at the beginning. I wipe those stupid tears full of shame off my cold cheeks and head to the Macdonald not far away from here, where my stepbrother should be.