5 minutes later...

I step in the classroom with the teacher behind the students walking along my steps and I head to my desk, this one already occupied by y/n as expected. I brush the tip of my nose with my finger but sit down next to her, silently, to take my stuff out of my bag and drop it at the leg of the table.

"Why are you acting like I'm not here?" I set my eyes on y/n, hearing the silence she's keeping with me. "Why would I talk to you?" she doesn't look at me but only keep focusing on her Science's book. "Well...cause I'm your table mate and we were still friends two days ago."

"A friend wouldn't act like you do," her voice remains unvarying. "You provoked me just yesterday...how would you want me to react?"

She suddenly sends me a glare, staring into my eyes with no expression. "Just because of a damn lollipop? I was mad for two seconds but then dropped it while you're acting like a child."

I chuckle nervously but deviate my gaze to help myself not to get mad again. The teacher is here anyway so I don't want to receive a remark once more.

•••

12 pm.

"Let's go sit with y/n," Jisung brings us to the table only taken by one girl eating alone. I sigh but still follow him to get right in front of her and put my tray down while Jisung couldn't hold back from going right next to her. He's way too in love with her, that's a waste of time.

"You don't want to eat with Dahee?" she shows a fake grin to him, exposing the evident fact that she must not like her. At least the hate is mutual. "No, I want to stay with you. I told you and I will stick to my promise," he acts all soft but grabs his spoon to start to eat with her. As they're not digging in their food, my eyes notice the strawberry milk she left on the table.

I take it. "I can drink it. You're not going to be mad since you're not a child..." I remind her of the words she used earlier. "Right?" I poke the bottle with the straw as I can see how upset she is about it. "What's your problem with me?"

I lean over the table to place one arm down on it and elbow it with the other, to sip the pink drink right before her penetrating eyes. "What? I'm a child so I act like one," I drop the bottle next to me but keep my stare directed through her. "Jungkook...stop annoying her like that...please..."

I glance at him furtively before taking my drink back, to stand up and get hold of my tray. "Have a good meal with your girl," I throw at him with some harshness but leave this table. I can't stand this lovely behavior full of teenage and ridiculous love, this reminds me of the bitch I was with and who only played with my feelings. This makes me cringe.

I get to another table to be all by myself and not have to deal with this guy who now only has eyes for her as if she was the most perfect girl. Perfect girls don't exist, they're all the same and dump you for another guy or cheat on you only because they want a new dick.

I'm pathetic for not being able to get over this stupid relationship. I fucking hate her.

/ flashback \

Friday, July 21, 2018.

8 pm.

"Babe," Seyoung intertwines our fingers as we're both wandering around the park. "Hm?" I lay my eyes on her, wondering why she's suddenly breaking the soft and pleasant silence between us. We both dive deeply into each other's soul but she smiles at me, to get my heart to tingle and cause the same expression to appear on my face. "Have you already thought about the future...? How you see it...?"

"Well...yeah, why are you asking?" I smile while staring in her precious eyes but stroke the back of her hand with my thumb, loving the feeling of her body close to mine and her soft skin in contact with my warm one. "Would you want some children?"

My heart skips a beat at this question, imagining myself with her and the family we could build. "I do. I would like to have little babies...to see them growing well and giving them all my love...What about you?"

"Me too," she nods without telling me more about it. "So how do you see your future with children? What type of life would you want...?" I try to get more words from her about this, feeling like she brought that topic up for a certain reason. "I don't know...I see it with you," she beams but provokes terrible butterflies to my stomach.

That's the sentence I wanted to hear but couldn't believe to get. "With me?" I raise my eyebrows but cannot help beaming like ever, stopping my way to stand before her. "Yes, with my Jungkookie baby who is the most perfect man on earth," she holds both of my hands and stands on her tiptoes to kiss my lips. "I see my future with you only as well, I don't see my life without you anyway," I pull her closer with our tangled fingers and join our lips anew, for this time, kiss her passionately.

/ end of flashback \

I grit my teeth to hold my tears back and not cry in here, I'm not a freaking wimp, I can't be so weak because of a worthless girl.

"Hey," someone bothers me at the wrong moment, sitting down by my side to invade my personal space. I peek at her taking the chair next to me. "Why aren't you with your friends?" I put my eyes back on my food but Dahee heaves a sigh. "You're my friend. I'm here because I want to ask you something."

"What is it?" I mutter under my breath. "Why are you so cold with me? I know I'm annoying you...why do you always lie?" she asks the risky question. She noticed there was something, I thought she wouldn't see anything. "What are you talking about? You're not annoying me...I'm just not feeling alright lately."

"And why is that?" she plays it dumb when she knows exactly the reason why I'm feeling like that. I randomly land my eyes on something, not looking at her. "You know why."

"Is it because of Seyoung?" she finally says it, mentioning the girl she still talks to. "Come on Kook...I know this hurts but you should forget her. I'm always here for you, you have Jisung and other friends to make you think about something else—"

"Do you think that's easy?" I dart my eyes towards her. "I don't miss her, I don't love her anymore but I'm just fucking hurt because of the dumb shit I was and which she used as a toy all this fucking time! You call me a friend but you still talk to that bitch," I hurl out of my mouth without sugarcoating my words. We both stare at each other for some seconds, her expression not showing anything good. "Jungkook..."

"Stop talking to me," I throw my spoon down on my tray and get away from this table. I need a break from people around me.

•••

4 pm.

As the bell finally rang the end of this day, I grip onto the strap of my bag I hung on my shoulder and put my earphones in while heading out of the yard with no one by my side. I let the music play randomly and walk through the streets to follow the same path as every day.

I messed up in all my tests today, I feel like I can't work anymore once I start to think way too deeply about my past relationship. I was okay for two weeks so why is it coming back to torture me?

A hand touching my arm startles me. I take a look at the person who just came next to me and remove my earphones. "Can I talk to you...? Please..." Dahee steps before me to gaze into my eyes, being serious and grieved. "About what?"

"I stopped talking to Seyoung..." she reveals as if this was important but moves forth to hug me again. "I don't like when you're mad at me...Don't do this again Jungkook...I promise I won't have any contact with her anymore..."

"She broke up with me more than one month ago. Why are you only doing it now?" I don't look down at her or embrace her in return, my heart is in pieces now and nothing can make me feel any kind of emotions. "I wanted to know what she was doing...who she was seeing...but I didn't like her anymore once I knew she dumped you..."

"Whatever..." I grab her arm to pull her away. "I need to take the subway to go home. We'll talk tomorrow," I step forward but she keeps me with her. "Are you still mad at me...?" she stares into my eyes with a sorrowful gaze to try to affect me. "I'm not mad at you, I was just easily getting worked up today...sorry..." I apologize without meaning it and free myself from her hold.

"See you tomorrow..." she speaks while I'm walking away and I make the effort to return the words. I can still recall when I was making this way with y/n and Jisung.

/ flashback \

Tuesday, September 19, 2019.

"Kook," my best friend tries to grasp my attention as I'm answering some texts. "What?" I let out without looking up but he hits my arm in a kind manner. "Guess who's at the other side of the street," he points his finger to someone so since I'm curious, I take a peek at it. "I saw he's going in the same direction as us yesterday so we could walk with her," he suggests.

I smile but nod, agreeing to it and crossing the street to head towards her with Jisung quietly. We step towards y/n but without even restraining himself, he pokes her waist to make her body flinch and get by her side. "Hey," he giggles like I'm doing while joining them, in order to have her between us. Her eyes peek at me as always, landing her attention on me first as if I was the only one here.

"Are you going to annoy me?" she holds onto her binder but takes a look at her other friend on her left after being in eye contact with me and blushing. She always blushes when I look at her. "No, I just saw you these previous days taking the same way than us so I wanted to be with you," he barely hides his feelings for her, making it obvious he never wants to stay away from this new girl to who we're becoming close day by day.

"Well, do you live nearby?" she asks while strolling through the streets with us. "At some feet away from here but Jungkook at like forty minutes so way further."

"Oh alright," she acquiesces shyly. "Are you going to study like the usual good girl you are?" I tease her about it, never leaving her alone when I know how studious she is compared to me. I always bother her in class to ask for some help and information but only do it playfully. "Yes..." she smiles but doesn't look at me so to try making her feel more comfortable, I get my hand out of my pocket and reach her nape out, to knead it delicately. "Stop feeling shy around us..." I giggle while staring at her red cheeks.

"Ya," Jisung throws my hand away from her. "Stop touching her," he exposes his jealousy like an idiot but I just roll my eyes. He knows she's just a friend for me but he cannot stop this possessiveness. "I'm just trying to relax her. Did I make you feel uncomfortable?" I direct my question to hers. However, she looks at me briefly to answer with a soft gaze. "Yes. You make me more nervous."

"See," this jerk clicks his tongue to show his frustration but I don't look away from her. "Well then...sorry. I didn't know I was making you nervous," I grin but leave her alone.

/ end of flashback \

— Next day —

Wednesday, October 20, 2019.

7:40 am.

I walk in the schoolyard while eating my lollipop, this one that will not be taken away from me or eaten by someone else. Since Jisung texted me this morning to tell me he wouldn't be able to make the way to school with me, I stay alone but look for the girl I'm about to strangle.

Well...the bench that is usually occupied by her is empty right now, that's a surprise. I don't care about it but just suck on my lollipop while strolling to that bench, this one under a Sakura tree y/n always like to use at every break we have.

"Jungkook," the voice calling me gets a sigh to escape me. Fuck. I pretend to not have heard her and keep on going in my way, to make fast to reach the bench and sit down on it. Before my eyes could land on Dahee, I bend my head back and rest it on the wooden structure to close my eyes and let the sweet taste of creamy strawberry invade my mouth.

"Jungkook..." she joins me but sticks her body to mine, touching my thigh as my hands are concealed in the pockets of my trousers. "Hm?" I don't move from an inch.

She presses a kiss on my cheek but leans on me. "I'm sorry about yesterday..." she brings that up again when I thought this would have left her mind during the night. "Let's not talk about it. That's fine."

"Hm..." she listens and keeps quiet about it. "Can I ask you something?"

"Go ahead," I move my lollipop to the other side of my mouth with my tongue, paying attention to her words but not opening my eyes. "How come I saw you yesterday hanging out with a friend of yours after school when you said you had to work?" she reveals something I thought she wouldn't have got to know about. "Are you sure it was me...?"

"Are you kidding me?" she says in a pouty voice, not doubting about her statement. "That was you. Why are you ignoring me? Am I annoying you?"

"Yes, you are," I speak the truth in a kind manner, grinning to not let her take it the wrong way. I turn my head to the left to smile at her but she just pouts, as always. "Then goodbye," she crosses her arms against her chest and stands up to leave. "Goodbye," I don't stop her.

As expected, she comes back on her spot within short seconds. "I like being with you and you don't even care about me..." she grumbles like a kid while avoiding any eye contact between us. "It's not that I don't care, I'm just tired..."

"Sure..." she acts mad about it. "Stop it..." I put my arm around her neck to draw her closer to me and make her happy, resting her head on my chest and leaving my arm around her body. "There. Are you feeling better?"

"Yes," she hugs me back with way more fondness but I take a look at the students walking in the schoolyard, as well as the ones that are already here. I wonder where Jisung is, I feel like it has something to do with y/n for some reason.

"Can I have your lollipop?" Dahee gets me out of my thoughts and looks up at me, but I shake my head. "No. I already got one stolen by the little brat two days ago so what's mine is mine."

"Who are you talking about?" she slightly straightens her back for her big eyes to remain fixed on me. "Y/n. I asked her to open it for me the other day but instead of doing so, she put it in her bag and then while we were doing sports, I saw her sucking on it while looking at me with a little grin," I clench my jaw just from talking about it and being overwhelmed by all the anger again.

"She just wanted to turn you on like a hoe..." she moves back from me while badmouthing y/n again, as if she was jealous whenever I mention her. "Ya. She's too shy to do this. Remember when I told you about her touching my crotch by accident? She almost died in her redness and embarrassment as if she had touched me when I was naked or something like that...she wouldn't be able to do this. Trust me."

"Sure...she's just pretending to be shy..." she lets her discontentment control her, not liking y/n at all given the things she always says once I talk about her. "Well then...I didn't know it was possible to blush on command."

"Whatever, I hate this girl," she crosses her legs and put her eyes on everyone but me. "Why would you hate her? You don't even know her," I chuckle at this childish reaction from her, noticing the jealousy traveling through her. "I do know her, you talk about her almost every day as if you liked her so now I know her."

"I don't even talk about her every day..." I take my lollipop out of my mouth to speak more properly, thinking about this last previous day but realizing that I indeed mention her more often than I think I do. "Stop fucking lying, each time we're together I hear you mentioning this damn girl," she sends me a glare. "I just talk about what happens, that's not my fault if she's always the one triggering the problems that I have to talk about."

"Yes sure, then keep talking about her all by yourself," she rises from her spot with wrath. "I'm done hearing you always talking about that bitch," she leaves me alone but while watching her walking away, my eyes catch sight of the guy I was looking for this whole time.

Wait. Is what I'm seeing a joke? What the hell is my best friend doing with y/n, talking and smiling as if everything was alright when he told me he wouldn't be able to be with me?

"Jisung!"