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6:40 pm.

"Let's get to the fridge section," my mother leads the way with her cart already full of items she didn't ask me to write. I and y/n follow her as I'm keeping my phone in my hand to make sure I check the note and that we don't forget anything.

"Y/n," she turns towards her to drift her attention away from the chickens. "Are you going to eat with us today?"

"Oh no...I have to go home to get ready for tomorrow...I don't even have a suitcase yet so I'll have to go shopping with my parents and brother..." she doesn't pronounce stepbrother getting me a bit surprised. "Ah alright, I'm not going to take a whole chicken then, is it okay if I just cook meatballs Kook?"

"Yeah," I agree but lock my phone to take a break, I'll check if everything is taken once we'll be ready to get to the checkout. "I'm going to the snacks section though, I need time to pick," I smile at her but she lets me go without any problem. I step away but stop to stretch my hand out to my girl and gestures her to take it. "You come with me?"

She slides her hand in my larger one and allows me to drag her to another area. I hold her tight to make sure she stays with me and take a look at each section we're passing by, to find the good one I would like to reach.

As soon as the boxes of biscuits appear within sight, I head towards it and already scan each different snack. "If there's something you want to take, don't hesitate. Alright?" I stroke the back of her cold hand with my thumb but she smiles to answer me with a movement of her head. She's been quiet since what happened in my bed. I don't like this.

I try to not think about it at the moment but intertwine our fingers. Maybe this 'sugar daddy' thing isn't making her happy at all but she doesn't dare tell me. Personally, I'm starting to feel like I'm pretending not to have feelings for her. I'm afraid of it, maybe that's why I'm a coward and act like I'm cool with this type of relationship when I know how I would feel if she wanted someone else.

I didn't want to fall in love, however, I think this is too late as always.

"Can I take this...?" she snaps me out of my thoughts by pointing at a box of strawberry snacks but I take it. "Yes sure, do you want one or two boxes?"

"One is enough," she answers in her small voice, causing a smile to turn my lips up. "Okay, I'm going to take these cookies and three boxes of Oreo Pepero," I grab them all with one hand to not let go of y/n but she helps me and takes the last one I couldn't take. "We should have taken a small basket..."

She suddenly lets go of my hand. "I'm going to get one," she walks away but since I can't feel good once she's alone, I follow her small steps. In only short seconds, she gets one and drops her item in it, before heaving it up to let me put mine inside. "Give it to me, I don't want you to hurt yourself," I take it in my hold since I know how delicate and precious her hands are and I carry our own items.

While going back to where we were, her fingers slide in the palm of my hand and ask for mine to embrace them, so I tighten my hand around it and stop before the snacks again. "Don't you want some banana milk to go there?" I smile at her with some tease since y/n and banana milk are inseparable. She nods as expected so I keep it on my mind. "We're going to take some then."

She beams as if she was happy about it but lays her eyes back on the snacks. "Can you get me that one...over there?" she steps forth but stands on her tiptoes to indicate something out of her reach. I giggle quietly but put the basket down to grab what she asked for and add it to our list, then retrieve this item.

"Don't you want my mom to drive you to the mall? We'll buy the suitcase over there and then we'll drive you back to your house..." I suggest doing since I would like to have her by my side as much as possible. "Are you sure this won't bother your mom?"

"Yes," I smile but see she's not refusing right away. "Alright then...if it's okay for you mom, we can do it."

Freaking great. "Good," I remain calm in front of her to not let my emotions be exposed but I add some more snacks to our basket before taking her away. "Let's get into something else..." I drift us to a more special section where the beauty stuff and more are. Once we're there, I skip the products for makeup and else and I make it to an adult part of it. I don't say anything but just put the box of condoms inside with a lube.

It's better to do this than ruin a moment if we ever feel in the mood to do it but can't because we can't protect ourselves. Once it's taken, I walk away and get to the fridges where the banana milk for my girl is.

I pick a bottle of water while she's taking a look at the different flavors of milk but stand beside her, to put the basket down on the floor and get the pill I bought out of my pocket in order to drop it in my hand. "Take this baby," I hand it to her but she grabs it without saying anything, then I open the bottle to make her swallow. Once she did it, I close the bottle and put it in the basket to grab hold of this one.

"Why don't you sleep with me tonight...?" I ask out of the blue as she's taking the drinks. I lick my lips but fix my eyes on her and she turns around. "Is it...why you took that stuff...?" she puts the bottle in the basket but I shake my head and regret asking this now. "N-No. I didn't want you to take it like this...I...I just bought that because of what happened earlier and I want to make sure I have what we need if...this ever happens...you know..." I find myself stuttering. "I just want to be in your arms tonight..."

"I...I don't know. I'll have to see what my parents think about it," she leaves a possibility to not break my heart. "Alright, I hope they'll say yes."

50 minutes later...

I close the trunk of the car after taking y/n's new suitcase and with some clothes and items inside that I paid for her. I make my mom wait here and head to the gate with y/n, for her to open it and both walk to the house together. I keep a strong hold on the item but fortunately, enter the house quite swiftly to avoid the cold and both protect ourselves inside.

I take my shoes off as she's doing it and she peeks at me while taking her hood off, to drag me to the living room. "Hey," she bows to her parents so I do the same and they both smile at me. "Oh, Jungkook?" her mother stands up to greet me. "Did you buy the suitcase you needed y/n?"

"Yes, Jungkook got it for me," she beams with her sparkling eyes directed towards her but her kind mother nods. "Can I ask you something though?" y/n already seems to he about to ask the risky question but her mother sits down and lets her go on.

"Can I stay at Jungkook's house for the night? Please..." she shows a pouty face as her soft voice just left her mouth in the most heartbreaking manner. I would have said yes right away. She is too damn irresistible. "You want to sleep in his house...?" his dad grimaces but doesn't show a good expression. I don't feel good about this.

"Yes...I spent my day with him but I want to stay by his side for the night...I really want to dad...mom...please..." she folds her hands in her back but gazes at them with her baby face. Damn. My heart is pounding. "Like this, we will get to school right away and not risk to miss the bus for our trip..."

They both sight but think about it. "I don't know, pack up and we'll decide while you're busy..." the dad makes us go upstairs so I cross my fingers for them to accept and not ruin my night. I follow y/n from very close and climb up the stairs to get to her bedroom but see her locking the door.

I place the suitcase on the floor and open the zipper, to reveal the inside. While I'm doing this, she takes her coat off and drops it on her bed, to head to her chest of drawers.

"Do you think they're going to say yes?" I break the silence and sit on her bed, to watch her packing up. "I don't know...unfortunately..."

"Hm..." I toy with my fingers but lower my gaze to the floor, hoping for y/n to leave this house with me. At the sound of my phone ringing, I take it out of my pocket and check the text.

< Hello, I apologize for bothering you but I'm Sarang, the new girl in Dohyun's classroom who talked about you...He gave me your number so I wanted to text you and maybe try to initiate a first conversation with you...😁 ]

[ hey, dont worry. You're not bothering, how are you doing? Aren't you sleeping for the trip tomorrow?😄 >

< No, I usually go to bed at a late hour but I'm fine, what about you? ]

[ I'm doing good. What are you doing rn then? >

< I'm just in my bed, watching Netflix all alone. And you? ]

[ I'm in a bed too but I'm just getting ready for tomorrow >

< oh, youre in a bed? Not yours? ]

[ no I'm at y/n's house. Dont know if you know her but it's the girl I hang out with a lot >

I put her back at her place as I noticed right away what she tried to do with her 'I'm in my bed all alone', I know what a girl who just wants to turn me on does. I'm used to it.

< ah alright ]

I chuckle at her cold answer but lock my phone, to put it back in my pocket and focus on y/n who's on her knees to fill her suitcase with clothes. I run my fingers through my hair but lie down on my side, to contemplate the view but give some more attention to the lingerie.

"What do you wear when you sleep?" I ask through the annoying silence I never like to hear. "Depends on my mood and what I want...why?"

"I'm just curious," I smile but keep my eyes fixed on her. "I hope you'll be allowed to come to my house...I want to cuddle to sleep..." I express my want about this again, not staying quiet about this. "I hope too."

My phone vibrates in my pants, I roll my eyes but check it again.

< are you dating her? ]

[ why do you ask? >

< just like that...I'm interested in you and want to know more...was it too indiscreet? ]

[ no >

< ah alright because Dohyun told me you were in love with her and all...that's why I wanted to ask ]

[ ok but Dohyun is a moron so don't believe everything he says >

< ok😅 ]

"Ugh..." I emit a plaintive moan and roll on my back to drop my phone on my torso and relax, I might have lied to that girl but I don't care. "You're going to stay close to me all day long during the trip, alright?" I turn my head in her direction to see her features but she simply gives me a nod of her head. "Y/n...why are you so quiet since what happened in my bedroom earlier...?" I pout with some pain felt from it and she finally sets her eyes on me. "I'm not..."

"Yes, you are. Do you regret what happened...or something like that...? You didn't want this to happen or you didn't want to do it...?" I ask in a more serious way as we're staring into each other's eyes. "I don't regret anything. I just...I just have a lot of questions in my head..."

"And what are those?" I spur her to tell me but she raises her shoulders to show she doesn't know. "I feel like...I shouldn't tell you..."

"Yes, you do have to tell me," I don't agree with her sentence and she doesn't glance away, for once. "I...Do you often do that with other girls you don't love?" she lets it out but reveals the reason for her to act so different. "What do you mean by that?"

She sighs and breaks our eye contact. "You know what I mean Jungkook..." she expresses her annoyance and folds her clothes properly. "I don't need or want any other girl at this moment and I don't ever do that with a random girl. Okay? I didn't do this to have fun. I wanted you, a lot."

She stops her actions to focus on me as if this just surprised her. "Yes you heard me well, I wanted you and I wanted to have sex with you," I don't keep it to myself but say the truth with my eyes fixed into hers. "But I held back because I want to let you decide when you want to do it and with who you want to do it."

"I don't want anyone else but you...I don't want to give my virginity to another guy..." she speaks about it for the first time and makes it known when I wouldn't have expected her to say this out loud, or even think about it. I'm speechless. "I'm sorry...I shouldn't have said that-"

"I don't want another guy to take it either," I cut her off to not let her believe she made a mistake. "I don't want someone else to have you..." I lower my gaze but lie down on my back. "I do not even want to imagine a guy touching you...having you naked under him or kissing..." I rub my eyes with my hands as the images of it are pissing me off. I might have said too much, she shouldn't know all of this. "Anyway," I quickly put an end to this and sit up.

She now remains silent but closes her suitcase after putting all the things she needs inside. "I want to know what your parents decided to do..." I comb my hair back with anxiousness but stand up as y/n did. "I'm going to ask them," she steps away so I follow to the outside of the bedroom in order to go back to where we were some minutes ago.

"Can I...?" she asks without waiting but they both look at her. "Y/n, we trust you a lot so you know what cannot happen if you sleep over at his house, and Jungkook," her father points his finger at me. "You better not try anything with my daughter, I am more than serious right now and you will regret it if something ever happens to her. Alright?" the side of him that was kind and sweet changes in the blink of an eye.

I nod. "I will never try anything with your daughter Mister...Mister Kim..." I give him my word even if behind this sentence, I hide other meanings. He said 'not try anything' but if we both kiss and start to touch each other, this isn't 'trying anything' but just letting our desire lead to something better. Whatever, this isn't the time to think about it. "Y/n's brother will destroy you if you ever do something to her anyway, and he'll notice it very easily."

I peek at y/n as the attention given to this man isn't pleasing me. I hate whenever I hear this word, 'stepbrother', no matter what y/n told me about him I still don't trust him or like him. "Dad...I promise nothing will happen. We just want to be together and this is way easier for tomorrow..."

"I know...that's why we both accepted..." he still doesn't show any good feeling about it as this must not be something to be happy about for him. "Thank you, Mister Kim and Miss Lee," I bow to the both of them but they don't say anything more, they just acquiesce with bitterness.

"Thank you, dad and mom, I love you," she grins but moves back to her bedroom so I walk along her steps like a puppy and go get her suitcase again.

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10 pm.

"Hey..." I whisper through the quietness as we're both tucked under my blanket in the dim darkness. "Hm?" she only gives me a humming sound as a response but I cuddle up against her, even if I'm not lacking of heat and her neither, from what I can feel despite the fact she's only wearing a little nightdress. "Are you sleeping?" I ask a dumb question, knowing damn well she is awake since she just answered me.

"As obvious as it is...I'm not..." she softly giggles but provokes a smile to grow on my face. I force a bit with my eyes to see her features more clearly. My room is usually as hot as it is now but this time, I still want some more from her. "I can't sleep either..."

"I'm used to it though...are you insomniac too?" she murmurs close to my lips as I inched closer to her with my entire body. "I'm not...I always sleep like a baby unless I'm stressed out..."

"Are you stressed out then?" her hand slides under her pillow but just to tease her and be against her to the full, I steal the small part of her pillow and cause our nose to touch. "I'm not...I just like to be with you and I don't want to waste my time sleeping..."

"But you're going to be tired..." she suddenly sticks her body to mine and wraps her arm around my waist, making me place one arm under her neck and the other around her hips as well. "I don't care...we'll sleep on the bus if needed...I'm alone with you right now so I want to enjoy it to the full..."

Her lips peck mine, catching me off guard with a kiss I didn't expect to get, but yet wanted. I love it when she does this, this makes my heart flutter. I smile but move forth once I feel her retreating after the warm contact, the tip of my nose gets squeezed against her cheekbone but I lock our lips. "I feel better when I'm with you..." I run my fingers over her arm, our bodies in tight contact heating up under the covers. I nuzzle her nose but caress her jawline, causing a wave of shivers to slither over her skin that never drifts apart from mine as our breathings are soothingly mingling together.

"Jungkook..." my name leaves her mouth with delicacy. "Yes, my baby?" I don't restrain myself but glide the tip of my finger along her lips, to follow the shape of them. "Do you like me...?"