It's no surprise that labels are something that bother many people, But the fact that they are the reason for many to just lose hope and start making unnecessary changes to themselves makes my blood boil. It doesn't end there does it? Sometimes just people telling you that Body shaming is not good and that you are great just the way you are just isn't enough, I for some reason keep beleving that I am too fat for my age or that my hairline is to weird or I am way too tall even though many tell me that I am not fat or just tell me that I am overthinking it but I just can't stop thinking about how not perfect I am. It's not just me is it? Sometimes there are parts of you just telling you that it isn't enough or you are not perfect and I Just want to get rid of the thoughts like that but they won't go will they? They'll keep creeping in every time I change my clothes or even head out of my room and Then I just gave up. I stopped trying at all, I didn't want to get better I just wanted for them to leave me alone but all they did was take more control. 

Then one day I thought about just what defines who am I, I realised that me thinking that being beautiful means being perfect, Then I Got to know that The most imperfect things are the ones that end up changing the world. And the thought that perfection exists is wrong, Because for one being perfect might mean being taller while for the other it might mean being shorter. I know that words do absolutely no help when you feel like you aren't good enough but What would happen if there was no need to be good enough at all? And what exactly is "Good enough" Is it being as skinny as a starved up rat or is it being as popular as I don't Oxygen? There is nothing as "Good enough" Cause for a skinny rat that is starving under a fridge being "Good enough" Means nothing but being alive? Everything. Remember this the next time that you feel bad about your body shape. 

What about the parts of you that tell you that you have to fit in? Let them play out, This is something that helps me a lot. If there is some voice that's bothering you then just don't interfere and let it play out cause it's just a pre-recorded voice mail and after its played out once it will just leave. What if it doesn't work? Then do the stuff that helps you remember about the things that you used to love, Maybe it's an old song or it's a letter tthat you wrote in the past to yourself, Allow yourself to keep in touch with the you that you think is lost. Then think about your future. Being distracted not only puts your mind in a place that it likes but also calms you down. 

From the past few months I've had a lot of time to think about myself and they start getting toxic at times and then I just want to ignore it but I can't and that's because I think that they are true, But then for some I start remembering the song that I played that morning and I think of what I was thinking at that time. Remember, The most imperfect things are the ones that change the world, The Craziest minds Change the world, The ones like you who are trying to change the way your thoughts talk to you are going to be the ones that end up saving and livin' the fullest on the world. 

Note: Hey, I know this might be a bit short but I just for some reason can't get myself to write more about this topic without getting reminded of something that happened to me in the past. This chapter and the next chapters topics are something that relate a bit to much to me and if I mess something's up about them then I am really sorry. You are a wonderful person who doesn't need to believe in the word perfect cause it doesn't exist. You are better and stronger and Will emerge victorious from this. Always and forever ❤️