Self harm is going to be my first topic over here, It's a type of addiction that so many people have and the fact that at one point it gets so bad that you feel like your drowning unless you use that blade or razor.

What exactly is self harm? Its not only cutting yourself, That is a type of self harm yes But the other type of self harm is hitting yourself. When my dad used to scream at me with the meanist words ever I would hold my arms back and pinch my left arm very harshly thinking that I will cut my leg afterwards. And the other time I almost took a hammer and punched it on my eye because my dad was screaming at me that I didn't know what real pain is.

Getting into self harm? How does anyone mange to get into something like that? Its complex actually. By what I've understood, Self harm is a way your mind distracts yourself from the pain your in. You cut yourself and watch the blood droplets fall hoping it will pain and while you do that your mind thinks that your emotional pain is gone, Over.

The other reason is to feel pain, When things go so out of control you might think that pain is the one thing you can control. Hoping that the pain you reflect on to yourself is the one thing you deserve. Its wrong, You deserve all the happiness and love in the world.

Getting addicted to pain is something that takes place after  continuous trauma, Abuse or hate. The feeling that your drowning and there is no one there to help you is something so sad and difficult that no one should go through it, It is the worst feeling in the world when you are so sad and angry at yourself that a part of your mind starts screaming at you to not do it and that you are better but then comes the other voice, Encouraging you to do it, Making you feel that you'll be alright after just one time.

If you are going through it then I am here for you, I will help you through every step you take and I am your friend in this, I won't judge you or call you weak if you cry or go to therapy. Feeling emotions is something very important and no one can call you weak for that.

Overcoming self harm? How do you do that? That is even more complex, See self harm is a subject that different to everyone but the most difficult part of it is when you realise that you need to stop but you can't, Focus on the right side of your voice, The one that says you to stop, It's right. There are other ways to express pain and pain isn't something that your supposed to ignore, I understand how hard it is to stop and how easy it is to do it again but you having a voice that atleast tells you to stop makes you an inspiration, Don't let the girl or boy that thinks of you as a remodel down. Don't do it, at least limit yourself and slowly stop at once. You and your subconscious are the ones going through it and you will overcome it.

I know that maybe this is all wrong or maybe I didn't understand it at all, That's because everyone is different and special in their own way. Don't let anyone tell you different that you don't matter or are something everyone hates because I don't hate you, You matter to me and so many others. You are special, You are stronger then this and overcoming self harm is something so hard but helpful to you that it's the way you became an inspiration.

If you do any types of self-harm, There is no shame in trying to stop or getting help or telling your parents. I know for some telling to their parents or getting help may not be easy, That's what I am here for. I will help you through it, always and forever

Remember, You are important, Special and no one hates you. Try to stop because feeling emotions is not wrong. But harming your beautiful self is, There are other ways to feel things.

If you want someone to talk to, A shoulder to cry on, A friend who you can laugh with and cry with then remember that I am here for you and that you are stronger then anything you are going through. Always and forever.
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