We are now editing the video, and by 'we' I mean Colby. So far 'we've' cut out half an hour of it. Half an hour. Yes, it was that long. If it was all up to me, I'd cut everything out and redo the video entirely, but sadly it isnt.

I really cant describe the video as anything but incredibly awkward. Thats honestly the only word that comes to mind when I think about it.

After a while it just turned into a bunch of sexual jokes and him saying 'just kidding' every two seconds. It was annoying to hear then, and its annoying to edit out now.

Also, In the video I'd stumble over my words and end up talking in gibberish, we cut those bits out too. We also had to take out all of the clips of us fixing our hair, and we definitely cut out as many clips of our lowkey glances at each other as we could.

I stared at him so much, I might as well have been drooling and had 'desperate' stamped to my forehead.

"Ok, finished editing" Colby said as he rested his hand over mine.

I drew my attention to him and quit blankly staring at a wall. He smiled at me and like always, I returned one. He hadnt let go of my hand after he got my attention, and so I moved mine away and began to play with my hair.

"Ok uh—do we just upload it or..." I trailed off and checked the time.

10:47 pm.

We spent the whole day filming and editing. I know thats what we planned to do, but this took longer than I had thought. I had no idea it was as late as it was. Last time I checked, the sky was a light blue and the sun was out.

"Yeah"

I nodded as he exported the video to youtube. It will take a while for our train wreck to upload, so we just sat in silence for a while, but then my phone went off.

C: hi

I looked over at him and rolled my eyes before bringing my attention back to my phone.

S: we're literally in the same room
C: so?
S: so if you want to talk, then actually talk
C: Aw Golbach, you're no fun!
S: good
C: just kidding
S: figured
C: yup...
S: stop being so awkward
C: I will when you do
S: that impossible
C: exactly
S: I'm punching you

I leaned over and punched his arm, he reacted by kicking me off the bed.

C: dont punch me, Golbach
S: dont tell me what to do, Bolby
C: I can tell you what to do all I want
S: no you cant. you're so weird
C: you're one to talk
S: my weirdness is what makes me adorable, whats your excuse?
C: meany
S: its true 💅
C: true
C: just kidding
S: rude!
C: why are you still on the floor?
S: because I like it more than being by you
C: why are you so mean to me? 😢

As I got up to sit back down on the bed I shrugged, and he began to type again. I sighed before pressing the power button on his phone.

"Bolby, stop messaging me!" I whined. "Lets actually talk" I turned to him and took his beanie off his head before placing it on mine.

"Ok, Hi"