{Trigger warning | Mature content}

>Taehyung POV<

For the first time in my life, I've found myself dreading Fridays. Usually, it's supposed to be a day where you're happy and excited for the weekend but 'the weekend' just meant that I won't get to see Y/n until Monday again.

She's been awfully close with my friends and I lately. This week in particular. I'm glad she feels comfortable around them. She even asked Jungkook to walk her to the bathroom so he can hold her stuff, she could have just said that she's be lonely instead of making excuses. That cute bean.

I asked her to meet in the library today, after school again. This time, I won't fall asleep. I used the assignment as an excuse to get her here but the truth is that I just didn't want to leave her just yet. I didn't want to have to wait until Monday to see her again, so I'm clocking in as much time now as I can.

School's been out for about 5 minutes now and I was already waiting in the library for her. She isn't here yet, I guess she's running late. After another 5 minutes passed, I started to lose hope. Maybe she wasn't coming at all or forgot about me.

I didn't want to be depressed because of a girl but when it comes to her, she can make my emotions go wild. I had concluded that she isn't coming. I should have messaged her but maybe she really doesn't want to be here or something.

I needed to clear my head, I needed air, some space to breath. I made my way up to the roof, sulking since I just got stood up at a library of all places. That's like the worst place to have a date.

I opened the rooftop door, the cold wind immediately hitting my face as I emerged from the building, only to see something most unsightly and heart-wrenching. My heart dropped into my feet and I grew unaware of my own surroundings, only focusing on hers. My only impulse, to scream out her name.

"Y/N!" She stood on the prohibited side of the railing, looking down at the ground. When she heard me, she turned around and looked at me in shock. "Y/N! What are you doing there!? It's dangerous." I yelled as I started to walk closer to her.

She clenched her hand on the railing behind her and looked down, still standing on the ledge. As I walked closer, I saw the tears streaming down her face. The sight of this made my heart hurt. I felt like crying after seeing this.

"Y/n, just take my hand and—."

"STAY AWAY!" She interjected me with a high pitched scream. She stammered a little on the edge and my fear grew even stronger.

"Y/n! Be careful. Come on, we can work through this." I tried to reason with the broken down girl in front of me. Her eyes red and swollen from crying and her skin, not fully covered up, making some of her scars visible.

"Work through it?" She asked monotonously. "As if it wasn't enough for my stepdad to do this?!" Suddenly she raised her voice and screamed out. "I finally get away from him, only to have the same shit done at school."

"Y/n! Come on! I'll help you." I still tried to reason with her, stepping closer and closer, slowly, so that she wouldn't notice.

"She told me sweet lies like it was love at first sight, and then she thrusts upon you this new father figure who molests you when she's asleep." She said in a loud manner.

"Y/n! We can talk about this where it's safe." I was finally in arm's length of her.

"No, I don't want to talk. I've had enough. I've had enough of everything." She said softly, sounding despondent. These words broke my heart and made it shatter into pieces. At this point, I could no longer hold my tears back. They just rolled down my face in unison with hers.

"Y/n! Stop! Don't do this!" I yelled through my cries.

"Fell in love with him? She only wanted his body, but he only wanted mine." She spoke as she began trembling harder. "Today as well! He only wanted my body!"

Suddenly, I found myself grabbing her hand, shocking both her and me, and yelled at her almost impulsively. "If you jump, I jump too!"

What seemed to have shocked her more were the tears rolling down my face. She wore a blank expression when she saw this, and I started to pull her back onto the safe side of the railing. She didn't resist this time but her body was limp. I tugged on her arms and she fell directly on my chest, having me fall to the ground from the force. We both just stayed there crying.

I felt her head continuously inch deeper and deeper in my chest and I held her tightly in my arms, not wanting to let go for anything in the world. Her breath started hitching and I began tapping on her back and caressing her hair to try and calm her down more. When her breath finally stabilised, I softly spoke to her.

"Hey, talk to me."She nudged her head into the fold of my arm. "Did something happen today?"

The hesitation in her was evident while she was nodding her head gently. Just having to think about the person that had driven her to this state of mind was enough to make her tremble. The mere thought of it was so powerful that she shivered heavily.

Her breath continued to hitch and she hiccuped between her inhalations. "I'm scared Tae." Her voice began to shiver "scared of people knowing, scared of losing more than I already have."

"Shhh. It's okay. Everything's okay." I gently caressed her back and began reassuring her, soon, she began trembling and jolted back to look at me.

"No! Tae! It's not okay! What if I lose you too! I don't think I can deal with losing another person." She yelled out. "Nobody wants tainted goods."

"Y/n! You won't lose me!" I pulled her in and hugged her tightly so that she wouldn't see the tears roll down my face. "I want you y/n! I want you to be with us, me, Jungkook, the hyungs! With all of your flaws and scars!"

I didn't realise it but I was full-blown crying at that moment. My mind went blank. I felt such sadness knowing that she was hurting. She stopped trembling and moved back to look me in the eye. Her beautiful eyes gazed into mine as we saw a tear-filled galaxy of emotions in each other. She reached up to my face and wiped the tears that I had forgotten about.

"Do you want to tell me what happened?" I said while cupping her face to make her look at me.

"S-Someone..." she hesitated for a second and glanced at the ground. "Someone touched me."

"What?! When? Who touched you? Where did he..." I interrogated her while moving her face around to look for any marks on her neck. Thankfully, there were none.

"I-I'm not sure who, but it was... the same person from Monday." She spoke with timidity and fear in her voice.

When she said that, I realised why she had been clinging to my friends and I this week. She was that afraid and didn't even tell us why.

"Where did he touch you?" I asked out of concern but I noticed tears starting to fill up her eyes.

She moved her right arm to cover her chest and the other arm down to where her thighs meet. She didn't utter a word but by her actions alone, I had grasped where she'd been violated. I was fuming. I don't think I've ever been this angry before. I pulled her in for another hug and she burst into tears again on my chest.

"I'm so tired of this Tae." She sobbed even harder. "I'm tired of men thinking that it's okay. I'm tired of being ignored. I just wanted a normal childhood like everyone else. What did I do to deserve this!!" I held on to her even tighter. I didn't know what else to do.

"Hey. It's okay. I'm here. Tell me what's bothering you. I'll listen to everything you have to say." She stayed there for another few minutes until she was ready to speak.

"I'm scared Tae. I'm scared of what you'd think."

"It's okay. I'm here for you." I held her closer, her scent intoxicating me.

"M-my dad. He left with another woman when I was 10." She said with her head still buried in my chest. I pulled her out and stared straight into her eyes.

"So the rumours, they're all lies, right?" I asked, but she shook her head lightly.

"Not completely." She said. "My mom... she went into a depression. A few years later, she remarried. She was finally happy with him and he even moved in with us... but...." suddenly, she looked like she was about to burst into tears again.

"You don't have to continue if you don't want to." I reassured her but she shook her head and continued.

"But, one night we were having dinner, and he had his hand on my knee. Every night after that he would do that and gradually, he moved his hand deeper." She gritted her teeth and wiped away some of the tears forming in her eyes. "One night, he came to my bedroom.... and he...He stole my first kiss Tae!" She yelled out but still kept her composure. "He stole it! I was so scared. After that, every night when my mom was already asleep, he would come to my bedroom and.... and touch me."

I stood there in shock of her words. She was getting molested in a place she was supposed to feel safe in.

"Did you report it?!" I asked loudly, she shook her head.

"Mom was finally happy again. I couldn't take that away from her. One night though..." her composure started to break and she was shivering at the thought of it. "O-one night, he came to my room. Neither of us knew that my mom was home but he started touching me again but under my clothes this time. For 3 months I never screamed but when I saw my mom's shadow outside the door that night, things were different. I screamed and yelled for her but all I saw was her shadow moving outside of the door." She broke down.

Honestly, I was disgusted. Not by her, but disgusted by the fact that nobody helped her. She had no one to turn to, nobody's shoulder to cry on. I, myself was tearing at this point. Even though she was sniffling, she tried to continue.

"He.. he told me that.. screaming would be futile... but I kept on. A week later.... she divorced him. She never told him the reason but I knew. She always blamed me for it, for taking away her attempt at happiness. The people at school found out somehow and they would tease me...."

"Shhh. It's okay." I brought her teary face back into my chest and hugged her tightly. We stayed there for a long time, just having her in my embrace makes me happy. I hoped she felt the same way. I lifted her head and spoke to her softly.

"Let's get you home." I help her back up on her feet and softly wiped away her tears with my sleeve. She tried to stand up, but wobbled a bit and dropped back to the ground.

"Tae... my legs feel weak." She said softly. I didn't mind holding her to support her or carrying her home but I wasn't sure if she would be comfortable with that, especially after what had happened earlier.

"Y-Y/n..." I spoke as she stumbled back and I grabbed her waist, almost on impulse. I immediately let go once I had realised where my hand was.

"I-it's okay. if it's you." She spoke softly and held only my hand with a gentle touch. "Your hands feel... warm... and safe." She said.

I directed my arm to hold her just above her waist but not high enough to be anywhere near her chest. She then wrapped her one arm around my torso and the other held onto the hand that was supporting her.

We made our way back into the building, carefully walking down the stairs so that one of us don't fall. I could tell that she was still scared while we walked through the school. She kept glancing around to see if someone was watching us.

"Hey, it's okay. I'm here." I said softly, for her ears only. She started walking with more confidence now and ever-so-slightly loosened her grip on my torso. Thankfully, I knew where she lived since I had walked her home before. We were about two blocks away from her house when she completely let go of me and stopped in her paces. I looked back at her blank expression as she parted her lips to speak.

"I think... I think here I fine. I've already inconvenienced you enough." She said while playing with her fingers. "My legs are okay now. I'm sorry for being such a burden. I can—"

"You're not a burden. You're not inconveniencing me either."

"I-it's okay. I can go the rest of the way alone." She protested.

I'd much rather see her walk into her house. It would make me feel more at ease to know that she's safe but for some reason, I got the feeling like she didn't want that. The last time I walked her home, there wasn't a problem, so I don't see her reasoning now.

"I don't mind. I'd like to meet your mom too." I said, hoping she would agree so I could ensure her safety.

"I-I don't think that's a good idea." Usually, I would just think that she's shy about having me meeting her parent but when she looked down at the ground and dug her nails into her skin the way she did, I got worried.

"Y/n. Tell me the truth. Is there still something going on at home?" She dug her nails deeper into her skin impulsively. "Y/n? Answer me honestly." I continued.

"I- I don't.... it's..." she started biting at her lip. I was almost certain that something was wrong at home. I grabbed her hand to stop her from digging her nails into her skin and intertwined her hand in mind.

"We're going to my house." I told her as I assertively pulled her along with me. She reluctantly followed behind me, her head still faced down.

"I can't." She protested "My mom. She's gonna be upset." That was it. That was the clarity I needed. Now I knew that something was going on at home. "Taehyung. Please."

"No!" I said assertively. "I'm not letting you go until we work this out properly." I continued walking while she protested more.

"There nothing till work out. Everything's fine." I ignored her words and continued. "Don't do this."

"Don't do what y/n!?" I stopped and turned around to her. "Don't you think it hurts me to see someone I care about going through so much pain?" I grabbed onto her shoulders and glared at her deep in her eyes. I didn't realise that I was yelling at her.

"Stop acting like you care so much! You're just being nice!" She yelled back. Is that what she thought? "I've already heard everything! You're just being nice to me like you are to everyone!"

"You believe them over me!?" I asked back, shouting even louder.

"Then tell me! Why do you care about someone like me?!" She asked.

"Because I love you, Y/n!"

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