I'm broken

Im crying so hard right now.. they're both gone and I couldn't do shit to stop them..

Guys please.. if you're feeling depressed or suicidal call the damn hotline. It's there for a reason..

This guilt.. it's stuck with me now. Why couldn't I see the signs earlier?
Why couldn't I stop them?
Why and I still here?

I'm not going to hurt myself and neither should you guys. It's only a bump in the road. Just keep driving.