Alright so first off turns out Eyal is quite Straight, so that's a little disappointing, but that's not really the big point of this.

Before starting, it's important to know that I hate being vulnerable. I don't know how I came to think this, but I see giving information to other people as creating a weak link. Also, I'm afraid of judgement :) Anyway, because of this, I generally don't share things that are super important to me. My friends barely know about asexuality, and none of them know I have this account or am writing this story.

Now to the reason that Eyal sucks. Him, one of our other friends (she's not important), and I went out for lunch today, and he mentioned some sexual thing, so naturally I cringed because that makes me uncomfortable. Anyway then Eyal goes, "wow, Rose gets uncomfortable at anything related to sex," and then he starts describing stuff. I don't really know what he said because I was covering my ears. That part isn't bad. We joke around a lot, so it wasn't like he was trying to do anything mean.

And then he and my other friend are like "wow you're really asexual." Which was actually good-ish since that's a step to them more used to me being ace. AND THEN Eyal goes, "when you're 18, you're going to want to fuck people and have a whole identity crisis." He takes a lot of pride in predicting this stuff, and that makes it worse because I guess he thinks he knows more than I do about asexuality. As I said, Eyal is Quite Straight, so he does the Straight Guy thing where he thinks he's always right.

Obviously I got annoyed by that because no I won't, and it really bothers me when people say wrong stuff and act like they're a master in that subject, and that tripled since this is a topic that matters a lot to me. I don't exactly remember the path of speech that got us there, but then Eyal goes "isn't asexuality more of a disorder." I told him how it actually was classified as a disorder, and this piece of shit goes, "yeah so you're not LGBT, you just have a disorder." And he knows that that's not something you can just say because we've talked about ace discourse before. 

AND THEN LATER Eyal, OUT OF NOWHERE, says, "demisexuality isn't a sexuality."

And at the point I didn't want to deal with his whole "I don't get it, so it can't be true" Straight Guy bullshit, so I just stared him in the eyes and really seriously and a bit angrily (and assertively :)) say, "Eyal, we are not talking about this right now." We can all agree I've clearly expressed that I don't want want to talk about it, right? But Eyal keeps persisting, and after telling him to stop her and over, I finally asked him his reasoning. 

He proceeds to say the standard bullshit about how ThEy ArEn'T aCtUaLlY a SeXuAlItY, and I don't know I kind of froze. I hardly ever get mad, but I was really really just done with him, and as I said, I do not like talking about things that actually matter to me. So all the words about why Eyal was wrong were swimming around in my head while 'this is too personal' sirens were going off, and on top of all of that I couldn't think right because my anger and frustration was jumbling everything. All I could really manage out was, "Eyal you're wrong." And of course he's like, "yOu NeEd EvIdEnCe." 

And it's worse because he has nothing in this, and I was quite obviously annoyed about this and didn't want to talk about it, but he kept fucking pushing and pushing and saying that demis don't count, and I wanted to yell at him that he has NO clue what the fuck he's talking about, but I couldn't because we were in a store, and you can't yell in stores, so I said it in a normal voice.

And he says, "is it because I'm straight?" and YES it is because he's straight, so I told him that and he says, "you still don't have evidence, so I'm still right." 

Then our other friend had to go, and I figured he was only one person, and he can generally keep secrets, so I told him how I had points, but I didn't want to talk about it because it's hella personal." And he asked me if I was demi, and I said no, and he just goes, "you still don't have any proof."

And it just so annoying because he gets to be all detached and I'm-better-than-you-because-I-have-no-emotional-connection-to-this. Now it doesn't sound as bad, but in the moment, it was really just not a good time.

And then I came home and my mom realized I was upset, but I can't tell her why because that would involve saying I'm ace and all that, and she told my dad, and my mom's really good about boundaries, so she's not pushing it, but my dad keeps trying to make me tell him.

Also sorry I haven't posted in a while. I was visiting my relatives, and I didn't have my laptop with me. 

Happy new year!!!