So from what I've heard of signs that you like someone, I act like that. Or in an actual understandable way of talking, I act like I have a crush on my squishes.

Also I think I have another one, so I have two at the moment, and I've mainly noticed this with the new one. He's one of the people I'm hoping ace btw

yeah so anyway with crushes it's like you're extra nice to them and try to talk to them a lot right? I don't do it on purpose but I always end up talking to him ig and yesterday I bought him food and I had cookies at lunch, and he was the only one I offered them too (to be fair he was the only one that noticed)

The confusing part (wow this is just turning into another "I have a squish" chapters whoops. I'll get more on topic soon I promise) is that it's not like I consciously realized I have a squish on him. It's more like I know I like talking to him, so I think I sort of subconsciously have a squish on him?????????

Now on topic time!! This is partially because of the kid that liked me and kept texting me and stuff, but I get kind of weirded out when people obviously have a crush on me, so I'm worried my squish will think I like him and then get weirded out. So that's great

***Below here is completely irrelevant to asexuality :)***

Also we're doing a unit in grammar in English, and grammar's ~my thing~ so I already know everything (Yeah I know my grammar on here is shit, but I'm not writing an essay here). In history we're doing a unit in Judaism and the history of it, so I already know most of that because I am jewish. And in science we're doing physics, which I'm good at. So those three classes are easy, AND THEN THERE'S FUCKING MATH CLASS WHERE NOTHING MAKES SENSE BUT EVERYONE ELSE SOMEHOW UNDERSTANDS IT AND I FEEL SO DUMB. So yay!!

And in Latin the only thing keeping my teacher from hating me is that I have good grades (I sit in the back and it's the only class I never shut up in, so he yells at me a lot to stop talking). And I just hate French because all French teachers suck, and that's a fact. But I wish I was more well rounded because you can't really have a good career in history or writing or literature, and if I don't like science anyway, but if I had a science career, it would have to be closely tied into math because that's how science is