Okie dokie I am not having a good time right now. So yesterday I added a kid on sc that I didn't know because I was like yay let's make a new friend!! And then he asked if I'd ever sent nudes and I told him that I'm ace, and he was like ok. Then today we snapped a lot, and it wasn't about sexual stuff, just like "you're pretty" (lots of that) and at one point he taught me how to take a jawline pic. Just fun friends stuff. And then he asked me to send a mirror selfie, so I did. And then he asked if I wanted him to send me an ab pic. I figured I might as well because generally abs don't disgust me, and I didn't want to be rude. He wasn't asking for anything in return, so the only 'bad' thing that would happen was getting an ab pic.

He sent it and for some reason that made me uncomfortable ig, but that parts not anyone's fault because I told him he could send it, and I thought I'd be fine with it.

So then he asked for a "mirror selfie with more skin" and I think I'm hilarious so I made a sticker or my forearm and and pasted it all over so I just sent a picture of me taking a (fully-clothed) mirror selfie with a shit ton of forearms everywhere. 

And he said "No really" and kept persisting. Well I'm bad at saying no, but I'm good at not saying yes to things, so I kept replying with longer and longer strings of 'Mmm's. 

WELL THEN he asked if I wanted to see his dick, and I said preferably not no offense.

And he started talking about how it was massive or whatever and ig he forgot I was ace so I told him I was. And u know what he said?? 

1. Does that mean you don't want to have sex?

yeah I don't

2. Do you like guys or girls?

Nobody

3. So you don't want to have sex with me?

No sry

And then he went into some very intrusive questions like if I'd masturbated, etc. AND THEN HE ASKED ME TO SEND NUDES. So obviously I said no and he kept asking???

And so I was viscerally uncomfortable. Now I'm ignoring him. But anyway while that was going on, I was talking to another kid who I kinda think might like me (That or he's SUPER awkward), and we were talking about how his phone died. And he said his phone said it loved my phone. And then later he said he was going off to jump off a building (jokingly) to get me to move on from his phone's death. 

So I was like ok I'll save you and then go back to mourning

and he said convince me not to jump.

And I mean I'm me, so I said, "Nooo don't kill urself...ur too sexy ahaha"

And anyway it evolved into him saying, and I quote

"(Just for acting)

Say the thing

That my phone said to yours"

And I said "oh I love you"

And he told me he loved me too, so we're getting very uncomfortable, and I mean yeah it's a little bit my fault bc I said *music swells*

And then he said he kissed me. And nopeitynopenopenopenope please stop go away now bye bye this has been fun kindly fuck off byeeeee

And that happened while boy #1 was being all invasive and asking for nudes

And now I'm having a weird feeling where I kinda want to cry but not really and I kinda want to slap boy #1 but I don't want to be anywhere near him and really I kind of just want to go into a world where everything's inherently aroace and nothing's an innuendo or leading someone on or anything and I guess I feel uncomfortable. And everything's bad.

Like I said thanks to boy #1 a lot of times (bc he called me pretty A LOT) and I was gonna type thanks to a comment on here and I couldn't post it because that made me uncomfortable. I don't know why I'm so uncomfortable by all of it but jfccc I am. 

I only said anyway twice!! 

Also the people who have been snapping me today have been disproportionately straight guys. And most of them aren't bad or anything; I'm friends with them, I just need a break from guys, and it's still mostly guys. So yeah any ideas how to make myself feel less Like This? Much appreciated 💜💜