Hey everyone it is Epic here. I am not putting a chapter with this A/N. I have recently watched a YouTube video. It was on princess sakura's channel. You should check her out. She does voice acting for miraculous ladybug and she does an amazing job. She addressed the topic of bullying. Her story is really sad, but I thought that this was a very important thing to address.

I won't get into my side of bullying too much but it does hurt. Really bad this past year has been the hardest for me in terms of friends. One of my friends, let's call her Lili, ditched me for the popular group. I was never popular not do I want to be popular. She really hurt me brought me into deep depression. It still affects me and it probably always will. More friends turned on me because of this. She blamed it on me and said it was my fault we weren't friends anymore. I cried a lot every night. I had my friend, Marissa. She is my best friend and she has has helped me a lot in terms of depression.

Anyway, I have always been a really sensitive person. Every single time Lili shunned me I was really hurt. People started looking down on me at school. It wasn't a good feeling. I started to hate school not wanting to go. I didn't have any friends at school anymore because Lili was my one friend. When she saw me cry, she would come up to me and apologized, acted like nothing happened. I am a very soft hearted person, and I forgive very easily. So she thought if she apologized, I would be her friend again. It worked for about the first twenty times maybe. I tried to cling on to this friend cuz I didn't want to lose another one. As time when on I realized that she wasn't my friend. I started standing up for myself a little. Fighting back just a sliver. I had to let her go. Eventually she turned on all her friends except the popular girls. Those girls that she ditched became my friends so school got a little bit better.

I have lost a lot of friends due to other people coming in and taking them from me. I sometimes think that I am never good enough for people. Sometimes I consider people friends when I know I am not. People like to use me because I am smart. I hate it! People using me. I don't think there is one person who hasn't used me in my class. Sometimes I wish I wasn't smart or soft hearted because I give in so easily! I just hate it. Someone told me that the popular girls gossip about me. I don't knew if I should believe that person though because I am nothing to gossip over.

Guys. Bullying hurts. I didn't mention some things that really happened at school. It affects me so much. Every time I pick up a knife or sharp object, I wonder what would happen if I did cut myself. I never have. I resist the temptation. I know that I shouldn't so don't and I hope I never will. We need to stand up for ourselves. Stop bullying.

BUT just like everything else there is always two sides. I was on the being bullied side. There is another side. The bullier's side. You don't know what that person is going through. Nine times out of ten you don't know what their life outside of school is like. They could be abused causing them to mirror the parents behavior. They could have a death in the family, or people they love doing drugs. The possibilities are endless really. So try to be sympathetic. Most people fail to see this side. They fail to acknowledge it. Everyone suffers in one way or another. Now you all are probably screaming at my face saying then why do you hate Lili? My answer is simple. I know her life out of school. She was my friend before after all. Her only desire was to be popular. I am very kind person, comforting, most things you want in a friend. She didn't care she ditched my anyway cuz she wanted to be popular that bad! I gave her many chances to make it up. Be my friend but she abused her chances thinking they are infinite.

Read the quote above if you haven't. It is my life mission to make people feel loved, important, special. I comfort those who are sad and bullied. People are really broken as am I. But hold on tight because life is a dollar coaster. It has it's ups and downs some of those downs go really low but they will always look up in the end. Grab my hand *holds out hand* We can do this together.

So guys, be weary. If you want to talk to me about your depression or your bullying story then message me. I will listen to every tiny detail you say. I know a lot of people say this. But I really do care about all of you. You are all important. Not for views, for votes, for reads. I love talking to you guys. I love writing for you guys. So please don't be doubtful that I won't listen. Don't be hesitate to talk to me. I can try to help you I promise. I'm sorry that this wasn't a happy A/N but thanks for reading it listening to my rambling. I love you all so much. I wouldn't care if you posted your own bullying story on your accounts. Make sure to tag me so I can read it. Yeah guys! We need to spread the message! Post it on your account if you are comfortable doing that! We need to spread the message everyone! STOP BULLYING! Sorry that I keep updating this chapter. I want to really start up something! Get the word out and stop bullying! You guys have actually talked to me, and I want to take this by storm! I am going to tag a few people, if you want to share your story with the world do it! Tag more people! Have them tag even more people! I am excited honestly. If you don't want to share that's perfectly fine with me. I don't blame you.
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Please spread the word! Let's get a revolution going for goodness sakes! Even if I didn't tag you spread the word!!!
Remember live, love, learn!
Signing out for now, ~Epic ❤️

She said she was okay.
And you believed her?
Let me let you wants wrong with her.
She's tired.
That's exactly what she is, tired.
She's tired of being hurt.
She's tired of being let down.
She's tired of the lies.
She's tired of caring to little, and not caring at all.
She's tired of holding it in.
She's tired of feeling broken, damaged, worthless, never good enough, pain.
She's tired of being judged for everything she does.
She's tired of her flaws and insecurities.
She's tired of trying.
She's tired of getting her hopes up.
She's tired of being treated like crap.
She's tired of being herself.
She's tired, want to know how I know all of this?
Because she's me, and I'm really tired.

Just a sad quote that I like. It's a good way to look at being tired. There is an acronym for it too.